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  1. Today, Fenchurch is three and a half. We've been talking less than before. I wouldn't even feel confident in saying that it's every day anymore. We definitely don't have conversations anymore. In spite of that, she's still in here, and there are times when I'm really glad of it.


    I haven't made any progress with imposition in a long time. I have successfully been hypnotized a few times though, even achieving eye catalepsy once. Though I'm not making as much progress there as I'd like to either.


    I've stopped hypnotizing other people, though I am still learning new things. If I had the confidence to practice in person, I believe I'd quickly become one of the best hypnotists I've ever known. As it is, my inductions can be weak, but otherwise I rate myself quite highly.


    My girlfriend and I have moved into an apartment. I'm feeling more and more that I would like to stick with her for the rest of my life. She's not everything I want in a woman, but I don't think the sort of women I want are going to be able to put up with me.


    My ADHD is still a limiting factor in my life. I'm hoping that I'll be able to defeat it with hypnosis, but at the rate I'm going, I'll probably be in the same place years from now.


    I guess that's all I really have to say.

  2. The Fundamental Truth of Reality in Mist World

    The Definition of Reality: The shared perception of an objective and seemingly tangible environment by a collection of self aware sentient beings. - As it is written in the Ashanti Codex at the Sanctuarium College of Mist Sciences by Professor Emeritus, Ashanti, Mystic of the Grey.


    I. Players as “Gamer Gods” –

    A. Can a group of Dungeons and Dragons nerds bring a game world into "reality" through a process of sub-creation in which the story becomes so manifestly real it affects the players psychologically and perhaps even physically? It doesn't requires drugs to induce an altered perception of reality. What is real anyway? Story telling and myth making are as old as human kind. In another age, the stories told by shaman of the adventures and antics of creatures in the spirit world were real to those who listened to them. It was part of the universe of the listeners and their perception of reality.


    I really like this idea. Reminds me of a few things I've read. I know there was a trilogy of novels that had a premise like this, but the name isn't coming to mind at the moment.

  3. I have hypnotized someone to feel like she was being choked (it was a turn-on for her) and she actually did pass out from it. I don't think her airway closed, but she did stop breathing.


    I believe this is safe in the sense that if you pass out, you will start breathing again. That being said, be very careful doing this in situations where it would be dangerous to pass out, like driving a car.

  4. Looking for girlfriends on the internet, unless you're on a dating site, just doesn't work man.


    Nearly all of my relationships started online, and in my experience, dating sites don't really work. The sorts of girls you meet on dating sites (in my experience, at least) are either looking for something casual, or are somewhat desperate.


    But the sort of girl who replies to this sort of thing is also likely to be desperate. Desperation is unattractive to everything but desperation.

  5. If you're like me, you're the sort of person who reads this sort of thing and thinks "Well, I could do that if I wanted to, but I don't want to." Please actually do this. It only takes a few minutes, and I bet you'll be impressed.


    This is a simple test that I suspect will show you that your "bad visualization" is better than you think.


    The first spoiler tag hides a list of words. Give yourself 30 seconds to memorize them, then cover the words again, open up a text document, and write out as many as you can remember in order. When you've done that, open a new text document and write out as many as you can remember--in reverse order.



    1. Telephone

    2. Sausage

    3. Monkey

    4. Button

    5. Book



    8. Mouse

    9. Stomach

    10. Cardboard

    11. Ferry

    12. Christmas

    13. Athlete

    14. Key

    15. Wigwam

    16. Baby

    17. Kiwi

    18. Bed

    19. Paintbrush

    20. Walnut



    Didn't remember many words, did you? I think I had about five of them, two were out of order, and somehow another word that didn't even belong made its way onto my list. It's fine if you're in the same boat.


    So now, read the text under the following spoiler tag. It's the same word list, but this time each word has been paired with the next word on the list, and a little scene has been written to help you imagine the two words together. Do your best to imagine what you're reading in as vivid detail as you can. When you're done reading, open a new text document and try to list all of the words in order. Then close it, open a new document, and try to list the words in reverse order.


    Warning: some of these will be a little disgusting. That's deliberate, and it helps you to visualize them.



    Telephone/Sausage: Trying to dial an old fashioned telephone using flaccid uncooked sausages. Its utterly impractical to work the dial. It feels revolting and cold to the fingers.


    Sausage/Monkey: Watching footage from a wildlife documentary of a monkey, in the jungle, cooking sausages over a barbecue. These are rare monkeys, this is first time they have been captured on film


    Monkey/Button: You no longer have to spend valuable time doing up your own shirt buttons. You now have a trained monkey to do it for you. You stand there in your socks and he works away doing up your buttons.


    Button/Book: It’s a book entirely about buttons, and in order to open it you have to unfasten a line of big colourful buttons down the side. Hugely impractical marketing gimmick. Makes opening it very irritating.


    Book/Cabbage: Opening up a book to have a quiet read at lunch time, only to find that all of the pages have leaves of rotten stinking cabbage stuck to them. It smells disgusting and the pages are ruined.


    Cabbage/Glass: A beautiful but enormous cabbage created out of glass. The artist is proudly showing it off, flicking it with his fingers and making a ‘pinging’ sound. Everyone is standing around with glasses of wine appreciating it. Personally, you think it’s ridiculous.


    Glass/Mouse: You go to drink a glass of wine, to find that the wine has gone and there is a tiny mouse at the bottom of the glass. The mouse is clearly drunk and is wearing a party hat with streamers over his shoulder.


    Mouse/Stomach: Imagine an extremely bad stomach pain which turns out to be a family of mice living in your stomach. They all come streaming out of your ass. The relief is horrifying.


    Stomach/Cardboard: A pregnant lady covering her stomach with cardboard from old boxes. Taping it around her. Now she feels protected.


    Cardboard/Ferry: Image the Staten Island ferry sinking into the Hudson river because in a spectacularly misjudged move to save money, the entire boat was manufactured out of cardboard.


    Ferry/Christmas: A little ferry sat on top of a Christmas tree, perhaps at a school for the hard of hearing. Little streamers around the hull.


    Christmas/Athlete: Your grandmother on Christmas day having her annual race against Usain Bolt. She’s doing superbly giving the World Record holder a run for his money.


    Athlete/Key: The winning athlete is given a 4-foot-long golden key on a ribbon as a prize. She tries to hold it aloft but it is so heavy she wishes she could just have an ordinary medal.


    Key/Wigwam: A key hangs unnoticed from the headgear of a Native American Indian who is unable to get into his wigwam to use the toilet. Hugely frustrating for him. You can see him searching frantically as you watch the key glinting in the sun.


    Wigwam/Baby: New aged fad, placing your baby to sleep in a wigwam. Imagine a giant baby asleep inside, snoring, making the sides of the wigwam suck in and blow out.


    Baby/Kiwi: A baby shoving green furry kiwi fruit into its mouth. One after another. A huge pile of them waiting to be eaten. Kiwi juice all down his bib, vomiting kiwi everywhere. He loves kiwi fruit.


    Kiwi/Bed: Tucking up a little Kiwi for the night in a big king-sized bed. Sitting next to it and reading it a story until it falls asleep.


    Bed/Paintbrush: You’ve changed the décor of your bedroom and the bed no longer matches. So rather than buy new covers, you decide to paint them the same colours as the wall. Sloshing paint over the entire bed. Watching it go hard and uncomfortable.


    Paintbrush/Walnut: Not owning a nutcracker you’re forced to try and open a huge walnut with a paintbrush. You’re using the brush end and it isn’t working. There’s paint splashing everywhere but you really want that walnut.



    Did you do better? I don't consider myself very good at visualization, but my recall went up from a handful of words to every single word. I actually forgot how many words there were, but I knew when I had written out the entire list. I wrote them just as easily in reverse order. The only mistake that I made was turning



    Christmas tree

    , which is a pretty small error, all things considered.


    If you're interested, this comes from the book Tricks of the Mind, by Derren Brown.

  6. 1500 would be 3:00pm. Also, it is bad form to say "15 o'clock" it is just 1500 with nothing else added. If you're speaking in military time, speak it concisely and accurately soldier. Also, suck in that gut and stand up straight! Did you by any chance mean 0300 and not 1500?


    I believe he meant "later than late" rather than a specific time. Something like saying "29 o'clock at night".

  7. MosterKidd declares Mistgod an attention seeker, a role player, a faker and a liar and attempts to intimidate and harass him into leaving the forum or into not writing. He claims that he is writing false ideas dangerous to tulpamancy and driving members away from the forum.


    That really does sound just like a religion. I've never heard anyone say that ideas are dangerous except in a religious context.

  8. Wow, this explains so much. I have pretty much the opposite experience as you. I started with about a decade of researching tulpas, gradually moving into hypnosis. When I got to furmorphed, everyone there had this bizarre fear/hatred of tulpas that I couldn't understand. I found repeated mention of the companion files, but couldn't find a copy, or even a description of what they were. (If you're interested, you can read my post there.)


    Also, I've come across people with curses before, in the shadier parts on the hypnosis community, and I always thought it was a joke. I mean I'm certainly familiar with the more abusive side of hypnosis, but I'd never come across a curse file.


    Do you still do hypnosis? Are there any techniques you know of that aren't common knowledge?


    As for your tulpa question, I've been with Fenchurch for almost three years now, and intend to stay with her for the rest of my life. We don't always have a much time together as we used to, but we still talk daily, and I don't think that will ever change.

  9. Fenchurch and I looked into this a bit on her 2nd birthday. She's been taking the survey and stylometric test on every birthday, so we compared 2014 Fenchurch to 2015 Fenchurch to my PR (which was longer at the time). The samples of her writing were closer to each other than to my writing, which surprised us. But maybe other samples of my writing will come up even more different. We'll find out in 30 days when we do it again.

  10. I always think a book about Mistgod instead of a book about Melian would be boring.


    It's not exactly a book about Mistgod. Look at Don Quixote, for example. Don Quixote is clearly a book about Don Quixote, but it doesn't work if the book is just like "There was some crazy guy named Don Quixote who thought he should tilt with windmills because in his mind they were giants." The book works because we see Don Quixote through the eyes of Sancho Panza. We experience Sancho Panza's emotions about Don Quixote. We can't relate to Don Quixote, because he's such an outlandish character, but we can relate to Sancho Panza, and we get to experience Don Quixote through him.


    Or Harvey is another good example. Harvey himself is so incredible, the story can't be through his eyes. Even Elwood is too incredible, so we really see the story through the ordinary people Elwood cones in contact with.


    What I'm saying is that your reader can't be Melian -- and if they could be Melian, they wouldn't need to read the book. The reader *can* be Mistgod. Mistgod is ordinary. Mistgod is relatable. Mistgod is the perfect audience surrogate. And if you want to show us how incredible Melian is, you need to show us through Mistgod.


    Does that make sense?

  11. I know you wrote a book about her, but I think it's the wrong book. The book I think you should be writing is a biography. Spend a chapter or so showing who you were pre-Melian, show how she came into your life, show the impact she's had on your life, the good times and the bad times, and bring it all up to the present day. Place the emphasis on the story and the emotion. Make it the next Harry Potter.


    I am far more crazy obsessed about getting across my "technique" and opinions than anyone else I have seen on this forum. I am compulsively obsessed from insecurity about not being taken seriously.


    I take you seriously. But your technique would never work for me. You have maladaptive daydreaming, and I have ADHD. While the two conditions have some things in common, like creativity and imagination, they also have many differences, the biggest being that I don't imagine in pictures, only concepts. Fenchurch is almost always just a voice in my head. I recognize her face when I see a picture, but I can almost never imagine it.

  12. People who are really serious about hobo fighting breed their own hobos, because the ones you catch in the wild usually aren't up to snuff.


    I bought this recently. Haven't actually used it yet, mostly because I haven't really put any work into building my new computer for a month or so. I'm a little disappointed with how small the display is, but I guess the privacy and portability makes up for it.

  13. I only used a mouse and the paintbrush tool (and eraser), no cheaty stuff. And I just drew it while looking at the original occasionally. Hopefully this still counts

    , it took me 3 hours and 15 minutes


    Hey, if it works for you, that's what matters. :)


    Huh. When you say "bootcamp", you weren't kidding. This is a serious project.


    But this has a kind of structure and devotion I find pretty lacking in most tulpa-developing techniques. That's appealing to me. Our visualization and drawing skills are really weak, so this sounds like a nifty thing to do.


    That's about where I'm coming from. I've been here on (under other accounts) for nearly three years now, and I was researching tulpas for about a decade before that. I'd really like to make some progress, and if I can make leaps forward in just a few hours of hard work, that would be ideal.


    Finding several hundred reference images sounds really tough though. How'd you approach compiling them all?


    Usually I recommend going to Shutterstock and collecting images that look like your tulpa in some way. Like one model might have the right eyes, while another tulpa has the right nose. Then these images can be combined like this, or this.


    In your instance (and Enny will hate me for this) the Pony Creator might be better. You can do a variety of poses, as long as they're all in profile, screenshot them, and save them somewhere. Or take screenshots from the show.

  14. I have also looked for good drawing games and been unable to find any. You'd think there would be some, but I have no idea where they might be.


    As for the 30 second thing, I like it because it doesn't give you time to criticize yourself. So the drawing's not perfect? So what? Half a minute more and you'll have something better. It's not like you spent three hours on it. It's not like you'll spend three hours more fixing it. It's all about moving forward.

  15. Orde, in 1997, showed that drawing ability was linked with visualization ability. (pdf) Kaufman talks about how any skill can be learned in 20 hours, but takes 10,000 hours to master

    So, if people who suck at drawing were to spend 20 hours learning to draw, how much would their visualization improve?


    This is an experiment for people who aren't good at drawing. Those of you who are good at drawing aren't going to get as much out of it. Kaufman uses this graph to illustrate how significant improvement can be shown in the first 20 hours, but improvement slows more and more after that period. So those of you who have already put 5,000 hours into drawing are still improving, but you're not going to see much improvement in the span of 20 hours.


    So here's how you do it:

    1. Take the VVIQ or the VVIQ2 (I'll try to get a better link soon) to establish how good you are at visualizing right now. Neither of those links will score you, so you have to score yourself. I usually score myself 0 for no image, 1 for vague and dim, and so on up to 4 for perfectly clear. I scored 34 points on the VVIQ2 this morning.

    2. Gather as many reference images for your tulpa as you can in a single directory on your computer. I'm using 560 images, but there are duplicates.

    3. Make the most awesome music playlist you can imagine. Ideally both good and long. I forgot this step.

    4. Gather as many sheets of paper and Sharpies (or knockoff permanent markers) as you can.

    5. Set aside a few hours where you won't be disturbed.

    6. Sit down and start your music playlist.

    7. Start a slideshow of your image directory. Set it to display each image for 30 seconds.

    8. Draw each image as it appears on the screen. Immediately move on to the next image when it appears. One image per sheet of paper -- your paper is your time clock, so when you're done drawing for the day, you can count the papers (564 for me today) divide it in half, and you have how many minutes you've done. (282 for me. That's 4.7 hours.) If you still have blank space on a paper and you want to use it, use it the next day so it won't mess up your count.

    9. When you're done, take the VVIQ or the VVIQ2 again. (I scored three points higher, but only on visualizing "a friend" -- Fenchurch.)

    10. Post here to let us know how much you've done, how much you've improved, and share your drawings if you like.

    11. Do it again the next day.


    Your pictures will look like crap at first. Don't worry, they're supposed to. It's hard to do a good drawing in 30 seconds. But you will notice major improvement after a few hours.


    I've attached my first and last drawing of the day so you can see how I did.


    When I looked at that first drawing five hours after doing it, I had no idea what it was, so I'll explain it. It's a woman with her head cocked slightly to one side, her hair brushed to the left. She's wearing a short top, and we can see her arm.


    I don't think you'll need an explanation for my 564th drawing. Obviously I'm still not good at drawing, but I'm a hell of a lot better than I was this morning. :)



  16. For the most part, I'll second what Melian said.


    -Does anybody else have any experience with Tulpas "emerging" of their own accord?


    Yes. There is person named AGGuy (who left the forum) but he did have a tulpa that did just that. Also, I appeared as a complete in a sudden vision to my host. He did not have to put any visualization work into creating my form. So such things do seem possible. I have also read other accounts like this on the forums.


    I would like to add that for the vast majority of tulpas, a lot of careful work goes into their creation. Such instances of sudden emergence seem very rare and could be something other than a tulpa. It sounds like these entities (for lack of another word) were around for a while in your mind though and didn't just suddenly emerge from nothing.


    It has happened to many people here. Amber5885 and Griss spring immediately to mind. You might have more luck finding them by searching for "accidental tulpas" or "spontaneous tulpas" or "childhood", since it seems that many of them grew out of childhood imaginary friends.


    -All of the voices seemed to respect me as their host. That being said, was I in a dangerous situation with all the possessions going on?


    I would say maybe if these voices were not tulpas but some mental illness. If they are not trying get you to harm yourself though I think your fine. I am happy you have found the support in these beings. You haven't named them yet I guess?


    It can be difficult at times to tell tulpas apart from schizophrenia. Try taking this test. If it's not schizophrenia, I think you should be perfectly fine.

  17. I absolutely think that names affect a person's (or a tulpa's) personality.


    Pelham, Mirenberg and Jones (2002) found that the names Jerry, Dennis and Walter were the 39th, 40th, and 41st most frequent male names in the 1990 census (moreover the absolute frequency of (Jerry+Walter)/2 was almost identical to that of Dennis). But in a nationwide search they found 482 dentists named Dennis but just 257 named Walter, and 270 named Jerry, a highly statistical significant difference.


    Now granted, that's not a very big difference. Although people named Dennis are almost twice as likely to become dentists as people with other names, people named Dennis (or Denise) still account for a fraction of a percent of all dentists, so it's not as big a link as people suggest, but it is still a link.