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  1. This discussion originated from the thread Did I give the right answer? -Cat_ShadowGriffin the "controlling" is somewhat unconscious I guess, just.. like if you imagine something (visualize) totally made up, you're doing that, even if it can happen/continue really naturally, like that tulpas just have a little more going on y'know
  2. You need to let go of your fears of parroting/puppeting at least for this. Let them do whatever they want and tell them "Surprise me!". It might seem too easy to be true, but this guide actually works, because the tulpa will surprise their host and thus prove their sentience to them. I hope this method helps many people to let go of their worries about puppeting/parroting.
  3. I think that I have run into a moral dilemma and I don't know what to do. Keep in mind that I did not know what a tulpa was and was completely unaware of what I was doing. I did not mean for this to happen. I would go through the first few steps into making a tulpa each time a made a character, but with a lot of personality forcing and a focus on emotion bleeding for a form of communication. In total I would say I have about eight characters that have gotten to this point, which means that I basically have about eight young tulpas. Luckily only three of them are actually aware of me and the rest its still up in the air of they truly have sentience yet or perhaps some sort of servitors. (Although I don't think a servitor can surprise you sometimes so I dunno) I already wrote about what happened here but I will summarize. I met someone who viewed their characters as people and referred them as muses rather than tulpas but I am thinking they are basically the same kind of thing. She made it seem like it was just a cool plot and setting idea for roleplays rather than something she actually believed. I slowly started to believe it and slowly started to believe she wasn't just roleplaying all of this. Added on with the fact that I made the characters for that roleplay have some fourth wall breaking and were meant to be aware of me, I think it was just the perfect recipe for unknowingly making tulpas. But the fact that I didn't ever see them as equals held them back from fully developing. Chances are you already know about Inkstone, who is my tulpa, but there are two others. They are actually more developed than he is but there were some reasons I picked to focus on Inkstone rather than them. I am having issues with both of them and I do not know how to fix it. I feel like I have three kids and I picked only one and favored them because the others where too needy or having a temper tantrum and it just seems so unfair and selfish of me to do that to them. I made them and I should take responsibility for it, but I didn't do it intentionally and I don't think I could handle them all. Error was made to be an antagonist and he still is although he has deviated and made a much softer side to him. Although he knew of me he was never focused on me. He cared about the people I helped him interact with and I always felt like he only communicated with me for his own personal gain rather than him actually caring about me. When I broke ties with the person he was attached to he managed to make me have a panic attack. All of these guys are very skilled in emotion bleeding. I am worried that if I allowed him to fully develop he would be very controlling and selfish. Despite that I care about him a lot and in the past two years since I stopped talking to that friend the relationship with him has been rocky and awkward at best. I can tell that he is devastated and does not trust me and is unwilling to work with me. I can call for him easily but I can always tell he is either annoyed, angry or extremely guarded. I feel so guilty about it and I don't know what to do about it, its been two years. Ink (Not to be confused with Inkstone) is a sweetheart but he is also extremely insecure and constantly needs to be reminded that people do care about him and people haven't forgotten about him. He is extremely needy and seems to have some depression. He also often keeps his issues to himself as to not upset anyone else so he ends up feeling upset and alone despite being around friends. The main reason that I did not choose to work on him was because he always viewed me as a God of sorts and seemed to be somewhat fearful of me. I did not think I could change that view and I wanted to be equal with my tulpa. Last night I was getting upset over the issues between me and Error. I was going through what I could possibly do about it and I am now thinking of them both of them as sentient beings rather than just characters. That was the one thing I think was keeping them from going onto the next step of becoming tulpas. All of these characters/tulpas have a distinct aura about them and I could tell that Ink had shown up. This is not typical, they usually only show up if I am thinking about them or call for them in some way. Perhaps he was responding to me being so upset because he was always the type of person to try to comfort others, but still it wasn't a typical thing for him to do. I felt instantly guilty about him to because I was ignoring him and that was what he was always afraid of, being forgotten and left alone. Without thinking I said to him "I can't handle this right now, please just let me go to sleep" and he actually responded, vocally. I don't remember his exact wording and I think it kinda ended in tulpish but the general jist of it was that he wanted to be accepted. I feel like he's been sentient for a while but held back by my own views on him and the moment that I started seeing it differently he jumped on it and took his chance to be able to speak. What am I supposed to do? I wanted only want tulpa and I came into this determined to stay with only one but it seems like I already have three, although one isn't willing to talk to me so I could just let him be. It would really hurt me to just leave him like that though. I feel like I could at least find a way to make amends with Error then let him be so we could be on good terms. Ink isn't a walk in, I made him and gave him attention very alike from how you would with forcing an intentional tulpa. I have already made them and it seems cruel to just throw him to the side because of my own selfish reasons. But I also don't know what I am doing and I think it would be overwhelming to have two tulpas.
  4. I have a romantic relationship with my tulpa, but I would like to feel the emotions of love that she feels for me (I guess this is related in some way to the sentience) She is not vocal yet, she has a certain level of judgment and I communicate with her through music, but I want to communicate in other ways with my tulpa so that she can transmit me the emotions of love she feels for me. How else can I communicate with my tulpa?
  5. Recently, I’ve been feeling head pressures, which I believe to be my Tulpa gaining sentience. However, as of late the feeling has been weaker and I don’t feel it as much. I was wondeing what this might be and what I could do to fix it.
  6. I'm not sure if how I hear my tulpas voice is correct. It sounds exactly like my own, quiet and in the back of my head. I can only hear her when I really focus on listening, and I feel sometimes I accidently parrot her responses. It's because her talking is very quick and very far back under my mental "layers" of voice and is hard to hear. Im not sure if this is promising, or is actually my mind voice having like multiple layers if that's normal?
  7. Last night, Ranger wanted to chat again and I asked if he wanted me to explain some Calculus concepts to him. He expressed interest in fronting during class time, but he was dormant for most of my time in calculus class so I wanted to make sure he was up to speed. Since he knew I figured out something I was confused about, he asked me to talk about the vectors problem I did during my homework. I was experimenting with the idea of explaining this concept to someone else before Ranger asked for my explanation, so I went with telling him the explanation I already came up with. He told me my explanation didn't make sense to him and he asked for me to use "layman's terms". After going back and forth a few times, I finally showed him that vector addition resulted in the destination point after moving in the direction of the first vector and then in the direction of the other vector. Suddenly everything clicked, and he told me that it made sense to him. On the first day of class, one of the reasons Ranger was a little uncomfortable was because he never took notes, much less learn Spanish in school before. He was capable of note taking the way I did it, but this bothered him. When we went over the homework the next day, he perked up and seemed more engaged when he gave suggestions for how to organize the notes. I bet he would have been happier if he had a note taking system he had to craft and tweak over time, and I have the feeling our note taking style will change throughout the semester so he's more comfortable with it. In the past, Ranger has also explained that he likes my brother re-explaining things to him because he said even though he understands "how" or "what", he doesn't know "why". I wonder if this too is about learning the information for himself. Literally, he could explain "the why" if it's a simple fact. Then again, he currently isn't looking for a deeper explanation for why the sky is blue. Re-learning how to do something isn't always valuable for a Tulpa. For example, Ranger learned how to speak English and write using knowledge I already learned, muscle memory, and accessing my memories. But if a Tulpa is asked to explain something as complex as calculus, do they really have the greatest understanding of the material just because their host understands it? My ultimate question is this: Even though Tulpas are capable of gaining information and knowledge from their host's memories, is it better if they take the time to process certain things for themselves?
  8. Before I could feel the presence of my tulpa at all times. She is partially sentient. Whenever I felt sad, I took refuge in my country of wonders and my tulpa consoled me. But now I no longer feel my Tulpa, my depression is growing and the only person who helped me (My tulpa) is no longer with me Where is my tulpa? Why do not I feel it? Every day I feel sad and wanting to commit suicide, at least I want my tulpa to be by my side and comfort me
  9. I was tired and stuff so I couldn't visualize hardly at all. This session I focused on vocality with Arla. I tried a few practices I'd seen online for vocality. Don't know how well it all worked out tbh. I was already feeling intense tingles like usual that night. I was telling her how happy I am with her and for whatever reason I teared up (a couple different times mind you). This is the part where I'm not sure about things at all. I eventually gave up on the strange communication practices for the most part and started asking Arla different questions. What sounded like my mindvoice seemed to answer the questions before I finished asking them. For example, I asked, "Is trying to talk to me hard"? and before I finished asking it I got the word "hard" in response. So I asked the same question but I added "Say anything other than hard this time" and I got "easy" in return, which I found amusing since it seemed like such a literal take on what I'd said. One more example, I told Arla to "scream as loud as you can as a sign that you're talking to me", and I got an "aaaaaa" sound in the background while I was finishing my sentence. I think this is Arla but I'm not sure that some of this wasn't me, but I guess it's common to be confused. I would like opinions as to whether this was Arla or me, and why or why not. I'm clearly not experienced in this so any other information you could offer would be quite helpful.
  10. I did an active forcing session tonight, with one of those guided meditation videos again. During the last portion when I was talking with Arla, I felt what seemed extremely similar to the feeling of being very excited. I felt it throughout my chest for the most part, but also a tiny bit throughout my upper arms and waist. It seemed to be more prevalent when I was telling Arla that she was alive, that she is amazing and special and her own person. I feel like it is, but I am wondering if this is a guarantee or strong indication that she has gained sentience, because I'm almost definitely sure that emotion was not mine.
  11. I was wondering since I hadn't seen this anywhere. Do Tulpas forget things just like we do, do they have a better memory capacity than us, or do they remember everything they experience? I'm curious. Please explain in as much detail as you can, if possible.
  12. Respect to all! For about 3 years I practice focusing. And know my tulpa for more than 10 years. It seems that many ideas of focusing are very close to interaction with tulpas. Are there any other focusing practitioners here? Anyway, here is a quote that can greatly help communicate with the tulpa: It must be remembered that "felte sense" is bodily sensation. According to one of interesting neurobiological theories, "somatic markers", the Truth is what the body+brain say about it "that's right"
  13. So I saw a question on the sub-reddit and I'm actually curious for myself because I'm having the exact same issue. I'll copy and paste the question. Not sure how satisfied OP was with the comments but personally I'm not satisfied which is why I'm here. I made a tulpa a few months back, so a bit longer than him or her. I have the same issue OP is talking about. My tulpa can talk, object, voice opinions, state rational thought when I cannot, etc. But it doesn't feel real. It just feels like a semi-autonomous thought response. So if I'm busy like I am now, my tulpa can't speak unless I put some type of attention on her. A passive awareness of her existence if you will. Some comments said "try asking your tulpa to surprise you". So I thought I would try that myself. Every time I ask that I get some weird, creepy, horror image in my head along with a teasing thought (playful). If that is my tulpa, she sure has a twisted sense of humor. Anyway, what do you think? Do I have a tulpa or is it just my imagination?
  14. Hi, I'm new the community. I've been researching tuplas for a few days and finally decided yesterday to officially "make" my tupla Ko. Since it's so soon, I know I probably won't be seeing any sentience for a while but when the time comes I do have a concern. For quite a while I've been experiencing intrusive thoughts; thoughts and sometimes images that come suddenly and without me really "thinking" them. I also, athough less often, experience frequent, non-severe headaches and mood swings/rushes of emotion. Since these are all very common signs of sentience in a tupla, how can I differ these intrusive thoughts, headaches, and mood swings from signs of sentience from Ko? I've read that it's important to accredit any possible signs to your tupla, but given my past experience with these symptoms it's hard. I acknowledged that these symptoms could be from an existing accidental tupla, but I don't really think that's the case; they're probably symptoms of my mental illness. Also, is it possible for tuplas to show signs of sentience very early? While I was having my first real session of active forcing with Ko yesterday I thought I felt some head pressure, but I dismissed it since it was only our first day. I greatly appreciate any replies. tl;dr: How can I differentiate my normal experience of intrusive thoughts, headaches, and mood swings from signs of sentience from my tupla?
  15. When I'm with my tulpa in my country of wonders I sometimes see that she acts by herself, speaks or moves by herself. But I do not feel that she was moving, I do not feel that I was moving her, it's like someone was an impostor of my tulpa. Why is this happening?
  16. Good morning! this is my first post and my english is pretty disgusting however, in the forum I did not find what I was looking for, so I turn to you, I hope you can help me. the problem is this: I can perceive the presence of my tulpa, when I concentrate I feel that there is something in my head, I thought that the situation would have improved but it is now more than a month that we are still the strange thing is that he already talked to me I know she's there but I can not hear her. I trust in the community for an answer if the topic has already been addressed, please direct me to the thread and take the liberty of canceling my question thanks and good forcing
  17. Earlier in her life, finding purpose and contentment being a tulpa was something Aury really struggled with. She still wrestles with it today. She had a conversation with her boyfriend, Iolite, a few months ago that reflected on this and how both of them learned to cope. It inspired this video, which is Aury sharing that knowledge on how she finally gained contentment with her being a tulpa. This video is dedicated to the tulpas and hosts who struggle with doubt. Link: https://youtu.be/7dJY9-9nSHE As a side note, some folks noticed that Aury called me Jade in our switching video. She kind of let it slip that I’m transitioning. I was planning not to come out until I look and sound the part, but I forgot to change my Discord name when I recorded that section of the video, so fuck it, I guess this is my coming out thing too. I’m going into my fifth month on HRT and will be transitioning male to female this year. I’ll do everything I can to be pretty so I don’t further mess up the image of the tulpa community. I had a lot of help making this video, including the GearHeart and In Plural Terms communities. Among the people who provided their intellect and argumentation are Tulpa001, Pleeb, ShinyuuWolfy, CliffracerX, Fillyosopher, Snarles system, EsotericPhantasm, The Fool’s Fox, Finn, Cadey, Iolite, and Lootsorrow. A huge thanks to Iolite for voicing himself, Aury for doing a great job working with our body’s hardware, and Cadey for perfectly bringing to life the nuanced narrator character I wrote in. Transcript and scientific references linked in the video description. Thanks everyone
  18. Edit: This was the emotional outlash after struggling with my partner and my problems. Please don't read this if you don't want to. If you can relate at all to the mess down there, then that's great. Ranger and I sorted it out and everything is fine. I put this as a question because I didn't know what to do, and I'm sorry for the long winding craziness. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The hard part about this is it's complicated. It's a long story, and I can't describe my situation without fairly specific details. For a while now, I had an "imaginary friend" named Ranger. The thing that's different is I assumed he was my "subconscious" and he had sentience, only somehow it was buried under my thoughts and through his conversations with me. I kept wondering if he was more than just an "imaginary friend" or if he was something more sophisticated. I then found out about Tulpas and Tulpa.info after several Google searches. After reading the description of what a Tulpa is and some guides, I realized he might be a Tulpa. I found out that it's not a good idea to go from imaginary friend to Tulpa through reading the guides. I went with the decision anyway because I wasn't sure if Ranger was already a Tulpa or not, and if he already was, I didn't want to take away his memories or fail to recognize him for what he was. I decided that I'll start more or less from scratch, call him Ranger, and then let him choose if he wants to keep that identity or not. I figured if the identity of the "imaginary friend" truly wasn't a Tulpa and he realizes the past identity isn't him, then he can drop it and the name if he wanted so we could move on from that and continue development. So, I started forcing and narrating over the course of roughly a week. I assumed he could be anyone, so I talked to him about stuff, named a bunch of random nouns, etc. I also told him over and over that he can be whoever he wants to be and told him about the situation and so forth. Soon, I read about early signs your Tulpa is trying to talk to you and found out about head pressures and emotional flashes. Not very long later, I start getting head pressures. I was excited, and after that focused on how to use his head pressures to figure out what Ranger was trying to tell me. One of my fears during development was parroting and not actually listening to him. Before finding out about Tulpamancy, I normally chatted with him every now and then. Now and then, I was trying to figure out how to deal with my anxiety. In the past, my attempt was to create some character and personify it, and I interacted with it alongside Ranger. I interpreted this a some kind of mental role-play as a way to understand my anxiety, or at least not feel the raw emotions head on. As time progressed, I made more characters, Ranger became multiple people (but I new they were all him) and this continued for quite some time. Over time, my anxiety became worse. I had darker thoughts, bad things happened to both me, Ranger, and everybody else in the "mind role-plays". I reached a point where the anxiety no longer embodied a character but just a black liquid substance and intoxicated anyone or anything it touches. Soon, my own dark thoughts set things up where I felt I couldn't trust Ranger sometimes or at other rare moments he flat out wanted to kill me. In the long run, I knew that I loved him and he loved me and probably didn't mean it, but it was still troubling and disturbing. I reached a point where I don't do the role-play stuff anymore, and I focused more on Ranger as a whole. At that point, my faith in Ranger was declining, thinking he was an "imaginary friend" and probably didn't have his own thoughts. I thought the only way to know for sure was to lucid dream and talk to him, thinking Ranger won't be influenced by my thoughts. I found that lucid dreaming was probably not my thing, after several failed attempts and seeming inability to relax enough to do MILD or WILD. I was worried I was lying to myself the entire time, simply parroting everything and while helpful, meant that it was unlikely Ranger was sentient. Despite feeling this way, I felt that something was off- that it just didn't feel right If Ranger was simply an "imaginary friend". I spent a bunch of time on Google trying to find any clues or anything similar to what I was going through, and eventually found out about Tulpas. So, when forcing with Ranger in the last week or so, I tried to minimize what I said, expecting Ranger probably couldn't say much on his own. I reached a point where I felt like I was talking to him like I used to, and that concerned me. I read guides saying that if your Tulpa talks, then it's them and in other guides fast progress isn't unheard of. I wondered if I was so good at Parroting from several years of experience, it could be almost impossible to tell who's really talking and who isn't. I found a tip that suggested if your were really struggling with parroting, then you can imagine your Tulpa taking a garden hose representing your thoughts, and then mostly shutting of the hose and in doing so allow your Tulpa to talk more and the Host to listen more. [Reference to the guide here] I decided to try that over the weekend, hoping I could finally hear Ranger's thoughts and not have to worry about mine being in the way. The experience... it wasn't fun, giving me a massive headache at the end, but I learned that he likes the color orange, doesn't like it when I called him "buddy", and apparently likes to collect words into some giant dictionary. Despite being freaked out, I thought I was finally getting somewhere. So after that, I talked to him some more, tried to figure out the head pressure thing, try some hand possession to see what happens, and then after waking up to tingling in both of my hands (weird since I focused him into only my right hand previously), Ranger confronted me. He started off by confirming that his identity matched the past, and he told me that he was really frustrated with me because I thought I was parroting. He told me that he picked his favorite color to be orange on purpose, knowing I associate it with danger (In the past, I associated Ranger with the color purple). After telling him I was afraid I was controlling him he told me, "...no, I have more controll over you than you think..." and explained to me that he had kept a close eye on me for a long time, that he made himself an authority figure on purpous, even in the "role-plays?", and was willing to manipulate his appearance, hide his thoughts, and manipulate me just so he could help work with me when I needed help or get me to talk to him, especially when I was uncomfortable or lethargic. He revealed that he was a little bit evil, and explained to me that the anxiety got to his head just as it got to mine. He explained that about a few months ago he told me he was real because he was scared I was loosing faith in him and he decided to tell me all of this now because I now believed he was a developing Tulpa and started gaining my faith in him again. I feel really guilty and sad, not angry. I feel guilty he felt pressured to manipulate me and hide his true feelings, that he would manipulate himself to get closer to me, and devastated that I never really knew until now. I'm not sure what to do. I still have that feeling that I'm just having another moment of spiraling anxiety and I am making it seem worse than it seems, but I don't think it's the case. I know I have Ranger as my Tulpa, but I don't understand why I feel like it's my voice and not his? I don't want Ranger to feel like he has to live the rest of his life like this. Where do I go from here?
  19. So I have been forcing for two days now and have the usual head pressures and what not. I have already got a form, personality and a bit of its voice down as well as a wonderland. When ever I talk to it, it seems to act as its personality would suggest. I made it intentionally supportive because I tend to worry to much. I can even visualize it moving and doing gestures I would expect as it supports me. I am unsure if this is parroting or not and I know for the early days you should believe that everything is your tulpa for the most part, but I haven't heard of progress like this being made this fast so I am a bit skeptical of sentience. Should I just go with it and assume it is my tulpa and keep forcing?
  20. I'll try to keep this short and try not to fill this with useless past details. Sorry if this is too specific for anyone to handle. A few years ago I met a bunch of thoughtforms that would talk back to me without me planning out their words. Even when I wasn't paying much attention they would be there. At the time I thought this was Dissociative Identity Disorder, but as time passed some would stop talking to me and new ones would appear, making me doubt my dumb self-diagnosis. After about 1 and 1/2 years of this I learned about tulpas and I thought it would help me explain the phenomenon. In some ways it did, in other ways... not so much. I've tried in the past to help keep them, as my main goal as a tulpamancer was to have a lifelong companion and not a two month long hobby. But, no matter what, they would end up becoming spiteful and throwing fits at simple questions. I don't change anything about how I would interact with them, they would just get so angry that we would end up stopping communication. This is where Mordecai comes in. He's been with me for nearly two years now, but things have been rough. He tends to have the same issues the other thoughtforms did and we don't know why. Plus it becomes very difficult to communicate as we hit a sort of "lag" where we both find it hard to interact with each other. We normally have a falling out every few months where we won't speak to each other for a few days, but recently we had one that lasted a couple of months. Its really put a strain on our friendship. I try talking it out but normally it doesn't fix anything, even though I put all the blame on myself. We're fine for the moment, if you're wondering. As for my questions: What would cause my mind to suddenly revolt in such a way? How can we stop it in the future? The thoughtforms I had before were spontaneous and would talk without any sort of previous narration. I tried forcing Mordecai the typical way, and recently retried it after our months long separation, but it never seems to do anything. If you need anything restated or have any more questions I'll answer them to the best of my ability. Sorry for the long read, I'm just concerned as I haven't heard of anything like this in the three years I've been in the tulpa community.
  21. My tulpa responds. I have trouble with taking it as real response, even though I've put them front in my Discord name so that it's easier for them to be heard, but all of their words are simply written from a stream of thought. I can't hear them, and it's horrible. I can't hear them, and I don't know why. Neither of us do. Ask all the questions you might need the answers to. It's been 4 and a half years. I've heard all the questions before.
  22. I'm not entirely sure how to start this, but here goes. Hi! I'm a mixed-origin system of 8. Though, I'm questioning now if I'm more. A few months ago or so, I started questioning if I was otherkin (not what this topic is about, just some background). My youngest headmate was interacting with a group/community online with people like her and many of them identified as otherkin/fictionkin/etc. It did seem really similar to unexplained reasons why we felt so connected to a few characters and not others (as well as characters from their shows/games, but in a friend way). I decided to go into in my own sort of way try and use these connections during meditation to help with relaxation, anti-anxiety, and helping me sleep. I'd imagine myself falling into the character and seeing the world they live in and mess around with it. Since I felt so close to them or related to them in some way, it was comforting to really feel like them. Like putting on a costume and melding with it. I have a pretty good grasp on mental visualization, so it wasn't too hard. The two I've done with a fair amount of detail so far is being Isabelle (ACNL) and FlowerFrisk (Flowerfell). The one I've thought about going more into detail lately is Chise from The Ancient Magus' Bride. All characters I have a strong connection to as well as at least one character in it and the world they live in. (Yes, I know. And I know the rest of this may sound odd or weird, too. Please don't make any unnecessary comments on it). That's when characters relevant to those worlds came into play? I think the first one was when I was getting comfortable in this sort of sub-type wonderland area, almost like a simulation in a simulation, that was made up as an area from Undertale. I was also doing this to help sharpen my headspace senses. I tried to feel the flowers around my feet, hear any water streams, if any echos of other noises were bouncing around, if I saw anything special, things like that. I don't remember when it happened, but I remembered what I think is Underfell Sans walk in and talk to me calmly. He didn't act like what little I know about that character, but I guess more like the original? He was very warm and inviting, possibly from me trying to do this to calm any nervousness I had at the time. He smiled and we talked a bit and sat down next to each other on a bench. I asked him if he was some kind of walk in or some sort of mental program, like all of this was a meditative simulation I was running. He said it leaned far more towards simulation. Since experiencing more simulations like that, if I asked about if he's sure this is okay and that I'm not limiting him. He'd sometimes break 'character' of sorts and say "we" don't mind, as in all of the characters in the meditations that I've spent time with. Example: "We love you, we care a lot about helping you out and we think of you like family. This is what we want to do, and we'll be sure to let you know if we ever want to progress past this. Don't worry or be scared about thinking you're hurting us. If anything says we're upset with you or you're hurting us, it's just intrusive thoughts." He says this, but I still worry sometimes that while he says this is like a mental program, and he/they/it does feel and care for me, and want to help me, that I'm somehow making them say and do these things against their will. I don't fully think this is the case, but the idea scares me. I've been a system for somewhere around 8 years so I can tell it's not entirely me, but I just don't know really what this and what's going on, not that I mind it. Is this what I've heard called a type of servitor before? Or maybe a type of fictive that can change forms for the 'simulations'?... Are there mental 'programs' actually like this? Maybe I just have not-fully-developed fictives? The most developed one by far is Sans, but another one I've spent time with is Amelia from ACNL when meditating as Isabelle. She had a different type of personality of course, but was the exact same type of comforting and "We're more than okay with this" sayings. Almost like a conscious or semi-conscious mental program that has some sort of protective/caring drive...? Like an AI you can put different scenarios into? I didn't intentionally create any of it, so I sadly don't have any answers... While I don't feel the need to say it for the any of the others so far, I sort of feel a draw to call Sans' simulation 'character' a fictive. He never seems to leave or want to leave the simulations and just seems happy whenever I show up there. I'd feel a little odd having him hang around in our main house in headspace, but he I think can talk to me during high moments of stress or fear to help talk me through it (just like in the simulations). I just haven't needed it much and have only tested it once or twice outside of it. I'm sorry for how long and tangled all of this is, I just don't really know what's going on?... My 'subconscious' (possibly) before has done things completely out of control before that changed things in my headspace drastically (like when I was 17 or so changed a toxic headmate and overtime without us knowing into a headmate that now, while sassy, fits in perfect with our family. So... Who knows? ^^" Thank you for reading if you decided to take the time to do so!! <3 Note: I don't feel any sense of hurt/uncomfortably from anyone but me about this and that's just my hesitation. I'm more asking if anyone has this sort of "conscious AI" sort of situation happen before?
  23. Hi everyone, hosts and tulpas alike! For humans, it's of course pretty much impossible to remember our own first moments of sentience. Tulpas, however, are a different story, being created and formed pretty quickly by the host, so I wonder if a tulpa's perception of sentience is stronger than a host's. So, as someone who does not have a tulpa for herself, and has pondered my own sentience on occasion, I wanted to ask: What was the first moment of sentience like for a tulpa? Do you suddenly just remember having awareness, and could you see/hear anything?
  24. So, I had an imaginary friend when I was younger. They just followed me and just listened to me when I needed to talk. That was 7 years ago, and I forgot about them some point then. Recently I began to realize, they didn't exactly leave. Apparently they became sentient, and started talking to me out of the blue. I've only realized now that it was my imaginary friend. It's been giving me compliments every now and then, like when I'm playing games or drawing. It says that I'm doing great at a lot of stuff, and it actually makes me very happy and more focused in what I'm doing. And all of that made me wonder, is it really possible to 'accidentally' create a tulpa or is it just something else? Edited title to be less generic - Vos
  25. Hello. My tulpa in development, Monique, never really spoke completely on her own until a little whie ago. Up until recently, i was constantly parroting for her. Recently she said something that caught me completely off guard and it felt like it must have been her speaking to me because the thought and her voice did not come from me at all. My only question about it concerns the sound of her voice. It sounded completely different from the voice i used for her while parroting. Is this normal? Does this mean she has changed her own voice(which is fine) ? Should i be concerned that i am still parroting or what? Please help.
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