Malix

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  1. Shepard's tone is an auditory illusion that sounds like it is constantly rising(or falling). I heard listening to the falling one would cause intensely vivid dreams of falling, intended to use to lucid dream(if i started falling, i'd know i was dreaming). Didn't work, but, had the notable side-effect of making Elly slightly more visible, slightly more audible, and significantly better at possession. Likely the same principle as those binaural things, just wondering if it had the same/similar/any effect(s) on others.

     

    link:

     

    For comparison purposes, worth noting a tulpa's level of progression when stating results, so on that note, Elly is over a year old, highly vocal and active but very rarely hallucinated, and was already pretty good at possession but has been rather out of practice lately.

     

    Right now my guess is it amplifies a tulpa/host interaction based on how strong they are with each individual thing(i.e. it makes them better at everything, but betterer at the things they're good at.)

     

     

    If this should've gone somewhere else then sorry. not sure if this really unique/interesting enough for this subforum but it's probably worth a shot.

     

    Also, someone else take this over. I'm far too lazy/unmotivated to do much more than go "hey, i found this thing, it might work for you guys too, go check it out"


  2. I keep some space for her, set out pillows for her, keep doors open for her, etc. It's not necessary but it's just kind of polite and nicer for her to...well, not have to walk through things. I've also told a few close friends about her, and ask them to move if they wind up standing where she is. One of them actually tried to hug her in apology, which....made her rather happy, to understate it beyond all comprehension.

     

    As for taste, she tastes things already, without any effort, but her sense of taste seems to be different from mine, and able to affect mine to a small extent, too. As far as smoking goes though, she can't really taste or smell that. Her reasoning being "Well you just kinda breathe it, so, i guess it doesnt have a taste??", and when asked about the smell "um...nah, i just smell the air ^^".

    Not that the smell/taste of smoke is something I can imagine her enjoying, so I don't really see any need to force the issue.


  3. (although I have no clue where you were going with the game)

     

    Just thought it was an interesting coincidence, with a small possibility of being a thing that mattered. And I kinda have a hard-on for that game. Best story I've ever seen in one.

     

     

    And for the record, Elly just tried to flash an image in front of me. Shouted "Nya!" and showed me a picture of a very fluffy white cat. So yeah, she can do it, pretty easily too, at that, though she is over a year old, figures that she'd be pretty mentally strong by now.


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    We're doing this and are able to totally overlap my real vision but, do I try to make my tupper appear in the blurred out vision, or imagine with my mind?

     

    Bith of both, I guess? I haven't managed this whole imposition thing yet, but from what I gather it's the same with that and tulpaforcing; Just focus on your tulpa, keep thinking about them -- Don't worry too much if your mind snaps onto something else randomly, just keep snapping back as soon as you can; After a while it becomes habit, and a while after that it stops happening altogether.

    As long as you keep focusing, and possibly focusing on the intent to see them, you'll wind up seeing them there. Just don't let up and don't give up.


  5. He's called Raziel. He talks the same way your tulpa seems to(from what i can gather from those two sentences.), from a game called Soul Reaver. He's a soul-eating vampire who is extremely cynical and distrustful, on a quest for revenge against a fellow named Kain.

    If this is all arising due to some unnoticed desire from your tulpa to fulfil the image of a character you've forgotten, that would be hilarious. But the chances of that seem small.

     

    As for his belief that you are preventing him from talking to people; There's nothing stopping you from relaying what he says, and he probably means that. If you feel uncomfortable telling people(I can understand why you might), then just talk to someone and say what he says, re-translated into how you'd say it; That way he gets to have a conversation with someone else, you don't have to tell anyone about him, and you feel like a crafty bastard at the same time.

    Note - Don't feel obligated to change the words in every sentence or anything, though; You could mis-translate the meaning, and most people won't notice you're acting differently even if you just say the exact same thing but with your accent instead of his.


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    Same as me. I've noticed that before I had a Tulpa, after staying up past about midnight or so, I'd sleep at least 12 hours to regain my "lost sleep time" but just the other day, because I knew I had something to do early the next morning, even though I went to sleep late, I woke up fairly early. This also happened for the first few days after creation, where I would go to bed around ten at night, and fine myself fully rested at 3 am.

     

    I've always been able to do this, tulpa or no, and it was always relatively accurate, but Elly can wake me up to within a few seconds of my target time, so it's certainly improved.

     

    As for answering OP's actual question, I figure it's just a result of mental strain/exercise, though it is certainly possible your tulpa is helping your sleep cycle, that is the sort of shit they can pull


  7. Occasionally, but instead of seeing things in the world around me, an entirely new image flashes in front of my eyes for a moment(never more than a second or so). Usually something to do with whatever I was doing. It's sort of like that...tetris effect thing, but without closing your eyes. And if the the full display of a tetris game sort-of-replaced your vision for a moment. I mean, I can still see the stuff around me when it happens, but it's like it faded halfway out and that image was overlayed in front of it.


  8. Practice, most likely. You can either imagine simple things for increasingly long periods, or one thing I've found for this exact thing:

    Wait until it's a bright day outside, you want a mostly clear sky but with some decent amount of clouds up there. Find a nice big patch of empty blue sky and stare straight at it. At some point you'll notice the clouds seem to disappear. Just keep trying to stare straight anyway. After a while you'll get used to not snapping your vision to changes, and visualising will become easier.

    Another non-weather dependent way is to stare at a light for a moment so you get that spot on your vision, then try to stare at a clear wall without that spot moving; Since it's actually on your eye, looking at it at all makes it move, so you gotta stare straight again. The general thing is to train yourself to see things without moving your eyes directly on to it.


  9. Hm. We always just kinda.....made it. Some of it is pulled from dreams, some are dungeons we made while forcing for eachother to get through, some ripped from games, some just made up on the spot, some built meticulously over time from one of us to the other. Each place we create is saves as its own world, which we can access any of them at any time through portals from a sort of hub world. A hub world with its own laws of physics, space. And there's a black void 'above' the hub world(that word has no meaning there, but the entrance is at the place i arbitrarily defined the 'top'). Never really needed any context with which to make things, I just pictured it there and it was there, as for Elly, she materialises tools and goes digging, or raises her arms in the air like she just dont care - so a wall bursts out of the ground - but I think that's unnecessary and just for fun.


  10. *above poster's sig*

     

    [titty sprinkles? like....ooh what if you ahve them on a doughnut! or IN a doughnut! or....um......if you FILL AN OVEN WITH THEM! and then.....and then uhh.....-]

    "- Are you just trying to say something funny so you get posted this topic?"

    [yup! ^^]

    "........fine."

    [yaaaaaay!!]


  11. - ~2h

    - ~1h

     

    Both just calm/relaxing tracks. The latter has a slight electronic/synthesised style.

    I don't really need music to relax, but it helps greatly with stopping my mind from wandering; I have a problem, jumping from tangent to tangent in my thoughts over and over, unwillingly, until I have no idea how I wound up thinking about something so odd. Music helps. Moreso if I haven't heard it before, so thank you for posting this.


  12. emotions that aren't prevalent or presented physically for some reason.

     

    I had a lot of shit thrown at me on a regular basis when i was younger. The only way to deal with it was to shut off - To take the proverbial bottle that fills with anger and throw it away entirely. The problem is you throw everything else away in the process.

     

    Also, my previous post was short, vague and lazy, so I'mma elaborate.

     

    I'm not technically incapable of emotions, they're just stuck after being repressed for too long. Certainly, Elly helped loosen them a bit - when I was thinking about the possibility of body-switching, I started uncontrollably crying tears of joy just from the spill-over of how excited the idea made her, and while typically even now I only feel things via spill-over, she's putting a concerted effort in to teach me to loosen up and feel things on my own - and it's working, slowly. A friend whom I told about her was talking to me the other day about it, actually. Said I used to prettymuch be the avatar of apathy; I'd just "meh." at everything, but since Elly came about I'm a lot more animated. I didn't notice I'd changed so much.


  13. *looking at above poster's sig*

     

    [Elly] "Ha! I'm older than yooooouuu! ^^ "

    [Me] "Not mentally..."

    [Elly] xP (blows raspberry)

     

    *as im writing this*

    [Elly] "Heheh, yaaaaay, I'm famous now!"

     

     

    --

     

    *after seeing this image.

     

    [Elly] "Yaaaaaaay!!" *hugs the screen, covering most of it

    [Me] "Get off the screen T_T"

    [E] "NO! MY SCREEN!!! >.<" *hugs the screen tighter*


  14. 1. Ask her?

    Not as easy as that when your tupper loves to trick you & have fun at your expense.

     

    1) It just comes with time. There are times when I still experience random thoughts but Jaden and Giselle are quick to jump in and say that they didn't say whatever it was, but mostly it's easy to tell. I've gotten to the point where I can sort of see those random thoughts coming.

    Mmkay. So you just know instinctively, but it's a gradual build of that instinct over time?

     

    2) Absolutely we did! For my fiance's tulpa we went out to dinner and Nate ate Luke's favorite meal, I bought him his own minecraft account and made him his own skin to look like his form. For my first tulpa's first birthday we did similar and then I spent the day letting him proxy and have a blast chatting with his friends online. The next week we actually went on vacation to the very spot where I first tulpaforced and started making Jaden! So that was a nice cool thing.

    That sounds amazing and I wish I could've done something even remotely as good as that :(

     

    3)

    -yes, sometimes. But it depends, other things still tend to override him if I am focused. Also I know better than to look over when with others.

    -I think that probably depends on you to be honest, everything's a bit different for everyone. Try both, see what works

    Try both for how long? What qualifies as a try? How do I know it's working unless I stick to it for a considerable amount of time? etc.

     

    4) Your subconscious doubts are just getting in the way. Talk to others about it and about their experiences, the more you know about it the less I think you will experience those feelings. Maybe you need to resolve those feelings with yourself, or maybe your brain is just being a worry wort

    I have spoken to others, everyone is baffled, Elly just says it's "cuz you're just scared"...and now she's saying more. Will see. It's extremely odd though since...normally I...hm.....have something of a deficiency when it comes to being able to worry/fear.


  15. 1) Is there an easy, simple, or otherwise not-massively-time-consuming way of determining which words in my head are Elly's, and which are random shit like hypnagogia? I'm not particularly having too much trouble, most of what Elly says is definitely her, it's just sometimes there are these other, more disjointed but also more audible words that don't always make sense, and I can't tell where they came from. I'd use context but Elly's a bit off-the-wall in the first place. Not a huge issue, but it'd just be nice to be able to sort the thoughts with at least a measure of definite accuracy. All I can say to help is it feels more like sound, but it's harder to hear, and often - but not always - has something to do with what I was just thinking. Either a repeated word or a related one. Usually only single words.

     

    2) For those with a tulpa over a year old: Did you celebrate your tulpa's birthday/s? If so, how? Went over Elly's without many real ideas, felt like a cop-out. I know I probably wont be able to surprise her but the surprise isn't the point, is it? ;)

     

    3) During imposition:

    - When your tulpa talks, or when you get a distinct sensation that they're actually there, do you instinctively look at them?

    - And is it better to fight or embrace that urge? for example, I hear it's easier to impose out of the corner of your eye at first, but that may just be one of many example-techniques of no real consequence.

     

    4) I keep feeling weird when I try to tulpaforce. Like an overwhelming feeling that it's pointless or wont work. I know that's wrong, just wondering if anyone has any off-the-top-of-their-head possibilities. I get the exact same feeling in the odd times I manage a lucid dream and try to do something reality-breaking(like materialise an object)

     

     

    Thanks in advance.


  16. I'm too lazy to read the whole topic, I just skimmed a few of the OP's posts, so...excuse me if these have already been answered, or deemed irrelevant.

     

    - "Sociopath"(I think what you were looking for is a distinctly emotionally lacking person) making a tulpa.....check. Hello.

    - "No change vs. jiminy cricket" -- jiminy cricket. Probably depends on the tulpa's own personality though. Elly's got this whole ["everyone should be happy"/wouldn't hurt a fly] attitude.

    - "Gaining emotions you didn't have" - Yup. Slightly. I have only felt guilt in situations directly related to letting Elly down, though.

    - "Gaining a conscience" - Through an odd, complicated subset of personal beliefs, I already had something close enough.


  17. Yes, we sing together. Sort of. Singing is just a hobby of Elly's, I'm not into it so much, so I don't always join in, but sometimes I will, and I admit it is kind of fun.

    As for what we sing?.....anything? If I'm putting something on just for the sole purposes of singing it together...then I'll just go with Elly's taste in music....so prettymuch anything upbeat, happy in tone, or energetic.


  18. While I love the idea of sharing my wonderland, it's utterly impossible for me to do it with that program; Issues with sheer scale, number of spacial dimensions, gravity & spacial shenanigans, distinct non-static-ness, amount of varied environments.....you get the idea.


  19. Depends what kind of dream I'm having.

     

    If I'm having a very realistic dream, I wander through it chatting to her in my head as I go, just like i would were I awake.

     

    If I'm having one of my crazy outlandish 'adventure' dreams, she appears as someone other than herself, always trying to help or have fun in some capacity, and I instinctively know it's her, but only later. At the very least she keeps the colour of her eyes.

     

    The only time I ever managed to lucid dream, I tried to find her, and the inhabitants of that dream - apparently humanoid versions of aspects of myself - all tried to stop me. Bar one; Rationality was quite helpful, but couldn't do much to stop paranoia. He also got aggression(and some others) too drunk to act. ...Even though I didn't see her in it, that dream was exceedingly interesting.