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After hearing about this odd concept a few nights ago, on another forum, I had lots of different feelings about tulpae, but I was really into the idea and decided to start creating one now.

Not really sure what to type right now, but here goes.

Some time during the night I heard of tulpae, I decided to try visualization. I feel as if it was a bit more successful than subsequent attempts, but I thought I was too tired to do much.

The day after, I signed up for these forums, posted in some places. Mostly put off tulpaforcing with some games. This day I felt as if my tulpa is slightly developed, but I also think it's just me parroting.

Today, I felt an unusual, possibly tulpa-related, headache whilst playing games. (just ol' me putting off some tulpaforcing again!) Trying to find a good environment to tulpaforce, either smoldering in the heat of my dim room, or being bothered by my sister that knows nearly nothing about what I'm doing. Decided to start my log here before I really got into it. (managed to get a few minutes in before that)

EDIT: I might as well say that my tulpa is mostly based off of a fictional character I created, and I believe the feeling that her personality is mostly there is rooted from the fact that I've been working on such a story in my mind for a LONG time, and haven't really taken any sort of hiatus from it, except for now, since I'm going to work on a tulpa.

 

EDIT II: After procrastination, and life deciding to meddle with my tulpaforcing schedule, I finally got to do my first real session, though it only lasted about 23 minutes due to a little lack of focus near the end. I didn't feel like I made much progress. I started by trying to figure out if she was vocal or if it was just me parroting a little, and I asked her something out loud (related to the little headache earlier today) and didn't seem vocal, aw well, at least that was sorted out. I went on to try to do visualization, which didn't work so well, and at random times I saw her face, but not much else. I have a feeling she can sort of move, I'm not gonna try to explain right now though.

 

I'm not too sure what to make of some of these things, should anybody with some experience know some stuff I should do next, post away, and wish me luck.

"Mindgames, son..."

Tulpa Name: Lucy

Form: Human female

Current Status: Working on personality, sometimes visualization (can't say I have an exact number of time, but I'd say an hour so far)

Lucy's Progress Report

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Skill comes with practice - your focusing timespan and ability to visualize will increase over time.

 

Would you mind to give us a more detailed description of the Tulpa you create?

 

Good luck from me as well!

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Good grief, I thought that last session was supposed to be serious... It pales in comparison to this session.

So I realized that personality might be more enjoyable as a first step, so I got down to writing some stuff about Kara. One random power outage of both computers later, I read up on the last bit of guide, and just a little bit ago, started a session. I started working on some traits symbolically, and then a sort of falling feeling hit me not even a minute after I started putting things representing some traits (rose for romance, stuff like that, you probably know) into the glowing ball. I wouldn't even have to read deeply into this to know that the falling feeling was sure progress. I kinda maintained focus after that, only did 2 or 3 traits before just being to excited from the feeling that was starting to die down, and now this post is here. I know I should have kept it up for longer, but I'm about to return to forcing now.

EDIT: I should have kept you guise updated earlier, and I'm already starting to forget a few details of how exactly the session went. She apparently requested I call her Lucy a minute or two into the second bit of the session. It feels a bit mixed between if I think it's my parroting, because I strangely recall thinking of her wanting that exact name some time before, or if she actually did request it, since it came up again randomly. Maybe both times her wanting to be called Lucy really was her? I'd say so.

I think I'm perfectly right to believe I've unknowingly worked on more personality than since I heard of tulpae, and I guess the next sessions will merely be re-evaluation, since I don't really know how much was developed. Going to start my next session in less than an hour, unless something like dinner gets in the way of things.

"Mindgames, son..."

Tulpa Name: Lucy

Form: Human female

Current Status: Working on personality, sometimes visualization (can't say I have an exact number of time, but I'd say an hour so far)

Lucy's Progress Report

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I kinda went with speaking with her for a bit rather than my traditional forcing session, and I'm sure I'm making some progress. Just talking with her a bit helps out, I'm used to it now, which will make actual sessions easier. Seems like the answer I expect is the answer I get talking to her though, but I know it'll be a while until I get a totally alien response from her.

 

Should really try to do a session now, but I can't figure out any ways to work out traits in detail, as I've said before. I might go for just generally saying that she's got this trait, but I know I should do something more. (maybe that's a good idea after all, just do the most basic of basics, then go into more detail later on?)

 

Weird moment of this post: I think Lucy called me insane sometime today. Made me stop and go "wut" for a bit, but I just consider it a compliment, as does Lucy herself when I asked her about it sometime after that.

"Mindgames, son..."

Tulpa Name: Lucy

Form: Human female

Current Status: Working on personality, sometimes visualization (can't say I have an exact number of time, but I'd say an hour so far)

Lucy's Progress Report

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