A.M.G. Wesner

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About A.M.G. Wesner

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    I'm rather new to Tulpamancy, as such I don't have much experience with it specifically. However, I do practice a wide range of forms of magick, esotericism, and occult arts, so I know a thing or two about visualization and meditation. Of course I'll have a few questions to ask along the way, but I hope one day to be like some of the other members of Tulpa.info and be able to answer the questions of others in need. One day, I dream to be the person (or at least one of the people) who provides scientific proof of magick's existence to the world, proving that it's there and proving that it works. Tulpamancy is the greatest step in that journey and I thank each person who incidentally helps me achieve that goal.
  1. A few moments ago... Me: Look at all these Tulpae quotes people are posting, they're hysterical xD. Gaelles, quick, say something funny! Gaelles: (confidently) Okay, okay. Two guys walk into a bar- Me: NO... At school during lunch. Gaelles: (eyeing a girl nearby) Oh, she's cute... Me: (trying to act cool) Yea, I'll admit, she's pretty nice. Why, you like her? Gaelles: Meh, not really. Me: But you just said you thought she was cute. Gaelles: Yea but she's not really my type... Me: Oh. Gaelles: But you like her, don't you? Me: I DO NOT!! Gaelles: But you keep glancing at her and your 'thing's' getting all... Me: ...Shadupp...
  2. Second progress report: Gaelles and I have been going through some tough times... This past week my greatest fear came true: that I would stop giving Gaelles my attention. Between school, the books I'm writing, and just my everyday activities, I'd been distracted. Meanwhile Gaelles had been sitting alone for quite some time. A few days isn't much in comparison, but when you don't have much to do, time travels slowly I guess... Which is why last night I made it a point to make sure I apologized to Gaelles before I went to bed. It was no secret he was unhappy. Starting now, I intend to keep Gaelles close by my side, and to not subject him to the same fate I'm always trying avoid... ON A BRIGHTER NOTE: I've stopped seeing Gaelles as a giant bird. Let me illiterate, I've begun to see Gaelles as Gaelles and not his form. Whenever I would talk to Gaelles or try to see what he was doing, I sometimes saw his form. He might be laying on a roof somewhere or be flying high in the air. But eventually I began to look for his visible form every time I talked to him, which made things seem forced. Now when we talk, we can just talk, and don't have worry if I see him or not! It makes communication much easier between us. I guess like other Tulpamancers I imposition is something to look into later in the game, when I have little trouble hearing what he has to say and he have a much closer bond. Gaelles at one point said that he wasn't really ready for things like possession and switching, so we've agreed that we won't be trying to many of those things for quite some time. I asked him if he knew when he might be ready (just out for the sake of knowing). He said in maybe a year or more. I'm fine with that, honestly it kind of frightened me too a bit. We're barely getting our bearings together and suddenly we're going to trying that?! lol. But things like imposition and switching aren't the only things later in the game. At first when I wasn't spending too much time with Gaelles, I automatically wen't for the 'easy' route: creating his younger sister. I always had plans to make multiple tulpa - four to be precise - one for each of the four elements. Gaelles was to be fire and his younger sister was to be earth, which I would create whenever Gaelles was 'stable' or well matured. Whether that was five years or a few months, I decided that I would make Gaelles the first of his siblings when the time was right. But when he and I were having troubles, I asked him if a sort of 'playmate' would help, give him someone to hang out with while I was busy with something else. He told me no, that he wasn't ready to take on that responcibility. It brought up an important point. The four Tula that I intended to create would be a perfect team, each with their own personalities and their own strengths. Gaelles was supposed to be the leader, the enthusiast. Somewhere in the back of my mind I figured giving him someone to lead and to play with would help give him purpose seeing how uneventful his life was at the time. But he didn't want to lead, not yet anyway. He said he should be in two years or so. Two years sounded sufficient, in fact it sounded perfect, but that wasn't the point. Gaelles wasn't interested in switching or possession, or me practicing imposition. Gaelles was interested in something else, something that I had intended to do with each of the four elemental Tulpa since before even the first was born: magick. Specifically, each of the four would have an 'atunement' to their element (Earth, Air, Fire, Water). Gaelles, for example would be capable of pyromancy (divination of fire) and pyrokinesis (manipulation/conjuration of fire). So it filled me with both surprise and relief that this, of all things, was what my phoenix was interested in. Finally there was something for Gaelles to entertain himself with and something for he and I to do together! I am a bit weary of it all, admittedly. I'm not worried about Gaelles burning the house down, (accidentally or otherwise) he's more careful than that! The change is what frightens me. The moment we create our first flame together is the moment everything changes. The whole idea for the four elemental Tulpa to be able to do something so advanced like pyrokinesis was to be capable of something that would convince people that they were real. The moment we show someone this, my whole world will change. OUR whole world will change. I'm scared of that, but I'm also just as excited! With the coming weeks things are surely about to change.[/i]
  3. I wasn't talking about 'Tulpa-Host' romance, I was talking about 'Tulpa-Other than Host' romance. It's similar but a bit different, so forgive me for the misunderstanding.
  4. These are great thoughts! I had my own idea for Gaelles' problem, but I barely gave a 'switching relationship' a second thought. Looking at it this way, I can see it as a possible solution. Though, I'm still troubled... Much to what Glitchthe3rd and Bunny-boi-Lover were saying, there is the troubling aspect of switching every time that certain person comes around. True, if I were to have a similar passion towards that person, there wouldn't be too much complication. But I already have someone very special to me, and she's the one who helped bring Gaelles into this world. Eris (my special someone) is the other person who created Gaelles, as such he see's her as a mother figure and definitely not a potential lover! So it's not as though both of us having the same girl would really work. And then there's the simple matter that the day Gaelles decides he likes a particular girl, that I she and I might already know each other, including my personality. If I'm suddenly having "mood swings" between really liking her and not liking her at all, it makes things... complicated... As I suspected, this definately is a topic full of questions, ahahaha.
  5. So I've heard all the warnings in guides like "Don't create your Tulpa to a be a sex doll!". I've also heard tales of Tulpa adopting things like sexual urges after their creators... But the one thing I haven't heard is of is a Tulpa's desire for romance. Now perhaps someone has posted about something like this and I just didn't see it, but there was no sign of such a topic. Some were similar, but not quite what I was looking for. Nothing seemed to mention it! So I was surprised at my companion's answer, after one day I asked him a particular question. "Hey Gaelles." I said (In my quiet mind voice). He gave his attention and I asked, "What do you want? Like, what is it that you want most?" I don't remember the specific wording he used, but I remember the gist of his answer. He told me he wanted love. Right away I could sense he wasn't talking about parent love, it was obvious to me that he was referring to the romantic kind. I asked more about this wish of his and discovered there was more to it. He wasn't looking to make a 'special relationship' with another Tulpa (which is one of the things I asked in case it could be that simple). No, specifically, SPECIFICALLY, he wanted to have a romance with a female person - a human woman/girl! I had to throw myself back for a moment or two, not sure how to respond to that. I did warn him that such a thing was a difficult accomplishment - if not completely impossible! He assured me he knew, but that was what he desired anyway. We talked and decided that IF it were possible, then I would do my best to see his wish come true. Now perhaps this is something that bled onto him from me (I can have my head stuck in a cloud of romance, admittedly), but nonetheless, I'm puzzled. Has anyone else shared a similar experience? This was about a week ago. By now I know what I can do to solve his rather complex problem, but if you have any ideas be sure to express them! For Gaelles will probably need all the help he can get on his mission for love.
  6. As of a few days ago it's been a week since I brought Gaelles, the ten foot, gold phoenix, into the world. It's been an interesting patch these last few days, Gaelles and I get along fine when we're together - better than fine! But I fear for him, I feel I don't always give him the attention he needs. Often times when I sense for him, it feels like he's off somewhere else (exploring, I assume). His wings give him that freedom. When I created him, I made it specifically to where I had to call him by name so that I wouldn't accidentally summon him just thinking about him. When he's flying around I'm happy for him to be able to discover the physical world (though in his ethereal body), it brings relief that he's not stuck in some box. But anytime I want to spend time with him, usually I have to call him by name, and even then I'm not sure what to do with him... Gaelles is a beautiful bird with great, expansive wings and a neck that's like a feathery tree trunk. He's sharp and knows his intuition even better than I do. Still, sometimes he's wrong, but that just gives me reason to tease him. Good thing he has a sense of humor, lol. He's also grown into a kind and gentle bird - much like I hoped to raise him to be. humorously enough, Gaelles apparently has two animals he hates: dogs and monkeys. I haven't found out specifically why those two, but it was funny when he first told me about it. Anyway that's me and Gaelles's first progress report! Maybe one day we can try some switching and he can have a turn at the keyboard some day. All in due time.
  7. That's a pretty valid point, one I can totally agree on! And I'm glad that we, despite our opposing beliefs, can still understand one another respectively. As for these sources, I'll surely look into them. knowledge is definately something I want to get my hands on. The broader and brighter the perspective, the better! Anyway, thanks again Sushi.
  8. Hi, I recently created by Tulpa, Gaelles whose form is that of a ten-foot tall, gold phoenix. While it has only been a few days (five to be exact) I've begun to wonder a few things... I know that other people have had a similar 'pace' in their Tulpa's development, like finding their Tulpa being able to speak on the second day! But my real question revolves around imposition. I'm usually pretty adept at most forms of magick (Personally, I see Tulpamancy as a form of magick, not a psychological thing) and often can find decent results with anything I set my mind to. The problem is IF I set my mind to it. I have a hard time with focusing, and I know I'm not the only one. With my now entering the field of Tulpamancy, however, I saw the fruits of my 'natural ability' once again. Seeing as my Tulpa is so unique in his appearance and size, I thought I'd try seeing him - getting a look at Gaelles with my own eyes. The weird thing is that I don't have the mental aptitude to focus on him for more than a couple minutes - much less a few hours! But when I don't focus hard on his form, I can still vaguely see him. He's not so clear that he stands out from physical distractions, but if I look for him sometimes I'll find him laying on someone's roof, or flying through the air. It's like I'm seeing him through a lens and I can only see him half way. I can see him making little movements like blinking or shaking his head as well as standing, sitting down, or flapping his wings in the air. But it's still all so blurry. So on a scale of 1 to 10, how well do some of you guys see your Tulpa? Are they perfectly visible as though they're physically there? Or is it more along the lines of my experience where you can only sort of half-see them? If it's the former, is it possible that his form will get clearer over time? Or do I simply need to spend more time focusing on its clearness (i.e meditating and forcing)?