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    "Invisible" Friends

    I did. It was a human-sized walking cat. I couldn't see him imposed, but my mental picture of him was very clear and was projected into space in such a way that I could "see" him moving around, doing stuff, etc. His actions seemed half independent of me, half not. One time he showed me a gun (we lived in a dangerous area when I was a little kid) and that was a surprise. My mom got upset, so he moved out and I never saw him again. I don't think I could bring him back really, but then again I also wouldn't want to.
  2. is a really good web site when it comes to actual name etymologies (as opposed to the reader's digest summarized and cheerful-ized version you'll get at a lot of web sites) and names in general. Obviously they don't have all the possible names, but if you'd consider a name that's already been given to humans (as opposed to a totally new one), it can be very helpful. It also allows you to curate your own list of favorite names from the site, and there are message boards where you can ask for advice naming characters, so you could do that (and tell them it was for a character instead of telling them it was for a tulpa). Additionally, I keep lists of names I hear and like. I've done that for years because I'm a name nerd in general, and I write. My tulpa's name is a name from my already created list of favorites. I don't have any compunctions about adding cool words to the name list, either. Geographical names can be fun. Everest is on my list, for instance (though that's not my tulpa's name). I think once you start paying attention to names, you'll very quickly collect a lot for potential future use, not just for a tulpa but for anything.
  3. I think it's possible it might be something pretty simple: Many of us have been trained up by scary movies and horror stories to have a fear response that may as well be Pavlovian when we think "darkness + invisible entity." It doesn't even take a tulpa for me to feel watched and creeped the fuck out in the dark. So, now that I'm embarking on creating a tulpa, I specifically had to chastise that part of me that jumps straight to fear at the "darkness + invisible entity" combo, and tell it to calm down, because my tulpa isn't a creepy ghost. Ha. But yeah. I think it's possible to the point of overwhelming likelihood that you just associate "darkness + invisible entity" with fear. For all you know, you could have been the one giving your tulpa anxiety, and not the other way around. On that note, it's probably good to work on overcoming whatever stray fears you've got. It's a good habit for life in general, and it should also make your subconscious a less scary place for any tulpa if that does happen to be an issue.
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    The Tulpa Experiment

    Someone who wanted to do this kind of test could still do it without their friends knowing about the tulpa's involvement -- they could just tell their friends they were testing their own attention capabilities, and they could talk to their tulpa with mindvoice about what was going on. The friend telling the tulpa a story wouldn't have to know that was what they were doing -- they'd think they were telling you, but you and your tulpa would know otherwise.
  5. Regular human name. Annika. It may change -- she is new -- but I find it highly doubtful that it would be anything other than a regular human name. I'm a nerd about names; they're a very special category of word. I think that has real meaning. So yeah, we'll stick with a regular human name.
  6. I think this is one of those things where you ought to take advantage of it if you're ever incidentally sleep deprived, but probably shouldn't actually purposely deprive yourself of sleep past a certain point. Purposely staying awake for five days is nuts and it can really break a person. There's a reason that sleep deprivation is an established form of torture. With all that said, I agree with the suggestion that the hallucinations of sleep deprivation are not under your control, but I'd say they could possibly be influenced. If you ever happen to find yourself severely sleep-deprived (and most of us do at some point, if we're bad at planning or if we're suffering from some sort of circumstance that keeps us up), pay close attention to the way your senses work differently than normal. They'll work differently from normal even if outright hallucinations don't occur. Then explore those differences. Feel around for their edges. On another note, closing your eyes in this state will lead you very quickly to hypnagogia -- perhaps even instantly. It's a state of closed eye hallucination in the time before falling asleep, and it can sometimes last quite a while. It's perfectly normal, though people experience it to wildly differing extents. Hypnapompia, the corresponding state when one is waking up, is also interesting and worth exploring. Obviously these states aren't constant and therefore can't be used all the time in relation to one's tulpa (I mean, I don't know much about tulpas yet, but I do know you can't be half asleep all the time :), but I think learning to manipulate -- or at least fully experience -- them can teach you a lot and give you better control over the sensory hallucination "brain muscles" you've got, so to speak.
  7. Hi there. I'm a twenty-something woman, and I actually only learned about tulpas yesterday. It struck me immediately... the idea felt natural. The thing is, creating a tulpa seems like a good fit for how I think, what I enjoy, and what my experiences in life have been. Almost every dream I have is lucid, and there are two categories of them, one of which seems very wonderland-y and in which something that sounds like tulpish is the way I experience communication; I'm more prone to benign hallucination than almost anyone else I've ever discussed it with in person; I've experimented at length with controlling or "pushing and pulling" those ("pushing and pulling" being the phrase I use for editing or modifying hallucinatory experiences that are already present); I hallucinate music; I have extremely vivid hypnagogia and hypnapompia and can exert some level of control over them; etc etc etc. What's more, a dear friend of mine has relationships with consciousnesses that she certainly wouldn't call tulpas but which seem a lot like them (it's not a multiples thing -- I don't even know much about the whole concept of multiples, but it's not like that), and I've interacted with them at length through her and feel very comfortable with that. Last (well, if I'm going to keep things short) but not least, I am an extrovert and currently live pretty much by myself (I have a child, but obviously I wouldn't rely on her to supply me with socialization -- it's not her job). I find that depressing. I used to have a roommate who was a best friend of mine and that was wonderful. I've really missed that. I don't really need alone time even though I can deal with it. I like always having others around. So I won't ever tire of having my tulpa as company. So yesterday I started to create her. I already feel quite happy with this, even though it's also strange and even slightly unsettling in some ways. Yet it still feels joyful. I guess that's all I have to say right now. :)