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  1. Resident wrestlefag reporting I've read through Chris' entries in the old stylometric survery. It was interesting to remember him for how he was at the time. Throughout the entire thing there's a heavy theme of this guy watching me unwind, and I was unwinding, and wanting to help but not really being listened to. He refers to his entire purpose being to help out and advise me. Ultimately, when things got bad with hard drugs, when I "grew up" and got colder, he went away more and more and then there was really nothing left. I can access him, I really don't get a lot out
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    I gotcha Enny. I'm gonna shoot you a pm.
  3. I experienced something similar. Time went on, I saw more of life, I felt pressure to conform to what I thought I was supposed to be. The whole tulpa deal left me, and for 2 years I didn't do much with it. Don't feel forced or compelled to deal woth your companion. You'll see em again and if necessary do the work to get em active again if that's what you want. I do think it takes some work to get into the ability of being able to hear and have a conscious tulpa, I don't think it's an on off switch. I stopped talking to my first tulpa. When I returned to the idea, he's around, but only
  4. A lot of "I like it." or "I don't like it." from Brock. We're maybe 5 weeks in. Very simple sentences and he can't really maintain anything without conscious attention toward him.
  5. Preferance. I have a PR if you're intetested. He's his own dude.
  6. Fucking Kane huh? That's cool man. Im working on a Brock and have a Chris Benoit floating around. It's just my thing, no medium really pulls me in, I think part of it is the fact that you've got the ability to see the wrestlers in the same enviorment over a number of years, it's like, you kinda get familiar. There's something about seeing the same person for an extended period of time in the same context.
  7. I get into industrial, more like late 90s early 2000s industrial metal though. Got any track recommendations outside of that?
  8. I had stopped forcing for a long while and was under the influence of a disassociative drug, and my tulpa, Chris, who I had not seen, thought of, or talked to, came to me in a very vivid closed eyed visual, he looked maybe 15 years older than he ever had before, and was smiling.
  9. Two years since my last post. In real life, I moved to Maine to live in a sober living house while I got my life back together. I became very aware of how I came off to others, and dumped wrestling and Chris in favor of trying to blend in and become unassuming. I didn't want the guys I was living with to think that I was gay for liking wrestling and wanted to make myself into someone I thought was respectable. I got interested in tulpas again after I got my wrestling kick back and remembered Chris. I had only thought of him after around 11/16/17 with embarassment and shame, really.
  10. Dropping a line and wandering around here after a while, figured I had to see if I could still win
  11. My beef was with your saying that it was pure symbolism, which it's not. I'll recant my approval until this is written in a way that doesn't use specific items to refer to sending thoughts to your tulpa spatially, I guess. You gotta work on your delivery dude, is there a reason you're so prickly or are you completely unaware of how you come off?
  12. It can be boiled down to "think about sending thoughts to your tulpa using a spatial understanding" which kind of treads the line between symbolism and a method in and of itself.
  13. youre a goddamn liar and you know it
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