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  1. Well, pony tulpas were really popular some time ago, I wanted to see if this was still the case.
  2. I made a poll about tulpa forms, could you answer? If you have any question, just ask. Also, I don't have a reddit account, could someone post it in the tulpa subreddit? The more people answer the poll, the better. I already posted it in some discord servers. Feel free to share it with your friends if you want. I'll post the results in a few days.
  3. I'm still alive! I've been forcing for ten days and I haven't sensed any sign of sentience yet. I won't be updating daily. Maybe I'll update once a week or until something interesting happens.
  4. That's how I figured it would work. Thanks for replying.
  5. Day six. Today I made some anatomy for Amanda as recommended in this thread. I've been narrating and visualizing. I don't want to parrot too much because I'm afraid of getting parrotnoid. I've improved our wonderland. I created a lake so we can go for a boat ride and a park with two swings and a slide. And that's all for now.
  6. The title says it all. I've read several times that most tulpas are sentient since the moment they are created... but when exactly are they created? Is it when you think about them for the first time or it takes them some time to develop? Sorry if there are other threads about this topic, I've done a quick search and couldn't find one.
  7. I started tulpaforcing about a week ago. My tulpa (whose name is Amanda :P) isn't vocal yet, so I'm not going to talk about her to my friends or family for the moment. I don't know how they will react so I guess we'll keep it a secret. Maybe I'll tell some of my best friends... but it's not like they need to know.
  8. Day five. I've been feeling lazy and unmotivated. No active forcing today, but I've been narrating a little. I think I heard Amanda saying "uh-huh" while I was talking to her but I'm not sure.
  9. Amanda changes a little every time I visualize her. Her haircut varies a lot and her clothes have changed a couple of times. Maybe she's voluntarily deviating... or maybe I'm just bad at visualizing and remembering her form.
  10. Today I couldn't visualize as much as I would have liked to. I've been busy and my head hurts (because of Amanda, I hope). I've been narrating as usual and tried parroting a little so I can start imagining her voice. I haven't perceived any sign of sentience yet... I don't know if I should be sensing something already.
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    Tulpa face makers I used this kind of games a lot while creating Amanda's form. They really helped me with visualization.
  12. Day four. Something weird is happening. Yesterday, before going to sleep, I visualized Amanda sleeping on the sofa. Today I woke up and visualized our wonderland. She was still asleep on the sofa. I didn't know if I should wake her up or let her sleep. Then I finally decided to wake her up, but I didn't know how to do it, so I just visualized her standing next to the sofa. Now she is standing next to the sofa AND sleeping on the sofa. I feel like I created another Amanda or a duplicate or something. Is this a kind of intrusive thought? How can I fix it? How do I know which Amanda is the "real" one? -edit- I think I've solved the problem. I just forgot about it as if nothing had happened and started visualizing Amanda normally. -edit- Ok, it didn't work. When I visualized our wonderland, I could still "feel" the sleeping Amanda on the sofa. So I imagined the standing Amanda getting inside the sleeping Amanda and waking up. I didn't know how to explain it so I drew this. I think it's working this time. Is this kind of stuff normal or I am the only one having these problems?
  13. Thanks for replying, I feel less worried now. I'll have to work on avoiding intrusive thoughts. No special update today because nothing interesting happened. I've been narrating and spent some more time on personality.
  14. I heard about lucid dreams last year. I tried it for some time and even managed to have one lucid dream. But then I lost interest and stopped practicing. I might try lucid dreaming again because I think it would be awesome in combination with tulpamancy.
  15. Day three. I started waking up earlier since I started tulpaforcing. I usually wake up at 10 a.m. but I woke up at 6:20 a.m. two days in a row. Could it be because of tulpaforcing or it has nothing to do with it? Does it mean that Amanda is an early bird? Also, I'm having a little problem while visualizing Amanda; images of her doing lewd stuff randomly appear in my mind. I don't know if she is doing it or if it's my dirty mind's fault, since she can't move for herself yet. I read in some thread that young tulpas can confuse sex and love, so I tried to explain the difference and told her to avoid any sexual activity or thought at least untill she's vocal, because I feel it could be counter-productive, and it was making me feel kinda uncomfortable. Those images still appear, but less frequently. I want her as a companion, not as a sex-mate. Is there any way to make her understand it clearly? Could she get upset or something?
  16. I still find visualizing pretty hard. The sofa comes and goes and everything looks blurry and dark. And I think Amanda changes a little every time I visualize her because I can't remember her form exactly.
  17. ~update~ Something awesome happened. I was listening to classical music while visualizing Amanda. I wanted to show her some of my favorite pieces. Then The Marriage of Figaro started playing and I suddenly started feeling super happy. I asked Amanda "do you like it?" and then I felt even happier. I started smiling and couldn't stop until the song had almost finished. Was it Amanda transmitting her feeling of happiness?
  18. Day two. Today I've been busy and I couldn't work on forcing as much as I would have liked to. I've been narrating a little but I wasn't really concentrated on it. Tomorrow I'll be alone most of the day, so I'll be able to compensate it. Also, a sofa has appeared on my wonderland. I don't know if Amanda put it there or if I did it unconsciously. I started puppeting a little while visualising so I can see her in movement. This morning I've been reading about falling asleep while forcing and I have come to the conclusion that it isn't bad, so I'm no longer worried about it. Thanks for replying anyway. I already told Amanda I'm sorry. :)
  19. Thanks, Yori. I'll do my best. ~little update~ I worked more on visualization and personality and I'm narrating as much as I can. I also imagined three doors in my wonderland: Memory, Thoughts and Subconscious and told Amanda not to look what's inside for now. I think I fell asleep while forcing... I have read in some guides that this can be bad but others say it's ok, so I don't know if I should be worried about it. I will really appreciate it if someone answers some of my questions.
  20. ~update~ I spent more time visualizing. Now I can see her form better. She changed a little since I started creating her, but I don't know if it was because of deviation or if I did it myself unconsciously. Her hair has changed its color and her clothes are different. She also looks a bit older. I think I felt head pressure for a moment. I also started giving her some personality traits. Then I started narrating. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to myself and she can't hear me, but I keep trying anyway. I thought that Amanda would be a good name, so that's what I'm calling her for the moment.
  21. After doubting a lot, I finally decided to try creating a tulpa. As I said in the introduction thread, I want my tulpa to be a girl of about 15-18 years old. Not for sexual or romantic reasons, but as a companion and a representation of my more feminine, childish and innocent part. For now, I'm taking it as a kind of experiment. Ok, day one. I'm having trouble concentrating. I'm a nervous person and I find it difficult to center my attention in a sole thing for a long time, plus I live in a noisy place and I have little privacy (my sister enters my room every now and then without permission). I think I'll be passive forcing most of the time. I thought it was a good idea working on a wonderland before starting with my tulpa. But then I realised I'm very bad at imagining places. I tried with a landscape but it was almost imposible for me, so I tried with something easier, a simple room with simple furniture. And that was really hard too. When I was imagining the room, I saw it like if I was in a videogame like The Sims and I couldn't imagine myself being there in first person. So now my wonderland is an empty space. Like a big white box. Maybe I'll add something later or let my tulpa decorate it as she wants. Then I started creating my tulpa's form. I wanted her to be as realistic as posible but I couldn't avoid imagining her in an anime-ish style, especially her face. I guess I'll need more concentration and a lot of work with details. Maybe I'll work on her personality first. I don't know if I should start narrating until I've finished with her form and personality. Also, I feel like I'm involuntarily narrating. I don't know how to describe it... Sometimes I feel like she can "listen" my thoughts even if I'm not talking directly to her. Like if she could read my mind or something. Is this posible? And another question I have. Can she see something? What does she see? Can she see what I'm seeing through my eyes? Hmm... I think I should give her a name.
  22. Thanks for replying, it helped a lot. I feel more confident now about trying it.
  23. So, as I said in the introduction thread, I'm new into tulpamancy and I have a lot of questions. Some of them are answered in guides but others aren't, and I want to know exactly what I'm doing before starting. Okay, let's say I finally decide to create a tulpa. I read the guides and all but there are still some things that I am not sure about. Some of these questions may seem stupid to you, but here I go... In what order should I start creating my tulpa? Should I start with her personality or maybe I should work on her form first? I know that methods can vary depending on the person, but I just want to make sure I'm doing it the best way possible. Could I work on her form and personality at the same time? If I try to give her too many traits, could that confuse her or something? What if I get impatient and try to speed things up? If I have trouble concentrating, could that affect my tulpa? What if I start narrating or talking to her before I've finished defining her form and personality? If I'm doubting between different names, could I ask her which one she prefers of the ones I'm thinking about? How can I call her before she has a name? And what if she sees things I've done or thought in the past and doesn't like me? And... what if I don't like her? I don't think this will happen but I'm very exigent so I don't know how I will feel if she deviates too much from what I'm planning. I feel like I'm asking too many questions, sorry... and thanks in advance.