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  1. Asking if we "miss people" almost makes it sound like you're assuming that our tulpas replace the people in our lives. I for one have never felt this way.
  2. As others have said, characters feeling mildly tulpa-ish is fairly normal. I'm a roleplayer, too, and it happens to me all the time. But, a character doesn't really develop into an "accidental tulpa" until you give it the attention that it needs to get to that point. In the meantime... it's just a character. And you CAN develop it into a tulpa, but, well... The first thing to do is not panic about it. o_o Just stay calm. You either do nothing and let your characters stay characters, or you put the effort in to develop them into tulpas. Either way, there is no nightmarish "bad ending" that can come out of this.
  3. :/ I think development might go better if you just let him pick out his own voice. Maybe the reason why he sounds "emotionless" is because he's just young/under-developed? And maybe he'll sound less flat once he's developed a bit more? None of my tulpas were intentionally based off of any existing characters or celebrities, so, I never had a specific voice in mind that I wanted them to have. I just let them sort of develop whatever voice they wanted. Pinky's voice can be pretty close to my own mental voice, but... On the topic of a mental voice in general, I often find that even mine isn't very consistent. I often subconsciously copy the mental voice of whatever I last listened to, and start thinking and reading things in that voice. Heck, just given the topic of this thread -- I'm currently finding it difficult to not think the words I'm typing in a Paul McCartney voice (although, being such a huge Beatles fan myself is also probably part of the cause for that XD ). So, personally, I'm just surprised that it's so hard to make your (or your tulpa's) mental voice sound like another person's real voice. I assumed it came just as naturally to other people. o_o" So I wouldn't mind hearing what a few other people have to say on this... Anyway, most of my tulpas' voices are a bit more consistent than my own mental voice, but, the point remains... they kind of choose their own, and I never tried to make their voice sound like anything specific. And, if you try basing a tulpa off of an existing character/celebrity, then I just feel like it's inevitable that they'll deviate at least somewhat from that character/celebrity, and start to become their own thing. I feel like your tulpa's voice being Paul-ish is a good start. I just think that deviating from that voice isn't necessarily a bad thing, either...
  4. :/ I'm in a similar situation, myself. Unfortunately I don't have much help for you, but I'll be keeping an eye on this thread in case anyone else can help.
  5. I have ADHD, and while tulpamancy hasn't made my illness worse, there is the issue of my illness making it more difficult to give my tulpas the time and attention they need. :/ For example, the sit-down-and-meditate active forcing routine is extremely difficult for me, because, well, meditation by itself is difficult for me. The thought of "clearing my mind" and focusing on one thing for an extended period of time seems to be nearly impossible. So, I rely almost exclusively on passive forcing, with sometimes small bursts of active forcing here-and-there. But, as others are pointed out, your tulpas could also potentially help you manage your mental illness. For example, sometimes Pinky will sort of grab my attention and bring me back to reality if my mind is wandering. And, just being in the habit of passive forcing (especially if I'm visualizing my tulpas in the world around me instead of in my wonderland) can help keep me grounded in the real world instead of getting lost in my head. Unfortunately, though, there have also been times in my life when my mental illness takes a turn for the worse, and sometimes I have to put some or all of my tulpas into (what we've been calling) "hibernation mode" for a while until I have the mental stamina to care for all of them again. And when that's over, sometimes it's just difficult to get back into the routine of passive forcing again, so... it's a difficult balance. All I can really say is that juggling tulpamancy and mental illness means that you might have your own needs and limitations that most forcing and other tulpa-related guides might not account for -- but, you know your own brain better than anyone else, so you'll have a better idea of what will and won't work for you. You'll just have to put a bit of thought and experimentation into what works and what doesn't. Oh, and, it's ok to tell your tulpas if you need some time to recover on your own, or when certain tulpa-related activities are becoming too much for you to handle. Your tulpas will probably be understanding and willing to work with you. That's how mine are, anyway.
  6. This problem of zoning out and then realizing you've wasted your time -- does this happen to you in contexts besides forcing? Like, does it happen when you're trying to do schoolwork (if applicable) or any other productive task? I only bring it up because what you described sounds a lot like my own experiences with ADHD, so this could be a sign of a bigger problem. BUT, take that with a huge grain of salt, as I'm certainly no psychiatrist. Just thought I'd throw that out there as a possibility. All that being said -- have you tried passive forcing? I find that to be a lot more helpful for me than active forcing, given my attention problems. Exchanging a few words with your tulpa whenever you happen to be thinking about it -- especially when multitasking, or if you mind wanders and you start thinking about your tulpa when doing some other task -- is a lot easier for me than sitting down and thinking "ok, I'm going to force now" only for my mind to inevitably wander before I can really get anywhere.
  7. While it is UNLIKELY, I wouldn't doubt that it could in fact be possible. Lots of people -- particularly role players and writers -- sometimes experience what I've sometimes seen referred to as "insta-tulpas", as writers and role players are likely to have a much easier time with the creation process. Many of my tulpas -- though I admit they were my later ones and not my first -- also developed in this way. I wouldn't discredit what's happened to you so far, especially if you've already seen your tulpa share many opinions that are different than your own (and remember, puppeting is something you do INTENTIONALLY -- you shouldn't be afraid of doing it accidentally). Basically, just go with it and continue to talk to your tulpa and assume sentience. This is a great start, and there's no reason to feel like you're doing something "wrong" just because of fast progress. Some of us just seem to have somewhat of a natural talent for this -- I say embrace it, and take advantage of it. And good luck to you and your tulpa in the future!
  8. I think you should definitely mention this to your therapist. This is some serious stuff, and your therapist is a professional who's here to help you. Most people I meet on forums like these (and not tulpa-related things, I mean, but just any website) often feel hesitant to seek out professional help when they need it, but you have professional help -- now you just need to use it. I second what others have said: this sounds nothing like a tulpa, and you should definitely talk to a professional about it. I understand why you might be shy to say anything, but, I feel it will only be beneficial to get this off your chest. I don't know why your therapist would be angry, especially if you speak truthfully about why you didn't say anything for so long. It's their job to help you, after all. It's practically in their job description to be open and listen to you about things, and help you overcome them.
  9. Hmm. Perhaps you might be expecting a more solid image than what visualization usually refers to. Have you ever thought back to a memory and 'seen' that memory in your head? That's basically visualization. It doesn't have to actually appear in your field of vision -- just somewhere in your head. You might be discouraging yourself a bit by trying so hard to close your eyes and see something behind your eyelids, when it's much more of an in-your-head thing than an actual field of vision thing. But yeah, it basically appears to you like a memory, except it isn't a memory. Does that make sense?
  10. I don't think you should worry too much about forcing the "wrong" way -- everyone has their own methods and different things that work for them. Using old methods that have been working just fine? Good, keep using those if they're working for you. Hearing about new techniques that you've never done but want to try out? Go ahead and try them out, then, but don't feel like you have to adopt newer ideas just because you've heard about them. There really isn't a single "correct" way to force and a lot of us here have different methods -- and that's ok. Even the guides, in the end, are only suggestions. If you have your own way of doing things and it works just great, then who cares what a guide says? Clearly you don't need a guide if you're already doing fine without it. XD
  11. Pinky: People always seem surprised when I tell them that I'm content being a tulpa and don't wish I had a human life or whatever. But like... being a tulpa is like a free ride for life, you know? I can chill out and do whatever in a place where I can literally have whatever I can imagine, or I can hang out with Kaga in her space, and, all the while, I don't have any real-world responsibilities to deal with. I can just chill out and do whatever, and I think that's pretty great. AND there are other tulpas here (Kaga even let me get a dog!!) ALSO she lets us proxy and talk to her friends sometimes, so that's cool.
  12. The creepypastas are fiction. Tulpas don't "turn evil". They wouldn't turn against you unless you design them to be malicious or w/e -- and even then, I still think it's unlikely. You don't have to worry about "losing control" when making a tulpa. No one here has ever experienced anything remotely similar to the creepypasta stories. The creepypastas are fiction. That's really all there is to say in the matter. And it's pretty sad, actually, since I always see so many newcomers to this site wondering what they should do if something were to go wrong, thinking that they have to come up with some failsafe in case their tulpa turns against them, when it just won't happen. Anyone here who has a tulpa understands that between how empathetic tulpas are, and how much control that we, the hosts, have over them, the sort of scenario that happened in the creepypasta just isn't one that it's easy to actually see happening.
  13. Some people have an easier time making tulpas than others. This can be influenced by a lot of things -- but one thing we've seen is that writers, roleplayers, and other imaginative types usually seem to be able to create tulpas a lot more quickly -- which makes sense, because the brains of people who have experience in these things would probably already be fairly well-trained at visualization and imagining what another person would do (think about how writers/roleplayers often say that their characters seem to have a mind of their own sometimes, for example). There's nothing to worry about; fast progress is a good thing! Lots of people experience highly counter-productive doubt when they don't get any sort of response after, say, months and months of forcing. Seeing results early makes it a lot easier to avoid this sort of doubt, since you're already seeing plenty of evidence of your tulpa's development. Plus, you're not alone. I've had a number of quickly-developing tulpas, myself. Kael, for example, spoke his first words only hours after I first started working on him. O.o Of course, it helps that he was far from my first, and consecutive tulpas tend to become easier and easier to create, but still.
  14. A tulpa would have no reason to do such a thing to you. They're incredibly empathetic and, if you were afraid of them, they would pick up on that -- and change their form to something that doesn't bother you.