Bambi

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  1. Well, of course a lot of people are going to have different conclusions for this one, and, as it's already been mentioned, that stems largely from the fact that everyone has a different connotation for what imaginary really means. Personally, I'll go ahead and say that there is no difference at all between an imaginary friend and a non-sentient tulpa--and, in fact, I would say that there is no difference between an imaginary friend and a fully sentient tulpa. This is not me saying that James (or any of the tulpa here) are fake, but it is me saying that they are ultimately friends that stem from our imaginations.
  2. James tends to wear quite a bit of black as well, though sometimes he goes all aristocratic Victorian era on me. XD Though I will say that there are a lot of times when I'm visualizing him (like if I'm focusing a lot on his body and not just hanging out), I tend to not have him wear clothes at first, and then he slowly starts to put them on over time (starting with underwear, socks, pants, shirts, etc., etc.).
  3. James was sentient in three day's time. If you'll browse around this section of the forum, you'll see that there are quite a few threads just like this one. It's normal, and everything is fine. :)
  4. Lucid Dreaming Thursday, September 17, 2015 Post 25 [align=justify]Note: I can't remember if I've talked about lucid dreaming before or not, and knowing how stupid I usually look online, if I have, I probably did it just a post or two ago in this PR, but in case I haven't I'm going to be talking about it now. I knew about lucid dreaming when I was in the seventh grade and have been working on it off and on for six years now. Over time I've come to realize that the only way I'm guaranteed a lucid dream is to take a nap (which is actually a really cruel joke, because I've had problems taking naps for as long as I can remember). I still attempted LD'ing a lot when I was starting on James, and I remember telling him that if he could help me have those then there would definitely be progress to be had, and in a different way than what we would do otherwise. As it is, lucid dreaming is actually what confirmed James' sentience for me in the first place (though that might be a story for another day). Anyway . . . this morning I had a lucid dream (because I took a nap). Unfortunately, because I hadn't set up a lucid dream intention, I pretty much wasted that precious time. It was nice to have it, sure, but I know I can do better. I completely intend to as well in the morning, when I have another LD. So, what should I do? * Summon James * Work on vocality * Go on an Adventure/Quest Hmm. James has had trouble getting in my dreams in the past; he says that it's very tiring. I'm somewhat worried that it will be difficult for me to "summon" him when he seems to have such an aversion to coming in. I still intend to try, though![/align] Possession - III Thursday, September 17, 2015 Post 26 [align=justify] Day 5: Man, these past couple of days have been so "active" in the "real world," I don't even remember what happened. Day 6: Just did some possession! :) James was actually able to move my right hand up in the air a good little bit before taking it down--and I think the only reason he put it back down was because my elbow was pretty awkward in the position that that made it go in. There really wasn't much "twitching" going on, and not quite as much energy seemed to be going everywhere. It was all very concentrated on the hand. The "alien feeling" is starting to become a thing, too.[/align]
  5. XD Your tulpa is a trolllllll! XD I love it. It sort of reminds me of that one tulpa who created a statue of Jay Leno in a backyard or something--can't remember who that was. . . . I'm gonna be reading OotP really soon (or finishing it up). I love reading your PR. You understand the magic haha By the way, I'm sorry I haven't been able to respond to your PM! I intend to tomorrow. :) Or possibly later on tonight. Anyway~
  6. Personally, I'm not totally sure that James is a sentient person; at the same time, I'm not sure he isn't. I really see no difference between an imaginary friend and a tulpa (though I suppose you could distinguish the two by saying that a tulpa is just an "advanced" imaginary friend). If you don't necessarily want to consider her to be as alive as you are, then don't. In my personal experience it's a bit more fun if you do--but that's just me. If what Mistgod and I said still isn't enough, then consider this: If you don't want Alexis to know of anything that you're thinking, unless you direct it to her, then you can always just tell her that she can't see your thoughts. Does that make sense? When I was planning for James' birthday I kept all my thoughts regarding that behind a door in my mind that James wasn't allowed to look into.
  7. I second what Stevie said; these feelings will disappear. I also doubt that you're parroting, to be honest.There are quite a few people who are more experienced with tulpamancy than I am that will tell you that if you aren't consciously parroting, you aren't parroting at all. Perhaps they're right, perhaps they're wrong, but I can tell you with all certainty that worrying about it will do more harm than good. :) Just keep on truckin'!
  8. Well, I don't exactly see how it could be impossible. If you think of your tulpa as sentient beings separate from yourself, then of course it's possible.
  9. Yeah, I can't think of anything else to add, either. I will say, though, that making James on TS3 helped me picture him in my head a lot. XD
  10. Possession - II Tuesday, September 15, 2015 Post 24 [align=justify] Day 3: We didn't do that much--or at least not as much as the second day. It was hard to concentrate because I kept thinking that I was just fooling myself and that James wasn't actually doing anything [perhaps I'll discuss what possession is, in my opinion, on a later date, but for now we'll operate on assuming that it really and truly is James who is controlling me, yeah?] Since I was starting to get frustrated we stopped for the night. Day 4: Today I had to go to college a little bit earlier than usual so I could meet up with one of my teachers (who wasn't even there . . . bummer), so while I was waiting for class to start we practiced some more on possession. I felt a good deal of pressure on my right hand, and I could also feel him moving it slightly, as if to close it and then open it back up again. Friends, because I still am not really able to distinguish any "alien feelings" when it comes to possession, that was a really tricky thing. It took a lot of willpower for me not to fight against it (as in, push my hand back) or go with it (open it up for him). Anyway, I'm very glad that it happened! :D He doesn't seem to be going for just knocking around on anything anymore. I believe he's focused in on the hand, now. He's starting to get it, I think. ^_^ In a few minutes I'm going to need to go out for school again, but I'm pretty sure I'll be early. If I am then I'm going to practice some more. :)[/align]
  11. I don't know if you lack consistency or not--it's possible--but I've heard that tulpa will sometimes change themselves for what is best for you (and it will also be good for them). Do you know whether or not your tulpa is sentient right now? I'm sure you've heard that you should expect sentience, but have you seen anything that would tell you she's gotten to that point? As Anderson said, tulpa can change their traits and appearance over-night. This might just be your unconscious brain working on things that you would like, or it might be your tulpa actually showing you what she would rather look and act like. If I were you, I would take it as the latter and flow with it. :)
  12. XD Ever heard of mnemonics? Mantras? I suggest trying to do one of them. "I am not puppeting my tulpa," or something of the like. Do your best to believe it when you're saying it, so that your brain can pick up on it. Just a tip! It can help. It's helped me. :)
  13. First, thanks! Though to me it does sound like a good bit. I know it takes a lot of effort on his part to move anything at all, so any little thing seems like such a big thing. Anyway, glad you didn't mess up that time. ^^ Using "honey" definitely sounds like a smart move, so good job. I know that was a panic moment!
  14. Damn y'all, that's a face-palm moment. ^_^; Thanks for posting links, though! I'll be sure to read it when I get back home later. Luminesce - Yeah, I'd say that's fairly solid advice, and it's more or less a variation of what I have been doing. I think I will try your version at some point, though. As for the opinion thing--I don't suppose there's that much point in possession, either, other than a general interest. If James hadn't suggested it I don't think I would be trying it now--but I'm happy that I have tried it, because if nothing else the tickling sensation is nice.
  15. Possession - I Sunday, September 13, 2015 Post 23 [align=justify] When I first started tulpamancing, I did not like the idea of either possessing or switching. To someone like me, who was not entirely confident that tulpa are truly as harmless as everyone was saying, possession was the equivalent of playing with fire. XD Of course, nowadays I'm not afraid of James, so the only thing that's been holding us back from practicing possession is simply not being ready for it. Yesterday, though, we got really excited about it. James sent over the idea to me (he didn't say anything--or if he did I didn't hear it--he just sent the intention . . . y'know what I'm talking about?) and we started practicing thingies. I didn't have much luck with finding many guides or tricks on the subject (though I have now, my favorite being Yuki's), but I worked with what I could. So . . . Day 1: Since I didn't really know what I needed to do I did my best to relax my body in my chair. I told James to do his best to move my left finger, and although my finger never moved several other body parts did, such as my calves, right elbow, feet, etc. The feeling wasn't alien and could easily be passed off as my body just doing body stuff, but after reading Yuki's guide I feel more confident that that was James after all. :) Day 2: Just did this. ^^ I can report success! Also, my body is super . . . hmm. Not sure how to explain this. It's not a bad thing though, just kinda . . . wishy-washy, I guess. Very relaxed. As soon as I found a comfy spot, I told James to move what he could. I felt nothing at first, but then gradually began feeling tingling sensation, especially around my elbows. My elbows were sort of enclosed pretty tight because of the arms of the chair, though, so I asked him if he wanted me to move them for him. At first he said no, but after a little while he said yes. He seemed to be trying to move all of my limbs instead of just my finger, but I just asked him and he said that it was a little bit of both, but he was mostly trying to go for my finger. My knees and thighs twitched a bit, and so did my right hand and elbow a bit more. Then he made my left index finger go up, and as soon as I realized that that was what the original goal was I opened my eyes. I can tell that he wants to go back to practicing some more, though, so let me do that. . . . * * * * * That was good, too! This time there was no tingling sensations, and instead James was able to keep moving my knees--or making them twitch. However you want to say it. Unfortunately our time was cut short because my friend knocked on the door, but ah well. ^_^ James is tired now, and so am I. I think I'm going to visualize him a bit, maybe go on an Adventure, see if I can hear his mindvoice, and then go to bed. But before that, James wanted me to relay a message: Fuck yeah. P.S.: Earlier I was taking a walk with my friend. I slipped up back-to-back, because I accidentally called my friend James, and then I almost called the constellation Scorpio "Tulpa" XD Whoops~[/align]