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    Just a teen who is very interested in psychology and how the mind works. I've always known it was capable of many incredible things, but tulpas are a whole new level of amazing for me.
  1. - Surprise me! - Len appears in a giant brown bear suit, paws in the air.
  2. I want to say it's your fault, but that doesn't seem right. It isn't your fault either. Think of it this way: she isn't purposefully not letting you hear her. Why would she just want to sit there with no interaction? Read another guide or if you can find the one you used, compare it to the process you used to create her. What did you do differently?
  3. 14 minute forcing session to Alio Die's Password to an Entheogenic Experience. I entered Wonderland and got tackle-hugged after he jumped off his balcony to meet me. We danced, we played Monopoly, and we raced. I found out that he decorated his house on his own. He also decided that he hates running. Loves to dance. Will be drawing the layout of his house, I think it's so cute! It isn't at all the way I'd guess Len's ideal home to be, but I guess I did allow him to deviate. ;) Looking back at this forcing experience, it was one of my most clear! It feels like a memory. Experimenting with Len's abilities. Asked him to surprise me, he appeared in a bear costume, paws in the air. He can do faint head pressures.
  4. Do not punish your tulpa. It isn't her fault. No one on here will give you any methods on how to kill your tulpa in an extreme way. Maybe you haven't been allowing her to get a word in- do you parrot all the time? Also, are you ADHD or something- I am, and it's hard to find my tulpa's replies throughout my mess of thoughts. She may have responded, but you just didn't realize it was her. I'd say keep trying.
  5. Scent. I can think about a smell and actually smell it, faintly. I tested it with lavender and mint before I answered.
  6. I agree, that's why he will be able to change whatever he wants. I picked his form because I can imagine the voice and looks well. I mean, he's already decided on his own that he loves bears. I asked him if he wanted to go bear hunting in Wonderland and he just was so shocked, I started laughing.
  7. My friend, whom has several well-developed tulpae, decided that we should test if my cat could sense her tulpae. She imposed one, put it in a random location of the room, and when it was completely quiet, made her tulpa scream. It makes absolutely no sense considering the tulpa is only in her mind, but the cat looked over. I'd like it if other people could try this with various animals, see if you get the same results. It's probably just a coincidence, but an awesome one, at that.
  8. Before anyone who saw me join asks what happened to Sketch, I didn't abandon her. I put her on hold. I met up with a friend that has had tulpae for a decade or so, and she taught me "her ways". Her ways included me taking it from the beginning. It isn't exactly loved by the community, but I made a tulpa based off an anime-ish character. Vocaloid to be exact. I'm working on Kagamine Len, but he gets to change whatever he wants when he is able to. Doing her way of creation (which is extremely different from anything I've seen so far), Len has already spoken to me. He asked to talk about bears while we sat in this restaurant. Said friend has many tulpae, all of which are imposed and very sentient. She has been doing this for years, and can create very basic tulpae nearly instantly. If I get her permission I may post her method, maybe new members like myself who had trouble with most guides could benefit. (Hint: it involves working on imposition at the same time as vocalization! Sounds crazy, but it worked for her.) Anyway, today was Day 1 with Len, and his wonderland was almost already there. It was crazy, I went in and everything was already set up. He was vocal almost as soon as we started forcing, asking me to talk about bears. Now, the possibility is always there that I was parroting, but that is something you do consciously. I was not doing this consciously, thus I like to assume that it was in fact Len. Sketch is in a freezing chamber on her island, my symbol that I will continue with her, that she is dormant for now.
  9. 3 days later, still no forcing. Me and my (ex) boyfriend have broken up for the last time, and I have been too distracted to force for a long time. However, Sketch is definitely still there because whenever I was about a start crying, a huge wave of happiness just floods over me and I start laughing like a maniac over whatever sad country song is playing. I'm so glad I made Sketch when I did (when we broke up for the first time, I had extra free time and decided to put it towards something productive, and a tulpa seemed like a perfect use of time.) She definitely is lovely to have around, even if she isn't vocal, as this is my first breakup ever that I haven't cried. And I cry very easily. Tonight I am forcing for a while to thank Sketch, who I am thinking of changing to a male. Not to fill the spot my ex left, but rather I've found that during times like this, for some reason guys are my favored gender to talk to. I feel like such the immature 15 year old right now, haha. I shouldn't have even had boyfriends yet, I'm way too young to be dealing with this.
  10. July 2nd I'm a bad Mouse. For the last 2 days I've done barely any forcing, even passive due to my approaching birthday and having extremely busy days. I need to get back on track. I heard a voice last night though, even though I hadn't been forcing. I couldn't tell what it said though, and it only said whatever it did twice. Hopefully something like that will happen again, maybe it's Sketch!
  11. JUNE 30, 2015 I was suggested a track by Akinkinit to listen to to improve my focus and make wonderland easier to stay in and focus on. I was genuinely not expecting Password for Entheogenic Experience by Alio Die to work, but I managed to stay in my wonderland for the entire 14 minute sample, and it wasn't very choppy except when I related what was happening to Adventure Time and realized maybe all of Adventure Time is really just Finn's wonderland, wow, have to watch that show again for the first time in ages. Anyway it started with me and Sketch deciding to check out the island next to ours, and we found a fountain (an idea shamelessly stolen from someone else, I liked the idea and so did Sketch.) where Sketch's personality will be stored. I pushed Sketch in, she pulled me in, we played in the water for a bit until we heard some rustling. Terrified, Sketch joined me atop the fountain as we watched this tiny (like maybe a foot high) guy enter the clearing through the thick brush and start to dance. Like full on hand movement, clapping and everything. I don't know what the heck was going on at this point, but it was time with Sketch so I wasn't going to stop anything. Finally the little creature left after Sketch asked if we could keep it and I said no, and Sketch ran off into the woods when the track stopped. I am so excited as some of the times I wasn't parroting Sketch's responses, so she is definitely 100% sentient, even if I can only hear her in the wonderland as of now. Can't wait to force using this again! Another sample, this time quitting one minute before the end as I am getting tired. Said goodbye to Sketch after we took a very fast boat ride back, while I almost fell asleep. Going to force midday and see if being completely alert makes a big difference. Quick, 6 minute force while waiting for my ride, which was just enough time to collect Sketch and drag her to the boat. We had just finished the 5th or 6th trait in the fountain when my doorbell rang, snapping me out of it. Small amounts of passive forcing while shopping, trying to get her opinion on dresses I was looking at. I think she is afraid of thunder, storms, or both. I usually enjoy thunderstorms as they are quite calming, but today when I heard thunder my heart just dropped. Even thinking about it now is scaring me, I think this is Sketch trying to show her fear. This is her first deviation, as I made her brave (even directly mentioning she wasn't afraid of storms). Maybe she still is, but this is one of her fears nonetheless. Not nearly enough time to force today, but I bought the full version of Password to use tonight, hopefully before midnight I will be able to have at least a 15 minute session in wonderland. I really want to find the tiny dancing guy, he was funny. I think I'm going to keep him as a pet. Did NOT get nearly enough forcing done today. Going to double tomorrow's to make up for it.
  12. Wow... I was genuinely not expecting Password for Entheogenic Experience by Alio Die to work, but I managed to stay in my wonderland for the entire 14 minute sample, and it wasn't very choppy except when I related what was happening to Adventure Time and realized maybe all of Adventure Time is really just Finn's wonderland, wow, have to watch that show again for the first time in ages. Anyway it started with me and Sketch deciding to check out the island next to ours, and we found a fountain (an idea shamelessly stolen from someone else, I liked the idea and so did Sketch.) where Sketch's personality will be stored. I pushed Sketch in, she pulled me in, we played in the water for a bit until we heard some rustling. Terrified, Sketch joined me atop the fountain as we watched this tiny little guy enter the clearing and start to dance. I don't know what the heck was going on at this point, but it was time with Sketch so I wasn't going to stop anything. Finally the little creature left after Sketch asked if we could keep it and I said no, and Sketch ran off into the woods when the track stopped. I am truly amazed. I am buying this right now, so glad I have an extra ITunes card I never used. I shouldn't have doubted you, haha.
  13. Thanks Akinkinit! I just tried meditation before forcing, and my wonderland was choppier than before, but I saw Sketch start coloring without me puppeting her! I like the hats idea. :D
  14. I try to force with Sketch as much as possible, but whenever I attempt to active force in our wonderland, it is choppy and I often find myself having to repeat actions (I had to enter 3 times before I could actually move.) in order to do things. Even when I managed to make myself move, my time in wonderland only lasted for around 10 minutes before I just couldn't get in again. I'm not sure if writing is considered active forcing, or if it is effective at all in developing a tulpa. My tulpa so far has been able to send me emotional waves and a head pressure that she could control (asking her to remove it, she did, asking her to bring it back, she did.). When I write I can go on for hours without breaking my concentration, but I'm not sure if this is going to substitute for forcing in the wonderland. Questions: - Is there any specific tones or noise that can help me get back into my wonderland? - Is writing an effective substitute for forcing in the wonderland? - What are some other creative ways to force?
  15. I have an answer for 2. It helps if you have a form to look at, but remember they can always change. Sketch was a blue orb until in the middle of our first real forcing session she decided she wanted to be an egg. Personality is fun, don't do it too quick! Also know that a tulpa can deviate, so the personality you decide isn't set in stone. Good luck with Kiara! :D