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  1. I've yet to start on my tulpa, as I'm still seriously considering whether or not I should really make another, but if I do make another I'm almost definitely not going to tell anyone about it. It feels weird and I always want to share this phenomenon with the world but the reactions from when I told people about M ranged from outright denial at worst and awkward "let's not talk about this again" acceptance.
  2. I absolutely love the portal games! As for single game, hmmmmm... I dunno... terraria? Skyrim? There are a lot of great games that I enjoy. Hard to pick just one!
  3. 1. This is personal preference. Your tulpas form probably won't affect it's development unless you want it to or think that it will. I think that some people tend to find anime forms a little easier to visualize, so you might want to start with an anime form if you have trouble visualizing. 2. I'm not exactly sure what you're asking. It seems like you're asking whether or not you need to tell your tulpa what it's personality traits are. I don't have any experience with this, as I never created the personality of my tulpa when I was making M. But it's really all up to you. I think that telling your tulpa what it's like will probably reinforce those traits in your mind, but you could be different. It could be just as easy for you to just imagine that they know. It all depends on what you want to do :) 3. Again, all up to you. A tulpas form generally doesn't have too much of an affect on it You could have your tulpa age, not age, age backwards, etc. The possibilities are only limited by your own imagination. 4. Your tulpa can probably help you remember things later, but I'm pretty sure that that takes a pretty high level of development. I remember reading a post by a user Anyway this user said that her tulpa could help her remember things from years ago that she'd forgotten. I think the example that she gave was recalling specific lines from... 1982? I don't remember; it was a while ago. But anyhow, chances are that your tulpa won't be doing things with memory recall for a while. 5. Your tulpa could have access to all your memories, if you'd like. But they might not be able to recall things that you've forgotten As for being judged by your tulpa, it's generally not a thing that happens. I know that M never judged me when she saw embarrassing memories. Tulpas tend to be pretty accepting of their hosts. 6. How did you create one if you're confused about it's nature? It's just a place that you imagine. Like here: picture that you're sitting at a table in a crowded resaurant. That's what being in a wonderland is like. Some people can get really immersed in it if given time, though. But it's basically just picturing that you're somewhere else with your tulpa. It's simply a setting that you can interact with your tulpa in. Some people say that wonderlands allow tulpas to do stuff while you're not with them, but I personally believe that they just become inactive. At least until they have a very high level of independence, that is. But anyway, some people don't even have wonderlands so they're not actually necessary for creating and maintaining a tulpa. 7. Your tulpa can do whatever it wants with its form unless you both believe that it can't. Forms are as malleable as you want them to be. 8. He can probably look like he's playing a violin and you might even hear music. But he won't be able to teach you how to do something that you don't know how to do. They're not magic. 9. Yep. That's called deviation. It's been known to happen with tulpae, although the level of deviation changes depending on the tulpa.
  4. Hello all. My name is [REDACTED] and I'm planning on making a tulpa. Well, another tulpa. I know that many of you won't like me for this, but I let my tulpa fade a while back. I just couldn't keep going and my tulpa, let's call her M, just allowed herself to fade. No argument, no pleas, nothing. She just left one day. I felt terrible. I went through about a month of completely hating myself for what I did to her. How could I let this happen? How could I have let the one person that was supposed to be with me for life slip through the cracks? How could I have killed her? These were the thoughts that plagued me as I cried, knowing that I'd never be able to face her again after what I did to her. Knowing that she would hate me for it. These thoughts and feelings frustrated me so much that I destroyed one of my wonderlands. I actually had trouble remembering that it existed. I hated myself for everything that I'd done. But that was months ago. Life returned to normal after a while. I slowly but surely got used to the silence in my head. My wonderlands slowly but surely fell apart until, one day, they started disappearing. I used to have 4. I now have 1 that's on the brink of dissipation. I'm back to normal. Now, I'm sure that many of you hate me. Please make your hate felt. I absolutely deserve any hate that I receive, and more. I'm not sure if you could hate me enough for what I did to M. Some of the more optimistic members might say that I could bring M back, that tulpas never truly die so long as you can remember them. But I can't bring her back. I can't face her again. Not after what I did. So I've decided to create a new tulpa for several reasons, despite a feeling in the back of my mind that I don't deserve another chance. Maybe that's true. Maybe it's not. I don't know. But what I do know is that I'm going to need someone to support me in the years to come and tulpas are nothing if not supportive and loving. M changed my life so fast that I sometimes find it hard to believe that I was ever as depressed as I was before she came into my life. Anyway, back to my reasons. My primary reason, besides hoping for a shot at redemption by bringing a life into the world to replace the one that I removed, is because my girlfriend is leaving for college and we've decided to stay together. Some might say that this is an issue that I should use my girlfriend to get through, not a tulpa. But I have thought this through for DAYS. I fully intend to talk about problems with my girlfriend, especially problems involving her absence. But she can't help me 24/7 and she can't read my mind. These are both things that tulpas can do for me. Again, just in case I haven't said it enough, feel free to hate me. I deserve it. Maybe I'm an idiot for diving back into tulpamancy. But I truly believe that I can succeed with my new tulpa where I failed before. I'm simply here to read any feedback that people would like to give me regarding my progress with this new tulpa.
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