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    "This hypnagogic condition. Attention-faculty diminished so that twilight state obtains; world seen merely in symbolic, archetypal aspect, totally confused with unconscious material."

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  1. Please don't do dissociatives alone unless you want to wake up next to your door being torn off the frame and being near a pile of clothes that are not yours. Although if you are in the k-hole beer runs are like playing life on hard mode lol
  2. happy hundred to Monika make sure you eat something she would like to taste or spend time on one of her hobbies. make plans for what you both want to do on her birthday. i made sure we ate cake, drank soda pop and watched cartoons when my own's sixth birthday anniversary hit. best wishes.
  3. And I was tryna get a little buzz, so I took a little puff But I think I'm way too high And I ain't wanna come off like a bitch, so I took another hit But I think ma brains too fried And yeah I'm fuckin' faded but I hate it I'm praying that I make it Afraid I'm goin' to die
  4. @tulpacn Albatross was banned by a former tulpa.info administrator (Kiahdaj) several years ago due to violating the rules of the time. An extremely good resource to use is the YOUR DELETED POSTS segment of the website, as this will unearth a large number of threads and associated postings. I would also suggest utilising Internet Archive or other website caching services, for while they are intermittent in the dates and availability collected they contain precious information otherwise lost to bans, user redaction or other latent causes. Closely monitoring tulpa communities and their shared history is a passion of mine so please feel free to message me here or in private should you feel the need.
  5. Great to see you back! When we envision Verdict with golden hair, for some reason we imagine the fibres coalescing into gold ingots maintaining her hair's general shape. I like how Verdict regards another potential tulpa like a sister. One group of tulpas we know rather fondly has a relationship akin to sisterhood despite being so different in appearance and personality...it's really heartwarming. We hope you had a good time on your camping trip and that you're both in good health. As to the nature of reality...who knows? I'm not a philosopher and I despise armchair psychiatry, so my conclusions on the matter of reality as we ought to understand it are scant. If you'd like I could provide some opinions on the matter, but outside of being hollow and depressing they are, above all, opinions.
  7. @Tirisilex controlling tulpa behaviour, specifically in the vein of stemming maliciousness appears to be a kind of theme with some of your posts. Have you thought about the prospect that tulpa horror stories could be like urban legends, creepypasta/copypasta or simply kinds of jocular exertion brought about by individuals who deliberately mislead others for sheer amusement? If you've ever visited different *chan tulpa boards you'll see what I mean. Jake, one of the earliest users registered here and who posted during the /mlp/ days confirmed that the Pinkie Pie tulpa screaming constantly post was little more than a joke or meme that got out of hand until it was believed to be true. Taking these kinds of myths seriously appears to be a problem on areas like r/tulpas because there's little critical foresight yet too much belief that certain things can and do go wrong. It's fucky but I theorise a lot of these stories are meant to divert or filter out users who aren't serious or can't maintain the wherewithal to successfully live with tulpas to begin with. Honestly if you believe these kinds of events can transpire without scary underlying causes or equally atrocious input then you'll probably force yourself into these episodes not unlike a self-fulfilling prophecy. Could you refocus or not dwell far too long on a tulpa being genuinely evil and/or terrifying? It's natural to have fears during tulpa creation process but the trick is to not let them consume you. Tulpas are a lot more formidable than we give credit for and will soldier on in spite of our own misgivings, neuroses and inadequacies. If you do happen to encounter a "devilish" tulpa, please do not seek to harm or destroy them. Holy shit have I seen some poor tulpas get put through the wringer and worse because a self-centered host wasn't up to buckling down and realising that a tulpa was scared, needed their attentions or just wanted help. As for the guide you envision, how would you justify its existence in further developing tulpas? If one goes with traditional guidelines concerning the input of various traits and expects deviation to happen, to what end would you employ said guide to inculcate compassion and healthily good behaviour?
  8. Do you think tulpas are capable of rendering health benefits on their own, solarchariot? Perhaps from a kind of cooperative or symbiotic aspect, there could be some improvement. That is one's tulpa introduces gradual changes to the body's routine via influencing host decisions (making a request or suggestion for instance) or using their own control over the body (switching/possession/what have you) through time to better acclimate to the body's environs, the possessor's wishes or the whole group's specific needs. Either way this line of thought hearkens back unto Tewi's observation concerning tulpas being proactive, which I can personally confirm (my blood pressure and weight have been lowered thanks to my own's insistence.) Unlike the mental benefits, I'm unsure if there are any clinical means of observing said improvement without utilising a fair amount of resources and uncomfortably close metrics of one's mortal coil. Regardless I think it would be interesting to see how a tulpa's personality can affect one's physical characteristics, particularly kinds of vital signs within isolated situations. Would a tulpa with a soothing personality alleviate their host's short temper and ease this person's blood pressure as well as their heart rate? Alternatively, would a feisty and hot-blooded tulpa be able to provide an edge to their host's physical performance, thereby raising items such as temperature, blood pressure, heart rate, et cetera? I also ponder what tulpas are capable of in the way of affecting biochemistry...would a tulpa be able to induce adrenaline? Balance neurochemicals like dopamine, serotonin, endorphins? Does the proposed gestation of neural tissue that accommodates tulpas maintain any observable physical differences in the host brain (and if so, what are they?) I would be careful in using this angle of physical benefits to invite others in creating tulpas. With the mental side of things irresponsible hosts can and have misused the tulpa concept for their own ends, namely someone to "take over" after host egocide, forcing their tulpa(s) to switch and have the host's responsibilities foisted on to the tulpa(s), deliberately using tulpas for purely experimental work involving their observations of their own consciousness (and very little else)...I would not like to see more incentives to abuse tulpas even though the responsibility for these actions fall squarely on those foolish enough to tread such cruel and dangerous places. I don't blame you for wanting to make the concept less unreal. I may be set in my ways, yet I believe that the notions of fantasy and lack of disbelief's suspension can only be dispelled by making the journey inwards. Only then can a tulpa's eyes as well as the host's eyes are to be opened.
  9. I feel that we are due for a great scattering. Or from another perspective, accept that something of this magnitude has already happened. I do not think of splitting off and becoming more personal in one's tulpa efforts is a sign of failure or lessening of the whole. On the rather, I feel it is but another note of shared success, in that someone as a host and their loved ones, their tulpas, have spun off the contemplative axle and have re-entered the universe not as one but two or even more. Each tulpa conceived and raised in benevolence and good love is a blessing, as the love and goodness returned unto the host is likewise miraculous. There is a stigma in approaching community.tulpa.info as there are prejudices limiting one's presence on Reddit and the various *chan boards. The irony that we can share our ideas and beliefs across very many physical miles with our machines yet are divided into little group entities is observed immediately, as we are segmented by the preconceived notions of one group wishing to distance itself from the others for seemingly trivial reasons. Without an ounce of defeatism I believe the concepts of growth and burgeoning user numbers are irrelevant. If we are to trace the tulpa phenomenon back to its obscured beginnings in Tibet, one could say that the tulpa concept has grown and evolved significantly in the centuries after western occultists and mystics transplanted the concept. Just as it was then, I believe we as more experienced users must utilise our victories and obstacles alike to lift up and nourish any who come in askance. Should they feel inclined to return and likewise enrich us with their experiences and better qualities, most excellent. Should they wish to take leave of us indefinitely, just as well. One can only hope in the latter case they shall all be given the tools and fortitude to persevere and hold one-another dearly through all troubles. I feel that rather than a cemetery, tulpa.info ought to be like a terminus at the crossroads. Pointing others in the right direction. Truth be told, tulpas are an esoteric subject many of a skeptical, religious or incredulous disposition are prone to reject in the rare case they do research the subject. As was stated above, so too are there a bevy of moral quandaries regarding if one is prepared for accommodating tulpas or not, likewise their patience and innate abilities regarding tulpa creation. Then the personalities drawn to various segments of the tulpa community, be it .info or something else in its entirety. After being filtered through these lenses, is it unreasonable to think our numbers dwindling? No matter the case, I feel we are given purpose in providing information and content enough to shape users for the outward journey they shall make throughout their lives. I feel that if growth shall be engendered in the tulpa community, it shall involve a great deal of these lost ones, those who have gotten up and left, returning to us with ideas and observations we have never considered before. All while those remaining inspire others enough to stop lurking and speak up, or keeping the forum healthily conducive to all opinions by encouraging and supporting others without forethought.
  10. I do not happen to remember you or yours, nonetheless I welcome you all back. There will be no judgement cast from me as to your past and current situation. In the least I hope you all are coming to anchor yourselves and find the necessary resources to acclimate to the challenges you've faced. Should you feel the need to list your concerns or talk about issues, post on this thread or elsewhere. Places like these exist as outlets for when we are unable to communicate our ideas and concerns to those in real life without risking stigmas. I don't think you should be ashamed of coming from /mlp/, as some early influx of members to this site were transplants to this forum after Scruffy banned tulpas as well as other verboten subjects from the board. Without 4chan's influence some parts of this site's content wouldn't exist, at least not in a form we recognise today. As you may have noticed very many things have changed since six years ago. The upper echelons are mostly the same yet the drainage of various monads and contributors of old has left a kind of barren quality to the community's landscape. Of course there is (always will be?) an interest in tulpas, so it remains that the extant divisions of the old guard impart their wisdom and experience where applicable. I do not know you, yet I am glad you decided to come back. May you and yours receive blessings and rejuvenating peace.
  11. @SurpriseTheGolden I've never heard of or played that title before. Apparently it's based off the Lion King and Iron Giant? As for the sound, we do think it sounds good. There is a kind of falsetto present yet it's not unpolished. If anything the sound is "fuzzy" but you've singled out the clarity issues to faulty drivers and electronic interference being routed through your speaker/microphone setup. If you make videos and possess as a tulpa, I think it's inevitable for anyone to ask questions about your voice and other attributes. I have issues with how I sound as well but I've found that not being painfully self-conscious or attentive to snide criticism helps a lot. Just keep practising and remain comfortable. In time viewers will be able to make better distinctions between your voice and your host's.
  12. @Stingray I like the Tarkovsky film quite a lot. The part where they get to the Meat Grinder anomaly and one of the characters has to stop and tell the others to wait rings clear in my mind still. Seeing the atheist journalist don the crown of thorns, the meetup at the bar, the acquisition of the jerry cans, the owl fly over the room of sand dunes and the psychic girl at the very end move the glass of water are still there too. I haven't read ROADSIDE PICNIC besides its various synopses (the guide's newborn daughter being a simian creature who shrieks at all hours makes me wince and frown) but like with other extraterrestrial ramification novels I concentrate on how the perceived treasures sought are little more than just trash or scattered useless pieces of waste left behind by lifeforms more complicated or otherworldly than what we currently understand. One reason why I like LOST ALPHA is because the makers wrote in little connections to ROADSIDE PICNIC, like how some of the Ecologist faction theorise that artefacts are just nothing more than plainly residual exotic matter, like excretions given off by anomalies in the Zone after blowouts. We can imagine Chrysalis in a S.T.A.L.K.E.R. setting where she's wearing a modified Sunrise suit and waving an artefact detector around a field of springboard anomalies, with some caught artefacts in a tiny knapsack. Does she enjoy the S.T.A.L.K.E.R. franchise as well?
  13. @evanescent on some *chan threads you'll find people doing this and similar forcing experiments themselves. One particular variation I've read about is "romantic movie forcing" wherein a host and its tulpa(s) act out parts of their preferred films as a more in-depth practise of forcing. Of course this can be routed towards other mediums and themes all parties can agree upon or find conducive to further development. However I would exercise some caution for if one is to not offer a clear separation between said tulpas and the characters they play there could be identity concerns.