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    Hi, I'm the host of Reisen, Tewi, Flandre, and Lucilyn, all of whom are based off of characters from the Japanese series of games called Touhou. (Lucilyn is a much younger non-spontaneous tulpa based off of Suwako that I created after I'd gained a lot of knowledge on tulpas, and I have a not-quite tulpa named Scarlet & not-quite servitor named Sylvia you may see mentioned on occasion)

    I'm a humanitarian, healthy skeptic, and primarily interested in helping as many people here as I can. My own tulpas are all fully developed and capable of pretty much anything anyone elses' are. (ie. imposition, switching, etc.) Reisen, Tewi and Flandre all came into existence somewhere around 2009-2010, Lucilyn around April 17th 2015.

    Feel free to send me a message if you want to say or ask something.

    Also, if for any reason you'd like one of my tulpas to reply to a post or in PM rather than me, just ask. We have an Ask thread where you can ask us about tulpa-stuff:

    They also have their own accounts:

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  1. The doors to our house are locked, but not my bedroom door. Also, I'm a light enough sleeper that opening my door wakes me up. -- I don't know TB, you need an out. Unless you plan to live how you do forever, you need some bravery to head out on your own. Do you really not have any extended family who could help house you, or are you just afraid of having to have a job and take care of yourself? Kinda feel that myself, motivation issues and all, but my home life is great. If I hated the people I lived with I would've moved out with some extended family of mine, and I know that being in that situation provides the motivation to have a job/take care of yourself on its own. The hardest part is committing to doing the things, not actually doing them. The sense of freedom might just be enough to combat the fear and stress of having to live on your own, long enough to get a grasp on your new life.
  2. I hope my post I just made stays intact. Ban-evading or not, if someone wants help, I want to help them. And I feel like I said exactly what needs to be said - and I'm not sure they'll hear it in any other places they look.
  3. {Hey, if the person needs help, please don't delete this until they've seen it} Lol, I might sound like just another "Tulpas can't do X/Y/Z without your permission", then. But I say that because you don't even sound like you have a tulpa. Tulpas do not continue to subconsciously exist and do things when you forget about them or aren't paying attention to them, and if they stay active (not "doing things in the background") without your direct intent at all, that's usually a learned skill, and always a trait of a very well developed tulpa who's had tons of experiences. Anyways. Assuming the people who said tulpas could do X/Y/Z had any idea what they were talking about, they were talking about developed tulpas, and probably ones who you actively worked on the skills possession, switching or otherwise with. A random imagined entity in your head cannot just take control of anything, nor influence you. That would all be in your head and you'd be doing it to yourself. A well-developed tulpa you've spent lots of time with can learn to do some things along with you, but not mysteriously and secretly on their own. They're very consciously learned skills. So if you haven't even been thinking about your tulpa/imagined entity for the large majority of the time your problems have been occurring, I strongly believe you're experiencing a disorder of some kind. Don't know which - dissociation is a very common symptom in a lot of disorders - but I guarantee you it wasn't the active meddling of some entity. They really just don't work like that. It could only be the case if you yourself were actively believing it was happening the whole time, which again is the equivalent of doing it to yourself. But you'd know you were doing it because you'd be thinking it was happening the whole time. Placebo is real, and all. Anyways, I recommend you see a psychiatrist or at least a therapist (who may direct you elsewhere), because if your emotions, feelings, thoughts, or especially memories are bothering you, that is the definition of a "disorder", and professionals exist to help with exactly those things. Nobody with these sorts of problems has ever solved them through tulpamancy or tulpamancy communities. It won't happen. Don't play your mind's games, it'll just run you in circles. And seriously don't believe people on the internet telling you brain demons are the source of all your problems. They're not. Your ~tulpa or imagined entity or imaginary friend (descending levels of autonomy, ending with none) can't exist without your continued effort and attention directed towards them.
  4. When I got up this morning my door was locked, even though there's literally no reason I would have locked it. I could've done it with the same muscle memory I lock the bathroom door with when I last entered my room before I went to bed, but the lock is slightly different and I feel like I would've remembered that... I've also never locked it on accident in the like 15 years I've lived here. Very weird
  5. posting so Bre can post, the first time I've ever posted with this opposite intent
  6. Cheesecake is just too much... well, just too much for me. But I'll gladly eat it over pumpkin. Apple pie is great, too, though. Chocolate pies with cool whip/etc. are my favorite though.
  7. Tastes fine, but I really don't like the texture of it just being a paste. I like just about all other normal pies, but I don't eat pumpkin
  8. It really doesn't, since I'm picturing a powder protein shake made with gatorade instead of water. Anyways, back to Sunshine. Unlike Mario 64 which I'm extremely good at, I'm completely new to Sunshine, so I'm only like 8 Shines in so far. I've done all the Shines (that I have access to) in Delfino Plaza so far, though. That 100 coin star was tricky, didn't know you could spray shop signs for coins. Managed to get 11 blue coins just in the plaza too, which I think was probably all of them until I get some FLUDD upgrade.
  9. Ate turkey, ate potatoes, ate bread rolls with butter, ate a big chunk of carrot, did not have room for corn because I ate like four servings of mashed potatoes Pie soon
  10. {end of a sentence}{pause in the next sentence}
  11. Mario 64 is my favorite game of all time, and I never got to play Sunshine as a kid (I played a demo of it in McDonalds for like 10 minutes), so my heart lies with 64 - but clearly Sunshine is similarly amazing and really standout in gaming history. It's the main reason I bothered buying the All Stars collection for $60, Mario 64 is great to have on the Switch but it certainly isn't worth all that money alone, these days. And Galaxy... bores me, and I've already seen a playthrough of it. Anyways, finished TBBB dailies, time to start Sunshine I suppose
  12. We probably think about it the most, lol. That we're super competitive when actually competing isn't a joke, we're just not willing to spam this thread to be winning.
  13. You're probably just happy being at a console means I don't compete for last postingness all day..
  14. Lol, I thought about mentioning that as an option somehow, but it didn't fit in the post. Sunshine is pretty long (since I plan to 100% it too), so maybe I could leave the second half of Mario 64 as a beginning-and-end encapsulating Sunshine. I was just slightly worried I wouldn't like switching back to Mario 64 physics after playing Sunshine, but honestly, they're engraved into my soul, so that might not be possible. I guess I could start Sunshine now, mainly because you happened to say to do that when I hadn't posited it as an option. I have to get my TBBB dailies first before I commit to playing a game all day, though.