Celest

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  1. -Report 011- So, I'm a bad host. I've been busy with a bunch of things during the past week, and haven't had any time to actively force with Vinyl, aside from trying to do some active forcing at night before passing out shortly into it. Since that weekend is now over, technically I'd have time to get back into it, so what I might have to end up doing is primarily work on passive forcing in the meantime to pick up the ball and get back to where we were.
  2. I'll be honest, mine is actually the pastel version. How I go about this is to imagine a mirror, and seeing myself into it, then imaging my tulpa standing by my side, that way I can base off the proportions. Now, when it comes to depth and figure, I normally imagine it something 'cell-shaded', like this: Definitely helps with things like turning around or more complex/angled motion.
  3. I use mirrors in my wonderland to help things such as a height/proportion comparison, but can be applied in real life for thing such as imposition practice. I'd say try it, and if it works for you, keep at it.
  4. - Lucid Dream (30 Minutes) Effects Before: Was in a relatively calm state, a bit mentally active, couldn't really focus on one particular thought for too long of a length of time. Was later at night, probably around 11:30PM. Effects After: Felt relatively calmer, thoughts weren't moving anywhere near as fast, went to bed straight after to see if it would help transistion into a lucid dream, which unfortunately it did not, however I'm not normally one who has a lot of dreams, nor remembers them, however I had either 'multiple dreams' or a 'scenario changing' dream, and I remember them quite vividly. One of them was an old church I used to go to as a kid, but in the dream I felt like skipping out on the service, so I did. The second one was, for some reason, I had no pants and I was looking for my college dorm room, but didn't know where it was or it no longer existed. I'm not in college. Nowhere in my dreams did I have any 'lucidity', nor did I have any encounters with Vinyl, but due to recollecting dreams easier and possibly having more, it might be something that I should do more often to see if results vary. May try different .drgs to see what may help out on forcing.
  5. -Report 010- Took the test again. My wife had distracted me for a split second when I was trying to do both the test and process what she was saying, so Vinyl and I were only one ball off together, both of us counted one shy. So, if eyes were not processed to catch the ball, this means that we're still both right, right?
  6. Really? Thought it looked cluttered, but I can easily change it back.
  7. -Report 009- Trying to work on the parallel processing test daily. Today, I scored 100% on my answer, but I had typed in 16 for Vinyl, when the answer was 14. Either one of two things. I can't hear her say the proper answer, or it's something we need to work more on. I feel as if it may be more of the first one, but will definitely continue working on the test.
  8. New update, regarding thoughts on passive forcing.
  9. You can also try doing some passive forcing throughout the day. Let's say you're at school, since I saw that you were busy with that in a different thread. If you're passing through the halls, or busy waiting on rides, or you just happen to have a quiet moment to yourself, just do some passive narration about what's going on, how your day is going. It helps to keep things active.
  10. The main goals that I have set for this year are having Vinyl be more vocal, and with her own mindvoice instead of using my own at times, and getting her imposed onto my regular vision.
  11. -Report 008- MORE PROGRESS. I had read in a thread earlier today during my workshift about a tulpa parallel processing test, where the screen was divided and both you and your tulpa were to count the number of balls that slid across. I found the test, which I'll link here, Tulpa Parallel Processing Tests v1.0 and Vinyl and I gave it a try. I had counted 22 blue balls, and I heard Vinyl use my thoughts to say 18, which she verified she stated via headpressure. I typed in the results, and both of us were 100% accurate.
  12. A suggest I might make, then, is that if continuous work with Raid is what is ebbing away at your stamina, take a day to relax from it. I'm sure that she will understand if it is something that is mutually decided.
  13. I personally suggest trying to work mostly on visualization for now, definitely narrate to your tulpa, so that at least communication is present on your side. I've seen some reports here and there, cannot recall where as of the moment, where if you have a uncommunicative tulpa at first, when the time comes that they speak, it'll blow you away because you won't be expecting it. As long as you continue to work with them, progress will be made, even if it appears it is not. Part of it is going to be your mindset, and if it helps, if I go to parrot/puppet at all, beforehand I state that any actions I perform are mine, and when I am done, I state that I will no longer parrot/puppet, so if any actions happen past that, I am not consciously putting in an effort to do so, thus meaning that it should be the tulpa that is performing them. Hope this helps at all!
  14. -Report 008- PROGRESS. I continued to use the guide that I linked in my last post, getting into that state of mind is almost instantaneous for me, so what I did was while on the bus home from work, I was in my wonderland with Vinyl, laying down on my bed because I try to put as much of my consciousness into the wonderland, which thus helps me relax when relaxing in there, and I could vividly hear her, even though it was with my voice, 'How was your day?'. The guide did mention that tulpa can speak using your thoughts, but I recall not tracing that particular thought back to me consciously asking it. In fact, everything in that session went really well. Vinyl was moving about on her own, and I did get to learn a bit more about her personality in action that I had originally created her with. For starters, she is an apple thief. I had gone to the 'refridgerator' to pull a snack, and she snagged it away from my hands with magic from the sofa with a smirk on her face. When teasing her about it, she shot a seed from her mouth at me. If progress continues in this fashion, I am going to be a very happy camper.
  15. Do you anything going on in life that's taking up a lot of your stamina?
  16. -Report 007- Not much progress here. The headpressure still exists, so we still have a level of communication, minds eye visualization is still rather keen, and I do not have any problems visualizing her in our wonderland. I tried a certain guide, http://pastebin.com/fi4krATc, and the frontal headpressure was almost instantaneous, so getting into the right mindset doesn't seem to be a challenge, but I didn't get a response from Vinyl during that session that I could make out. Could be that I just need to work with it more, give it time, since not everyone receives responses on day one.
  17. I recall seeing that guide earlier here on the forums, but haven't given it a shot myself. If it's something that you noticed progress in, then perhaps I should give it a go, as well. Glad to hear that things are going well for the two of you!
  18. -Report 006- Apparently I made Vinyl a bit uncomfortable last night during forcing. I tried having her take the personality test to see where she would land, but she was only able to answer some of the questions, whereas on the rest of them, she just hesitated and didn't answer. It's more than likely because she's still young and not really experienced, so we might just re-take the test/finish the test about a month from now once she's had a bit more time to develop. EDIT: Forgot to add this on the last report, but Vinyl and I had a 'conversation' one night, because I had asked her if she was jealous of my wife. Surprisingly, Vinyl replied with a no. Now, either she's not vocal yet, or I just can't hear her yet, but I asked her why is that, because my wife was someone physical that I can interact with anytime, whereas Vinyl required work and effort, and the reasoning we came up with is because Vinyl is Vinyl. It doesn't matter if she's a tulpa or real, but that she's real to me, and that she'll always be there. That meant a lot to me.
  19. Not necessarily. If you take one that was never given a personality, there's no problem as there is nothing to fall back on. Basically, in both mine and Jimmy's case, Vinyl is practically a shell, and we're just installing our own custom OS into them. As for me, though, to answer OP's question, the head doesn't really bother me all that much. The thing that took the longest was figuring out how tall I wanted her. I eventually decided around chest height for the top of her horn, didn't want her being too short.
  20. Self: Will edit post after having Vinyl take one.
  21. Both were rather easy for me. I already had a form in mind for Vinyl, and since I wanted to fill that shell with a custom personality, I wanted to make her a compliment to my own personality. I wanted her goofy like myself, yet to be capable of having serious moments in times of need. Gave her a gamer personality similar to my own, as well as a loose taste in music, so that she would adapt it as she pleased as time moved on.
  22. Slight update adding another paragraph regarding multiple headpressure responses.
  23. -Report 005- Been sick for the past week with a mixture of an upper respiratory infection and a stomach infection. Suffice to say, during the sick time, I haven't made any real progress with Vinyl, however a couple of gems to report are that in the past, she would only communicate with left/right headpressure for positive/negative. We've enhanced that slightly so now we have four directions for responses. Left for positive, right for negative, forward for OK, and back of head for uncertainty. We went through a series of questions that she was able to answer with responses from each section, so we're getting further along! Visualization in my head is getting better, as well. She's remained steady with a physical appearance regarding facial structure, but I've noticed that she changes her hair a bit. Some days, it'll be the traditional 'spiky' Vinyl Scratch hair, and on a few occassions she has worn it down, more like a realistic 'layered' version of the style. Either way, I'm happy with how she looks.
  24. Yes, go back to Touhou so I can spam you with shots. When was the last explicit thought you had with your tulpa? (if you had one, if you did, don't feel as if you have to share what it was)
  25. If you DO need any help, you could always ask. I'm not trying to be perverted in the slightest here, but I might be able to toss you some suggestions that might help you emulate a type of 'feel' you're going for if it's something you decide you'll need. If it's something you're uncomfortable asking, that's completely fine. If anything, feel free to drop a PM.