Stormy

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  1. I never thought of reading the stories over again.. Usually Id just write. I'll see if that helps.
  2. @Tess: I never had actually seen that guide before(most of the guides I read weren't from here). Imposing law into wonderlands is an absolutely great idea, and it's been helping me organize my thoughts a lot more than I thought it would. @SphinxSpartan: Yeah I'm still having a little trouble. @GuessWho: I used to do creative writing, but I never got into as much detail as that so I will try that soon.
  3. Thanks. Yeah I'm not going waste anyone's help. I'm going to see if I can get one of my friends to cooperative force with me and see if that helps a bit. I believe that once I get her vocal, forcing should be a lot easier. There's usually a key for every locked door, and if there isn't, then there's gotta be a way to FORCE it open. c':
  4. I've tried a lot of different methods. Visualization wise, I've tried full body, just the eyes, and then not visualizing and only focusing on her personality. I've made attempts dealing with puppeting and parotting, but it works out the same way. Surroundings wise, I either visualize her in a part of my wonderland (a library), "the void", or my room. With every attempt I've made with active forcing, the same thing I mentioned always happens and I lose her to my thoughts. To note: at one point a friend of mine brought up the possibility of her trying to deviate, but during a few of my "sessions" I told her that I needed her to keep one form for now so that I would know if she changed, it wouldn't be her. Oh Cacuu I posted my reply to InfernoEngine before I even saw your's. I don't consider forcing to be a chore at all. I basically live in a dark box with a monitor and some instruments. I would be forcing for hours on end if I could with my ludicrous amounts of free time. Even with a half hour of meditation before starting, I was still having issues.
  5. The concentration issues at school are generally associated with my anxiety, and I can usually focus when there isn't someone 3 rows behind tapping their pencil or otherwise (I tend to focus on everything but the work at a rather impressive rate). The repressed memories only started coming up when I started remembering recurring dreams I've had and trying to come up with meaning by analyzing them (I did it without wanting to.. -.-). I've tried to get professional help for years, but the most I get is a new prescription that doesn't do anything. I have a lot of good and innocent reasons for wanting a tulpa, but I'll admit that is the more.. selfish reason. I figured if I could just get past the forcing part that we could work on those other things.
  6. Hello there everyone, my name's Stormy. I just made an account here today! Now.. I've been researching and planning since last November, but I'm having a problem that is starting to cause issues. I legitimately cannot force, no matter how hard I try. I've tried binurals, meditation, white/pink noise, concentration exercises, almost everything I've seen on tulpa related forums, but I just can't concentrate. I know a lot of people say that they can't focus, but it's starting to get worse for me. Whenever I try to force, it's like there are multiple random dreams going on in the back of my head. For example, I would think of my tulpa, and all of the sudden there would be a musical and instead of my tulpa there would be something else. I try to get back on track, but it feels like my mind is purposefully trying to stop me from thinking about her, using whatever means of randomness or fear it can grab hold of. Just recently, I even started remembering some repressed memories that have been really bothering me. I'm afraid that forcing with those negative thoughts associated with her is going to cause problems in the long run, so I decided to take a break for the time being.. Passive forcing hasn't really been working for me either since my concentration is always jumping to something else.. I want to be able to do this, I really do. But I just want my mind to work with me instead of against me. Is there anything I can do to help with this? I've tried so many different things and I just want one thing to work.. If I can get help with this, I promise your time won't be wasted. ^.^