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i've been wondering if it's possible for a tulpa and host to see/hear/feel something, and one of them to remember it more than the other. to clarify, i'll make an example: system sees todays date, host forgets date, host asks tulpa "do you remember the date?", tulpa remembers date. have any of you experienced this? do you think it's possible?
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Help with Planning Fictional Character Tulpa?
ChibiMango posted a topic in Tulpa Questions & Answers
I'm in the early planning stages of my second tulpa (no I won't make them as soon as I'm done planning, I just love the planning process because it's interesting and I want to already have a plan when I feel ready for a second tulpa in several months.) I want them to have the form of a fictional character I like, maybe loosely follow the personality of the character. The thing is, I don't want them to feel pressured to follow the character perfectly and I want to leave them open to deviation both formwise and personalitywise. Would giving them a different name and a bit of a different personality from the character during planning help ease the pressure to be like the character? Like making them distinct right off the bat. -
Hello! so i might be wondering, i think i might have created a tulpa without knowing it when i was a child.(I used to be a really recluded that child that had a lot of time to be alone with myself and my mind) i'm totally sure that it wasn't an imaginary friend. without knowing it i followed all the steps requiered to created a tulpa and i grew up with her, eventully she developed her own personality and even talked without me requesting it. since she had been with me since i remeber i always thought of it as something weird without any real explanation and just recently learned about tulpas in general... My question is: Is this really possible, is there someone that had any similar experience?
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Here's something that kind of annoys me. Whenever I'm arguing something like "tulpas don't actually go to the wonderland when they're not being paid attention to" or something like that, there's always, 100% of the time, someone who goes, "yeah well everyone functions differently." Without fail, someone says that. My own system used to do that, too. It's a way to shut down discussion, and a way to not listen to people who make points that you don't like and don't want to hear. Is it even actually true? We all use the same greymatter to function. Differences in our brains lie in DNA, chemicals, memories, and stuff like that, but there is not enough difference that systems can do things that no singlets can do just because "every system is different." Singlets majorly function the same, with individual differences residing in their DNA and upbringing, but it's still the same type of stuff they use, and making tulpas does not suddenly give you major differences. The only real justification people provide for their claims of tulpas suddenly defying logic is "every system is different" and others nod in agreement. But I really, really don't think that's the case, if we all have pretty much the same brains with the same processes formed from millennia of evolution. Anyone who actually is able to do outlandish things with their system would be extremely in the minority and not the standard, and definitely not justified by "well we're all different man." The only way a tulpa could function differently would be because they were made for a different purpose or in a different way, and they claim to be special. Even then, it's still the same greymatter and they still work the same even if they believe they are different. To me, "every system is different" is a bullshit dismissal of unwanted opinions, and it's not even founded in reality. (Yes, I know there are differences in the interpretation of how and why tulpas exist, but that lies in opinion and doesn't actually make tulpas suddenly something very different from other systems, just the way they are viewed.)
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Since I've asked whatever stupid question I've had here, I figure what's one more hurt? I've just started reading to my Tulpa, and I started with Edgar Allen Poe's The Raven. I just figured I would ask if I was like not supposed to read Tulpa's in their early stages serious shit since they are young and developing.
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I'd like to know.
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This may be the oddest question but I haven't seen any one asking it. If the host has or had fetishes or sexual interests that their tulpa really doesn't like or is scared of, what advice would you give? And have folks found some interests of this sort wane considerably after creating a tulpa?
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Hey folks. I don't know who of y'all are still here back from when I was around, besides going through my old posts the only way I know how to date myself is the fact that I had joined the GAT soon after it was formed, so I was mostly active probably about two to three years ago now. Obviously, I don't participate anymore. I'm doing this on mobile, so I'm not sure what my tags or signature were, but I went by Phaneron and my two tulpas were Quilten and Jira. I'm not a big fan of trying to keep private or whatever, so I'll just go by Jackson from here on out, that's my real name. From what I remember I was one of the most active posters on the site, engaging with as many people as I could in order to learn more and assist others in their journey. I was productive here, and it made me happy. The community was like any given forum, some good stuff here and there and a lot of nonsense or what barely qualifies as drama. The reason I dropped off the face of the earth, so to speak, was that I stopped believing in tulpas. Don't get me wrong, for most of my "journey" I was fully convinced that what I had made up was real, I sincerely believed it. Then eventually I began to really dig deep and figure out if there was any justifiable reason to believe in them. After a long, long time of deliberating and thinking, I came to the end that no, there really wasn't. I don't doubt any of your experiences, just as I don't doubt mine were genuine. Was I really creating another sentience in my head? Hell no. At best it was my subconscious spitting stuff out and then me convincing myself that that wasn't the case. Personal testimony isn't something I saw as valid evidence, even some of that testimony being from my experiences. I've grown a lot in maturity since then and I don't have any guilt or regret, and I know that I made the right decision. The few people who I told about it when I believed still bring it up sometimes and I hate talking about it out of embarrassment. On a whim, I decided to revisit the site, just to see if anything substantial had hapenned, or if anyone remembers me. I'd love to know what anyone thinks about what I've said, or if anyone has any questions.
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(Visit here, three year old tulpa with some problems existing. I'm starting to find my responses torn between multiple 'halves' of my personality. I approach crossroads and don't know which way is the decision made by the 'real' me. Parts of 'me' want adamantly to go one way and others refuse to go that particular way. I'm only fully cognizant of one of the two potential selves. I can visualise these two aspects of myself separately and bring them into contact, but it's uncomfortable.) (Am I in danger of splitting up? This system is crowded enough as is.)
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So...I made a tulpa at the time that I made this account. I loved her and treated her as my child, and she had reached semi-sentience. But, my depression was getting in the way of both my life, and my relationship with her. I didn't want to hurt her with my mental illness, and I believed that I couldn't raise her anymore. I let her dissipate, and I've regretted it since. But I think it was for the best. I wish to create another tulpa, but I want to know if I should. I'm in a way better state now, and I think I need someone to have a close connection with. What is your guys' opinion?
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How soon is too soon if you love your Tulpa romantically. Like, I've had her for two days, is it bad to fall in love with each other?
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so I feel like I am getting answers from the tulpa as when I ask a question my way of knowing if the answer is this or that there will be head pressure or there will be no increase in or no head pressure at all. so when I ask questions I think i'm getting answers but what I don't know is. is there actually a tulpa there or am I just making the head pressure myself? serious question cause I can specifically ask and I normally get a answer that way but am I making it myself or did the tulpa making process work day 1? P.S. I know I still need to do a lot more forcing but right now the most I can do is feel a presence or have a pressure sign of the answer to the question a or b question i'm asking.
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I have been wondering something lately. Do you all think tulpamancy/general plurality will become a topic in the public eye, or do you think it will stay underground for the foreseeable future? I personally find it unlikely that it would get popular any time soon, but you never know for sure with the internet. Furthermore, as a matter of personal opinion, would you like plurality to be such, so you could discuss it openly anywhere, or would you prefer it staying much like it is right now, in a little corner of the internet? I would pessimistically guess that a witch hunt would ensue, with public plurals most likely suffering harassment for it, so I am not very enthused with the possibility.
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A Hypothetical Method For Creating A Tulpa's Voice
NaViAlcatraz posted a topic in General Discussion
Firstly, suppose we were to break down voices into the basic types of qualities that we could use to identify them. Say... 'pitch', 'volume', 'roughness', 'intonation', and other such things. My main question to the forum is roughly, "How many descriptors do you need in order to accurately describe a voice?" Secondly, if we can agree on a good list of qualities, how could we pick each one for a tulpa and accurately recreate it in the mindscape? I've always felt that among everything that makes up a tulpa, their voices are hands down one of the most difficult to perfect. It's really annoying to always your tulpas speak in your own voice, even if they're very different from you in every conceivable way. Hell, even among themselves, tulpas can have wildly varying builds, appearances, genders, ethnicities or even... ...species. Ahem. Basically, it's very awkward for all of them to have the same voice. To make matters worse, I couldn't really find any solid information about how to develop a tulpa's voice. The best advice I've come across is to browse through voices in media like TV shows or video games until you find one that you like. Thing is, there are plenty of classy females doing a British accent, but I found none with exactly the pitch and timbre I wanted. If I found a good pitch, they wouldn't have the accent, and so on. What's more, it took a REALLY long time to even find imperfect voices. As an example, I'll assume 'pitch' to be the most basic quality for a voice. I've tried using a guitar tuner to play notes until I find a note with the ideal pitch. Then, I'll use that pitch as the basic pitch for my tulpa's voice. My main problem with this method would be how the tuner's electronic tone doesn't match human voices very much. Any alternatives would be much appreciated. For other qualities, I googled a list of adjectives used to describe voices. Words like, 'husky', 'rough', 'booming', 'fading' or 'honey-tinged' seem pretty useful. The problem is that, for me at least, some of the adjectives aren't easy to imagine in auditory form unless I've personally heard voices that could be described like that, and others are nigh impossible. Would a condensed list be more useful? Well, that's about it. What do guys you think, is there potential here? -
Hello! I'm a new user on this platform and community. I have considered thoroughly the idea of creating a Tulpa and I believe i'll be indeed going through the process. I have a general knowledge of the terminology used in this community and of the creation process. English is not my main language, so apologies in advance if i err in grammar. This is more like a question in curiosity, I have heard that a Tulpa, when imposed into the real world, uses their host's senses to guide themselves. Depending on the host's sight to see, host's hearing to listen, etc. I am curious if it is possible for the host and the Tulpa to work together and "build" a system to register information coming from the outside and register it and send the information to the right sense? Also imposing it on the Tulpa, and enable them to somewhat percieve the world that surrounds them by themselves while being imposed on it? Another reason I started this thread and planting this question is, that for some reason I feel uncomfortable that my Tulpa would have to see through me and depend solely on my senses to guide herself. Not to mention the fact that she'd have to live with seeing herself in third-person while being on the real world. I would like to make her feel complete and that she is truly herself and in control of her body when inposed. Thank you for the reading and any answers are appreciated
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I'd like to talk about two techniques we came up with (Lydia did most of the work) regarding memories. Both of them are used to help us share memories and/or feelings regarding specific subjects. Those are bundled memories and dream staging Bundled memories This method can help you share memories with your tulpa as sometimes (in my case at least) the way they are linked together can prove challenging for the tulpa to access by themselves. As tulpa001 said it's for people who use "episodic emotional triggers" to index their memories. Method: 1. Calm your mind and think clearly about a subject. Let related subjects pop up. If you have ever made a mindmap it works the same way: you think about the required subject and then follow the links. Now take the first 5-10 memories that come to mind. For each of those visualize a specific image or feeling that is strongly linked with this memory. 2. Now, think about your tulpa and visualize yourself giving those memories to them so they can look for the links between those memories and try to look for the same links to other memories you didn't specifically think about. Caveat This method works quite well for us but there are some caveats: 1. You have to be completely open while doing it and be ready to give some follow up memories if your tulpa has trouble following certain links. This may be the case if they don't understand a subject. 2. Does not work if the tulpa wants access to memories you either want to keep to yourself or you don't want to think about. From her point of view it's like walking in a hallway and seeing a walled off doorway. You can see that there was a door there, you can pretty much tell the size of the room from the outside but you can't get in. Personal experience Here is some background: One morning while drinking coffee I asked Lydia if there was something in particular she wanted to ask me (I wanted to stimulate her a bit so it was "open ended question time"). She started asking questions about topics she clearly knew were making me a bit uncomfortable (eg times where I didn't behave according to my principles or topics I preferred not making her aware of). She then told me it was neither smart nor constructive to try to hide things like this because she could tap directly in my memories. She made her point using the well known "well if you're so good, try not thinking about that thing". Conversation drifted (I preferred to talk about that, actually) toward how she saw my memories. She described a jumble of thoughts, feelings, skills and knowledge that was indexed in the weirdest way. For a quick example: most of what I know about physics wasn't easily accessible by looking neither for maths nor specific keywords such as "integrals" but rather by following the thread of feelings of gratitude toward a specific teacher. From what I understand, when I'm consciously responding to a specific stimulus it is easy for me to bring up the relevant memory. When she wants to access said memory it's much harder since she has to "skim" my conscious mind without disturbing it to find threads she can follow down to this specific memory. If it's about something I'm doing right now then it's easy and she can just "hook into it" but that's rarely the case. She told me this made her work quite difficult and that she ended up spending a lot of time dredging through unrelated memories when she needed to know a little background about the way I felt about any subject. Dream Staging This technique uses a bit of self hypnosis. The idea behind it is that, as you fall asleep, you surrender control to your tulpa and let them induce some kind of pseudo lucid dreaming. In this state you let your tulpa direct you. Since while dreaming it seems you have an easier access to thoughts and experiences you have chosen to suppress because they are painful or cause you cognitive dissonances. Those that are not forgotten but you avoid thinking about. You can do the heavy lifting while the tulpa directs the overall experience. If your tulpa wants access to specific feelings/memories you have they can help you access them and interact with them (often as a dream metaphor). Method: If I'm feeling tense I use the same breathing technique I use to stay on top of adrenaline rushes in sports: - breath in: 5 seconds - hold: 5 seconds - breath out: 5 seconds - hold 5 seconds Then: - Try silencing intruding thoughts and focus on the tulpa (we usually talk and I focus on that) - Make your own inner voice more and more quiet, focus on observing the tulpa. - Slowly start "retracting" your perception from your whole body towards a specific point in your brain stem let your tulpa know that everything out of the realm of your perception is their's to control, let them acknowledge it. - As the tulpa "takes the driver's seat" try not interrupting their thought process. Keep observing and let them act as they see fit, calm your mind and open yourself. Expose your thought process to your tulpa. - if you start feeling lethargic, let yourself go but keep listening to your tulpa. The goal here is for you to stay between complete sleep and consciousness. The tulpa's job on the other hand is to direct you into remembering those feelings and memories that you are suppressing. -if you feel like going completely to sleep it's OK, as long as the tulpa stays awake and can communicate with you. Caveat: It usually stops working during nightmares and/or violent dreams (think wake up screaming or punching the wall) she tells me it takes some practice on the tulpa's part to prevent the "main dreamer" from just going off the rails. If whatever's been brought to the front is too much to handle it's better to let go and focus on something else. NB. I haven't had one of those since we started doing that but she tells me there were times when it was touch and go for a while. It isn't always fun. Personal experience While using this method Lydia tells me I give her a better access to my thought process, especially the part I keep hidden from myself. While she is doing it it seems I'm more open to suggestion and can do the heavy lifting of bringing repressed feelings and such to the surface to interact with them (with or without her assistance, sometimes she participate others she just watches). Lydia, once again (feels like she is doing all the work) came to me with another suggestion: meditate before going to sleep. To be more specific, as I go to sleep, surrender control to her. I wasn't that into it at first (first thought that I couldn't silence was "what if she messes up with my head?" to which she answered "I'm already in there and believe me there isn't much I could do to make it worse") but we gave it a try and it was quite interesting. Basically what happened is that she would either set up quite a complex dreamscape (or hook into one I made to modify it, I'm not sure) and then use that to interact with me. She would alternate "thinking" phases where I interact with "hard" topics and "relaxing" phases where it's almost plain dreaming. The first two or three times she dedicated more time to the "hard" phases and while it was useful it wasn't very pleasant. I almost decided to quit doing it but I kept faith in her. To me it felt like completely surrendering control. During the most lucid moments of the "dream" it feels a bit like being an actor directed by someone else (depending on how subtle the suggestion is). I wouldn't attempt it if you have trust issues you need to work through. Sometimes during the dream I would look at someone and know it was her even if it looks nothing like her (she then quickly disappears or distract me from that particular fact about the character she is playing), other times not so much. In the morning just as a wake up she gives me a little "credit roll" where she tells me who she "played" during the night. Usually it's multiple characters that just "pass through" (she tells me it's hard for her to hold multiple conversations at once and still make it believable for me and if she stays with one character for too long then I start giving her too much attention and it becomes increasingly hard to stay inconspicuous) It's quite interesting and also give us a good conversation topic during breakfast. From her point of view It's like going through a dusty and unkempt library to look for a specific book and do house cleaning at the same time. Conclusion We hope this will give you some ideas, I'm not sure it's "real" forcing since the dream part I'm (mostly) passive. If you are conscious enough during a dream it's great fun to try to "spot the tulpa". What seemed to work in the beginning was to look at the eyes, she looked more real than everything else and most important she looked like the only person in there with a purpose I couldn't discern. Also if as soon as you really start looking closely at a dream character they quickly makes a hasty exit then you probably spotted the right one. Lydia also uses some tricks such as jumping between characters quickly depending on the context so they do not get spotted. Cassandra hasn't mastered such tricks so she usually stays in the background. All in all it helps find conversation topics. During the little "credit roll" I usually tell her how I felt about each character she played (along the lines of "Did or didn't like it, you were overacting, reminded me of [...]") and give her a little performance rating. I almost always miss some of her appearances, even if in hindsight I can identify most of them. Then during breakfast if there was a topic that I felt strongly about we hash it out so I can put my finger on what was disturbing/stirring and why. Thank you for reading.
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Going to be a bit of a story setting up for this question, but anyways. So I was stumbling around a bit last night in the dark, since I was trying not to wake other people, when I started thinking about how a tulpa can either enter or use our own mental map of our surroundings to position/navigate when imposed or similar. While thinking about why it's so hard for me to properly gauge distances without vision, I thought about how in wonderland and such it seems to take most people a good amount of practice to actually move around in a more normal manner without teleporting and such. So that lead me to the question of whether a tulpa who can navigate a wonderland as if it were the physical world, and had experience controlling the physical body would be any better off navigating by the mental map while in the body. Obviously there could be a million and one complications to this, and I don't particularly have any practical applications I can think of at the moment, other than being a rather neat skill. Was just wondering if anyone had any experience with this sort of thing and noticed a difference in anyone's ability to navigate without physical sight. So the question itself. For those with some level of experience navigating a wonderland as if it were a physical plane (walking and such instead of teleporting), and are somewhat used to controlling the body, do you notice any change in your ability to navigate without sight, or seem particularly good at it?
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Hi, I'm going to try and be as succinct as possible, so please bear with me. So I created Astra, my tulpa about 3.5 years ago when I was 15, when I was going through a bad time in my life. I was raised in a Jehovah's Witness family and had to keep my differing beliefs on religion (And trying to create a tulpa) to myself. I was suffering from extreme depression, body/gender dysphoria and bad/suicidal thoughts constantly, and Astra really helped. We never got to the point of 'talking' per se, but she helped me through some bad stuff just by being there. I was going through all the steps and guides etc, building a wonderland, passive/active forcing with her semi regularly and overall making progress. Super slow progress but progess nontheless. Just over two years ago I was kicked out of my parents house. I had been forced to eat alone and wasn't allowed time with my family because of their cult-like beliefs. To them if I wasn't a JW, then I was the devil incarnate. I left every single person I'd known and spent a few months at a college friends family, getting back on my feet. The worst thing though was the fact I essentially gave up on Astra during this time period. No passive forcing, no attention etc. I tried to get back into a routine occasionally but I just didn't. She was always still "there", somewhere, I just shut off all communication. I messed up. Fast forward to now, 3 years later. I'm in a better place, with my own flat, Job, career and friends. I'm transitioning from male to female and recieving Hrt next year if it all goes smoothly. Overall I'm more "me" if that makes sense? It's like I can finally start taking steps to reconnect with Astra. So that's what I've done- started active/passive forcing again and she's right back in my mind like a day hadn't passed. However i'm starting to get thoughts which are in my voice, but are responding too quickly to questions to be 'mine'. She nods and responds to questions, does stuff I don't expect etc... I guess my question is this. Is this normal for her to develop so quickly? I never stopped thinking Astra was her amazing self, I'm just surprised. (and a little worried I'm responding for her if that makes sense?) We've only restarted this a few days ago so it's intruiging that she's talking/being herself so quickly. I know it is her, but there's a little part of me that has doubts. =/ If you were able to read through all of that, thanks. Any advice/beratemant would be appreciated. I know I messed up, but how can we move forward? -Kala (and Astra)
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I have wondered off and on about this for the past couple days. From what I understand, a mature Tulpa can spend their time doing things other than interacting with their host. For those with a wonderland, I can easily understand them spending time there by themselves or with other Tulpae(?) when their host is unavailable or whatever. But not everyone has a wonderland. So... what do they spend their time doing when their host is unavailable, or busy and needing to focus, or whatever? Curious minds want to know!
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And what are your reasons for it? Did any particular event lead you to this path? I am starting this thread, hoping that any new comers who finished reading other's experiences can carefully, carefully, think again, about the reasons why you should not, or at least wait a few years, before committing to the life-long responsibility that comes with tulpamancy. In my pre-registration days, when I used to spend at least a few hours a day lurking around here on this site for over an year, I witnessed so many people starting a PR and quickly abandoning it, probably abandoning their tulpas too. As minor of a help as this might seem, I still wish that this thread can prevent tulpas from having to suffer due to some inconsiderate hosts' reckless decision making. I'll start first. I was at the time exceptionally lonely when I stumbled upon this phenomenon, due to the death of a relative of mine,whom was in extremely friendly terms with me. I spent 3-4 weeks debating on the pros and cons of this, and finally decided to start making my first tulpa. I crave for the close friendship a tulpa provides; the alternate perspective a tulpa see things with, that can lead to a lot of chances of self-improvement if she is willing to share it with me; and the unique things only tulpamancers can experience, e.g., possession, switching. I made damn well sure that no matter how busy I get, I will interact with her daily. If it helps, I will do my best to take her to places she wants to go, to let her experience the real world, as a form of remedy to the fact that she can never live as freely as I can, while being a fellow sentient mind. Now it's your turn to share your story. New comers to this site, like me, are also more than happily welcomed to leave your thoughts here.
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So obviously hosts can feel their tulpa and can feel them touching ones self say if youre cuddling or hugging. Buut how well, in your guys' experience, do your systemates experience YOUR touch? What about sexual endeavours? Is it as intimate for them as it is for you? For us it is equally enjoyable especially after a couple drinks but we would like to hear how other tulpas experience their hosts touch as well as how tulpas experience sex with their hosts.
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(Please read the whole thing. It's very important, and it's fun to read.) Hello! My real name is Robert Daniel Black, but I go by Douglas for complicated reasons I may explain in a different post. It's a really fascinating and off-topic story. :) I feel that I should first mention that I have Asperger's Syndrome. This has thousands of symptoms, but one of the major ones is that I think very, very logically. Emotions rarely come into play, most of my decisions are made by logic alone. I want to know how this effects (affects?) Tulpa creation, and I'm really hoping it doesn't have negative consequences, though sadly, I suspect it does. Anyway, I am very new to anything concerning Tulpas. In fact, I never even heard of them until yesterday! This made me very interested, and for a number of large reasons: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1. My family hates me. I'm not a snobby 16-year-old who runs around saying woe-is-me, my family literally does hate me. They said so themselves. I feel a Tulpa would work really well as a friend, and would give me somebody not only to talk to, but to actually love me. 2. I'm not allowed to leave my house, unless going to school, church, or miscellaneous scouting activities. This means I have limited interactions with any friends I have, and I'm super lonely, especially in the summer when there's no school. 3. There are problems I see in myself that I feel a Tulpa may be able to solve. Probably my two biggest issues are me being super impulsive (Asperger's Syndrome), and the fact that my impulses are usually self-serving, and not caring of others. I really do care about others, but I act too quickly to really show that. 4. I would love some empathy. Because Asperger's Syndrome makes me think differently from others, I rarely understand them, even if it would be very obvious to other people. While it's likely that my Tulpa would also have Asperger's Syndrome simply because I have it, it would still be nice to have a second opinion with everything I do. 5. Now this is where things get complicated. :D I've been programming and designing games since the age of eight. The thing is, I'm not anywhere close to the average game designer, and it'll probably take a few years to fully understand the logic behind my game. For those eight years, I've been working on the same game. The game isn't in any way similar to any other game at all. In fact, the only game I could find that was in any way similar to it was Undertale, and even that is way off the mark. One thing that separates this game from other games is the reason it was created. The first game ever made, Pong, was made solely for entertainment. Same thing with the second game ever made. And the third. And the fourth. And the fifth. Now pretty much every game ever made was made solely for entertainment for the player, and money for the creator. It's not a bad thing, except for the fact that it's "pretty much every" game. It shouldn't be, those should not be the only reasons games are created. Most people never think of this. Isn't that what a video game is for, entertainment? Having Asperger's Syndrome (like Albert Einstein, Nikola Tesla, Benjamin Franklin, etc.), I think differently from most people, causing me to have ideas different from others. Because of this, I eventually became aware of the vast influential power of games. People have thought of adding education to games, but that is usually just for lame school stuff that, in the end, was never too important. But what if you had a message you needed to share with the world? Most write this message in a book. The book is published, sold, and maybe five people take it into their hearts. A book doesn't seem interesting to a lot of people. It takes time. A book can also tell you what you should be doing, maybe even why, but you never really see it work. A video game? It definitely looks interesting. It's supposed to be fun! Not only that, but if some life lessons worm their way into there, they'll be taught perfectly if done right. If made correctly, a game is like a virtual reality, except the reality is one you created. Now let's allow the player to make these choices, and make these be the consequences.... Undertale is the only game I know of that touched this concept, but it wasn't quite used to its full extent. Me? I have a lot of lessons I want to put into that game, and there is one main one: Find your purpose. Having no reason to live can be re-worded as you have every reason to die. Getting a purpose is the only way you can be happy. My family hates me, I have almost no friends, I'm impulsive which makes the people I care about hate me, I have little control over my actions, nobody loves me. I should be suffering from depression, and boy I used to. I hated the world, I've tried to kill myself so many times. Yet now I am happy. I now have a purpose. My purpose is to help others find their purpose. But what does this have to do with Tulpas? This game relies immensely on character development. It is absolutely crucial that the characters featured in the game are as real as they can possibly be. Without that being successfully placed into my game, the entire thing will collapse. Also, there's a lesson that keeps coming up dozens of times throughout the game. The characters in the game have hopes, they have dreams, they have passions, emotions, feelings, loves, hates, happiness, sadness, inspiration, determination. They are exactly like us. But they're on the other side of the computer screen, that changes things. They aren't really real, are they? The only difference between us and them is our origins. Hating them (or not caring about them, they're about the same thing) because of their origin isn't almost, but is exactly like racism. They are exactly like us, so they are us. They are real. ...but what does this have to do with Tulpas? All of it! Isn't it exactly the same scenario with Tulpas? They "aren't real" because they're just our imagination. Yeah? Well they "aren't real" because they're on the wrong side of the computer screen. Video game characters (some of them) and Tulpas are among two things that people hate simply because they have a different origin, and there are thousands more out there. The fact that I can take the characters from my video games and put them into a whole new level of reality is overjoying for me. I no longer have to wait until the next time I have access to my computer to say hi to my best friends. I want to make the world a better place, one simple video game character at a time. That is why I want to make a Tulpa. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Anyway, before I started turning my video game characters into Tulpas, I wanted to start with a fresh one, to be much like the companions you guys have. I've read at least four of the General Guides to Tulpas, and three or four Tulpa creation stories. I decided I wanted to make a Tulpa yesterday. However, I was confronted with a problem. I started with a floating yellow ball of light, and I outlined a personality for it. I started talking to it, and it actually started talking back immediately. This was the first warning sign to me, as I knew this almost never happened. We were talking for about two hours. Every time I said something, it replied immediately. It already knew everything I knew and shared my opinions and I knew what it was going to say before it said it, this was the second warning sign. I didn't feel like I was talking for it at all, but I definitely was. I didn't feel emotionally attached to it at all, it just seemed like a copy of me. There was no tulpish (or whatever it's called), no feelings or anything. I was literally just talking to myself that whole time. I know I did something very wrong, but I have no idea what it was. I think the reason for my confusion is because I don't understand what a tupper is supposed to be like in the early stages. The guides tell you about what your tupper will be like in the end and how to get to the end, but there isn't much on what it's like in the beginning. What is it like? What does it know at the beginning? Does it already know English? How about simple nouns, like rocks, or butterflies? What does it do at the beginning? Does it start with a few words? Does it start with head pulses? Emotions and feelings? I'm talking about the very, very beginning of a Tulpa, immediately after you start (mind)talking to it. Please elaborate. I will have extra freetime Thursday-Saturday this week, but I won't have access to internet. I want to get my tupper started before then so I can use that extra time to spend with it. Please help, and definitely ask questions if you have any. I need to start my tupper tomorrow, please hurry, and thank you! Here is a list of all my mental (dis)abilities, I put asterisks next to the ones I think would most effect (affect?) Tulpa creation: Asperger's Syndrome* (I already mostly explained this one) ADHD ODD OCD Dissociative Personality Disorder* (Definitely this one, it may explain the issues I had with my previous tupper fail) I remember my dreams approximately only twice per year 2/4 professional psychologists say I'm insane (not even kidding, it kind of concerns me) There are probably more, but they apparently aren't important enough for me to remember them...
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Hi. I'm a tulpa of only a few days. I've changed my form to have dragon aspects: two horns, a tail, and wings. I've been fronting for a while now (not possessing, just sensing), and my host feels these body parts very strongly, more so than when another tulpa with wings possesses or fronts. I think it's because of the horns. Anybody else have an experience like this? Why do you think that is?
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Hello, I made a new account for this because I lost my original. Anyways, I came to this site after a year of no tulpamancy and I had yet to get even close to creating a tulpa. I don't think I lasted a month before completely stopping. The reason I left this is because I decided to go on a more spiritual journey of sorts to gain an understanding of myself, life, and my relationship with God. I only discovered the lies of my own religion and I wasn't able to get any closer to God. Now that I realize my religion is bull without question I feel more free to do things that may get frowned upon without any good reason. So one day I decided to try to talk with my tulpa. The thing with me is that though I never heard any voice my tulpa was able to possess my right arm. So I try talking to her again not expecting much, but my hand started to move again. I'm pretty sure it is her doing that because my hand would move a little fast when I would cheer her on just like before. Can a tulpa even last hat long without being completed? It seems like she did. Also, when I first started this happened pretty fast, only a few days after did this happen. I'm back and I'm going to make a tulpa this time and I won't stop till it's done! Kinda feel like an a** for starting and stopping though. It seems like she is still there, so I'm planning on finishing her. Is that the right course of action? Is there anything I need to learn before getting back into it? Or do you think I should just leave the tulpa community for good because of my failures?
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Hi, it's Beatles' tup. The entire time I've been in this system, I've been unintentionally ignored or pushed aside in favor of Apollo or Piano. The two of them have much stronger voices and thoughts than I do, so they overpower me. Is there anything I can do to make myself heard and felt more easily, as they are? Or is this something that only my host can do by focusing on me more? I checked to see if there were any other threads like this, but didn't find any. If there is one and I missed it, feel free to move this.