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An eidolon, a Sabari, a tulpa, and me
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RE: An eidolon, a Sabari, a tulpa, and me
While I still have nothing to report on the progress front, I noticed something interesting yesterday.  All three of my whatchamacallits had very different origins.  Noriko was explicitly created by me using a personality sheet and everything.  And as a result, she's the one I understand the most.  Interacting with her made me think I got the whole "tulpa" thing, and around the time of her creation was when I was the most active around these forums.

Anzu was also a tulpa I forced into being.  Even though at the time I wasn't really trying for a tulpa or really knew what a tulpa was in the first place.  She's definitely a tulpa now though.  And I see a lot of myself in her.  We have pretty much the same personality, although she's a LOT more caring than I ever am.  Yet I understand her pretty well.

Sabari, however, has always been weird to me.  Unlike my other two, Noriko forced her into being, although we both worked on her development.  And this shows as her personality is completely different from the rest of us.  She thinks in a way that's not only different, but so strange that I only really get what she's saying due to the fact of sharing an organism with her.  It's not strange in a bad way, though.  In fact, when it comes to problem solving at my job, it's extremely helpful.  But another result of this is that when it comes to what she wants to do, well, there's often a fair bit of guessing on my part.

I stopped trying to understand Sabari a few months after her development, and really we've both been better off because of it.  But in talking with her over the years, and especially over the course of yesterday, I've come to a possible conclusion about why she's so weird:
What if other people perceive me as being just as weird as I perceive Sabari is?  What if I actually act the same way, and while I don't see it as weird, when another sentient being somewhat separate from me does it, I can appreciate the weirdness in it?

It would certainly explain a lot if so.

Currently have three tulpas.
Noriko was created on December 15, 2014. Sabari was created by Noriko on January 22, 2015.
Anzu was reborn on May 23, 2016 (after being inactive since 2012).
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We have a tulpa made by a tulpa (Indigo made by Tacio), and thinking about it, his personality is a lot like everyone else's too. Only I thought that's more because of his experiences in life and the significant lack of emotional/psychological damage, rather than his origin. We don't do personality forcing.

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(02-08-2018, 07:32 PM)Apollo Wrote:
We have a tulpa made by a tulpa (Indigo made by Tacio), and thinking about it, his personality is a lot like everyone else's too. Only I thought that's more because of his experiences in life and the significant lack of emotional/psychological damage, rather than his origin. We don't do personality forcing.

Hmmm, that's interesting.  I've always had the mental image of tulpas created by another tulpa as being different just based on how they are created.  Like there's a box labeled "sorcery" in people's heads that only a tulpa would decide to use in the creation process.  Can't say I'm a fan of personality forcing either.  I do think it's a good idea when starting out to have a sheet detailing the traits you want a tulpa to have though.  If they go along with it, great.  If they decide to ignore half of it like Noriko did, it adds further credence to them being sentient.  My avatar is pretty much my expression when it comes to tulpas in general.  Although Beaker was a pretty cool muppet too.

For whatever reason, I decided to quit using caffeine this week, and cold turkey even.  The first day was fine, but the second day hit me like a truck full of lightbulbs.  Headaches, lethargy, heart palpitations, the whole nine yards.  But by the far the most noticeable thing was not being to sense Noriko.  I could feel her being active, but I couldn't see or feel her.  Which sent me into panic level 9 as one might expect.  On Wednesday I decided to say fuck this and had a cup of coffee, and my ability to see / feel her returned to normal in a couple of hours.  Just something to keep in mind if a fellow tulpamancer decides they want to quit caffeine as well.

In other news, I spent Valentine's day with Noriko being the predominately active one.  I still wish my ability to see her was better, but my ability to feel her made up for it, in ways that are almost certainly #2lewd4info.  That's a really nice part about tulpamancy. In addition to the fact I never really feel lonely, they can alleviate certain other urges as well.  I used to have a pretty serious porn addiction.  And while she couldn't do anything about the addiction herself, she could do something with regards to using said pornography.  By the time she's done with me, well, there is nothing else to shoot out.

Currently have three tulpas.
Noriko was created on December 15, 2014. Sabari was created by Noriko on January 22, 2015.
Anzu was reborn on May 23, 2016 (after being inactive since 2012).
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