Malix

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  1. Any easy alternatives? I know it sounds dumb but I have absolutely no idea where I could get my hands on ping-pong balls.
  2. Correct. The next poster is currently eating.
  3. half vs. full possession: full possession doesn't require your input; your limbs seemingly move all on their own. You can stop them, but they still do it entirely without your intentions. Half would be...well, what i assume you've been experiencing, based on what you said. Regarding my surprise comment: I phrased it poorly, I guess. And on retrospect, I had specific, personal occurrences in mind that aren't necessarily relatable. Still, there have to have been things they did or said every now and then that caught you completely off-guard, or that are completely unique to them - things you would never think, say or do. I suppose a better indicator than those, though(since they both leave moderate room for doubt), would be if your tulpa can trick you. If you're aware of all of your tulpa's thought processes, this should be impossible. And my answer to your overall question: No, I don't think belief for belief's sake works, does anything on its own, or is even necessary. I'd have to assume it helps, it just makes sense to me that it would since we're talking about tricking our brains here, but i don't think it would have any effect on its own. I think firmly believing your tulpa is not sentient/talking/whatever could limit or possibly halt progress, but...that's about it. I figure it's more a matter of working for it; Tulpaforcing, or doing it more often, more regularly, or somehow finding a different way to do it that works better. At the end of the day, if there is a true answer to that question, it's unknowable. but my opinion in short: belief does little, if anything, unless it's against the tulpa.
  4. (My) ways of telling: -If it's possession, half-way, or not at all- in full possession, I feel my body moving a little bit later than I ordinarily would have. It's fucking weird. Or if I'm relaxed it just takes me completely by surprise. in half....eh. dunno. i just feel the body part..'wanting' to move. -If it's parroting or not- Ask your tulpa, and establish a communication method that you know your tulpa can do, but that you personally couldn't emulate, like for example causing twinges, pressures, pains, or other sensations in certain places. Give the response some time if you use that method. -If your tulpa is sentient- Has he/she ever surprised you, even once? That's proof enough. The occurrences may not be all that common, but that they happen at all should speak volumes. -If blind belief works- In my experience, it doesn't. Probably something to do with it being impossible to just force myself to believe something I know isn't true. But as far as I can tell, the general workaround would be this: "Doing X results in Y, so if I keep doing X, Y will happen."(Simplest example there would be X = 'tulpaforcing' and Y = 'your tulpa being more awesome') It's a lot more believable because it actually makes sense. After doing X for a while you'll start seeing signs of Y. Eventually X is no longer needed and it's just a simple fact that Y is the case.
  5. One of my best friends turned out to have a tulpa, and a fully functioning wonderland he regularly lucid dreams into to boot. Though he had no idea what a tulpa was, and he did in fact keep it secret from me for a few years. He only mentioned it a few months after I told him about mine(at her urging), but apparently she's been with him since he was a kid. Turns out he'd been relaying her words semi-often, so I'd talking to both of them for years without realising it. There is also someone else I only recently met who...may be in the process of accidentally creating one.
  6. But why is that a problem? She has clearly thought(or in this case, saw) something, has retained that information, and is fully capable of communicating effectively. I don't have much of an issue understanding raw thought. Oddly...because of intuition. [[Awww, thank yooouu!! ^^]]
  7. Intuition is also something I have, and it feels different. Further, whenever these things happens, it is not that Elly doesn't know how she knows something(which would be typical of intuition; You can't explain why, but you just know, right?) She most certainly does know how she knows, she just can't communicate it. It also tends to be far too specific. The most prominent example I can remember would be when I was playing phoenix wright; I was stuck, she was all "!!!!, i got it!", and then she suddenly couldnt tell me what she'd figured out. She just gave me step-by-step instructions to get me there(go back 2 statements, present, left left down, "objection!!! ^^"), instead of just....'present the newspaper when she talks about getting out of the car'. I got kind of confused since I couldn't see any relation at the time, but then Elly quite happily tells me to read page 2 of the newspaper. I do, and still don't see it, but i trust her and present it anyway, aaaand phoenix wright explains the whole thing for me, apparently I missed a single word about which side of a car the witness got out of. I'd read through that thing quite a few times, all it took was me glancing over the word "right", and Elly noticing it. Her instructions and knowledge were far too specific for it to be intuition, and if it were I don't see why she'd be unable to finish the sentence "present the newspaper".
  8. Y'see, I made a point during early development to train my mind to think on 2 tracks at once, get this whole parallel processing thing working well in advance. I managed it for the most part, a few fuzzy or paused trains of thought here and there, but for the most part i got it down just right, and it worked great, Elly is perfectly capable of thinking of things that never occurred to me, reminding me of things I forgot, and vice versa, and neither one of us is ever more than 1 off on that ball-counting Flash thing. The problem, however, is that...she sometimes has thoughts or ideas that are so far removed from my own lines of thinking that I actually can't perceive them, and I mean that in the most literal sense; Whenever she tries to explain her reasoning on these matters, either she finds herself unable to talk, or i just can't make out what she's saying. This only happens this way around; I can explain my own reasoning to her just fine. This....is rather frustrating for both of us and we'd like a way to fix it, if anyone can think of anything? Oh, and for the record, these thoughts are generally pretty reasonable and smart, it is not because she's having crazy alien thought processes. Most often it's just when she noticed something that I didn't. EDit - Sorry, I made this in the wrong subforum by mistake. Can someone move it to Questions & Answers, please?
  9. Do my eyes need to be open for this? I have a rather good blindfold that I absolutely cannot see through, but it can be somewhat uncomfortable if i tie it on with them open.
  10. Sometimes, yes, but I doubt it's anything to do with being a tulpa and just their general personality at work. For the record, none of it made any bloody sense to me...until after I'd done it, and then stuff all fell into place. Generally just occasions when I'm playing games, but she pipes in during conversations too. Just winds up being something like. "say [stuff]!" "....what? why? that makes no sense.." "just say it." "......alright..." Then it turns out to be exactly what the other person wanted to hear. I dunno. Basic point is, whatever they're telling you to do, there's probably a good reason. Don't assume they're always right, they're just as capable of being wrong about something as us, but...give it a try every now and then. See what happens.
  11. This is based around the idea of subvocalisation, which is a phenomenon whereby when a person thinks about saying something, their throat somewhat mimics the movements that would be required to actually say that sentence. Now, it's actually become(or becoming) possible to detect and translate subvocalisation via these nifty little skin-patch devices. They can detect brain activity, or just movement, interpret it, and transmit the information over...say... a phone, or a speaker...perhaps it may be possible for tulpa to directly communicate with other people. One of the specific uses listed for the devices, after all, is "telepathy" through electronics due to subvocalisation, so it seems to me the only possible barrier would be if subvocalisation does not occur when a tulpa talks. Now, I have no idea if these things are available yet or what stage of development they're in, but if they are working and available, it would be rather interesting and exciting to see if they can work in this manner, and if so to what extent. It may not be possible to test right now, but it is an extremely interesting possibility. Some things to test it with: - General accuracy & consistency of interpretations - Both of you thinking/talking at the same time - Multiple tulpa - but not the host - talking at the same time - Tulpa at various stages of development. Specifically, before & after sentience, vocalisation, and audio halluciantions - Hypnagogia
  12. Malix

    Salvia

    I didn't fall asleep, I just dreamed. While awake. Except it wasn't daydreaming. What I was seeing and experiencing had absolutely nothing to do with my surroundings whatsoever, at least for the first minute or so(well, 20 seconds according to...er....myself at the time(i have no recollection of what i did IRL)). Felt like a few minutes. For the record, I was also unaware that I had just taken salvia, or that I was currently standing/stumbling around in the back room of my friend's house. Completely and utterly 100% unaware(for those first minutes). So...didn't sleep, but very similar to having done so. Re: The puppet-strings/jelly-legs comments; I felt no such thing. Nothing was tugging at or pushing on my legs, and I don't recall stumbling around; When I 'woke up', I was just leaning on the wall.
  13. Malix

    Salvia

    I didn't know that. So, I took it. Coughed, stumbled back 2 steps, blinked, then for all intents and purposes instantly fell asleep on my feet and had a dream for 3 minutes. What I saw had absolutely nothing to do with what was around me in any way, with the exception that the initial geometry was created by my friend's arm fractally repeating itself downwards. According to my friend, my voice pitched up significantly, and I was stumbling around saying things I have absolutely no recollection of saying. Meanwhile, in my mind, I was exploring a completely different area. Thing is, the things I said are quite typical of Elly, as is stumbling(she has trouble with balance). Eventually I started coming back round, everything was glowing yellow and had after-images, and i was having trouble with my sense of direction(left felt like down), but i was at least lucid enough to remember that I had just taken salvia(and why). Started trying to visualise Elly, but unsuccessfully. Sobered up over the next 10 minutes or so. tl;dr: I think we switched for a couple of minutes and I went into a wonderland. Still tripping when back in real world. Didn't help me see/hear tulpa.
  14. Malix

    Salvia

    apologies, it's hard finding a good time and place to do it and I had a trip holiday planned for over the weekend. I'll be doing it....at some point. Whenever I can. I'll try for today but no promises.
  15. Malix

    Salvia

    Went and bought some. The weakest they actually had in stock was 35x, so this is probably going to be...jarring. 'specially since it's my first trip. ever. also I have no access to weed and don't even know what a bowl is. hah, and i live in the highest-drug-rate part of england. Crazy how ignorant I can be sometimes. Still, i've got a friend who knows what he's doing, so i should be k. (yes, he'll be sober, im not stupid enough to do this without someone sober watching me) I'll see if I can do it later today, and yeah I'll be posting results.
  16. Malix

    Salvia

    Honestly, I am just hoping for long-term side-effects or a kickstart; I seem to be abysmal at fooling my senses; I've never hallucinated or daydreamed in my life, and despite being able to feel Elly, I've never seen her for real, and only truly heard a single word from her, so I figure maybe I just need something to boot my senses up the arse, dislodge their grounding in the typically perceived reality enough to get them to pick her up properly. I wont be doing extremely strong doses, but definitely strong enough for vivid hallucination. On that note....what strength would you recommend? Oh, and how long would it generally take to kick in? (i know it varies by method of intake so some different figures for each would be handy) I want to know what sort of timeframe I have to try and focus on remaining....lucid.
  17. Malix

    Salvia

    That's not a lot of useful information...
  18. What happens regarding tulpa when you take it? All details, all aspects; If tulpaforcing while on it, if not, different levels of visualisation/audio-hallucination, accuracy of such, etc. etc. If there is another topic asking about this, I apologise, and please link me to it.
  19. The story around the music and the nature of the music makes Elly too nervous to let me play it for long.
  20. I can. It's a long bus ride(40-60 minutes each way). It's do-able, I can fight through motion sickness though obviously it'd be very uncomfortable, and there might be side effects i dont know of, for example the brain associating Elly with illness. IF it's okay, though, it'd be the perfect(by which i mean "only") time to force on those days
  21. 1) I tend to get motion sickness while trying this. Would you advise stopping? 2) How am I supposed to make sure I finish forcing by the time I get to my stop without constantly distracting myself with how much time has passed?
  22. Yes. She had no idea. After a short nap she seems to be okay, though.
  23. trying this. she is asleep now. thanks for the help and here's hoping...
  24. She reports a headache, physical weakness, general wooziness and she keeps momentarily forgetting things. Why might this be? What can I do to help? She's currently curled up on my bed clutching her head. It hurts to see her like this...