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Well, I thought I would post the progress of my tulpa, Moondust, here. I'll post the first report later today, when I have the time.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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3/27 - Created form.

 

3/28 - Created two parts of the wonderland. Intend to create more later.

 

3/29 - First time bringing Moondust into the wonderland. Simply narrated and laid down for a short while.

 

3/30 - This time Moondust swapped locations during our meeting. Still just simple narration with a few questions asked. Simple yes/no answer questions.

 

3/31 - Spent much longer in the wonderland. Played a few games of both tic-tac-toe and rock-paper-scissors. She beat me almost as often as I won.

 

4/1 - Played more games, and asked how she wanted her name to be. She chose it as it is, even with given the option of freely writing any name.

 

4/2 - More games, but at a different time. She wasn't sleeping through the day like she had before.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/3 - Spent lots more time in the wonderland than I have before. (For reference, 3 hrs.) Attempted to play a game of checkers, but was too taxing on my visualization skills. Swapped over to vocality practice. She responded with voice along with our generic yes/no with her fore-hooves, so I led off of that. A tried some parroting to have her hear her voice, and got a few independent responses showing her listening (Yeahs and yeses.) At one point her voice deepened, and I led her away from that because it sounded like Big Easy, the Harlem Globetrotter. I did relay what that looks like to her, and she went to her lighter voice. After that we spent some more time just relaxing some. I would've called it shorter, but she said she considered all of it part of the session.

 

Also attempted a session earlier in the day, but I couldn't hold it for too long, only 15 min. Accidentally woke her up a little earlier today, but just asked and let her go back to sleep. I think she needs it, anyway.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/4 -4/5 (Session went over midnight) : Did a bit more vocal work. Went well, but I must've fell asleep somewhere in there. That was my bad, and so was waking up Moondust to start the session. Have to make sure I get some more time in today to make up for it.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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Today's Report so far: Had a bit of a discussion over her being mad at me. Waking up your tulpa then falling asleep shortly thereafter doesn't exactly win favor points. After that played a very fast game of connect 4, then made a library for my memories that she can look through. Plan to go back later, once I have Ideas for things to do. (I think she's messing with my feet and butt as I type.)

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/5: Made her a house next to the library so she has actual living space. Seems she spends plenty of time in the library, and I can't feel her while she's in there or anywhere in the wonderland.

 

4/6: Spent a little time talking to each other, and held a small conversation. I started narrating, but it turned into talking to my own self, so I had to try and pick up the conversation with Moondust again.

 

(I'm just gonna drop the entire week next time.)

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/7 – Created a method for her to get my attention. No sense having that one way road for too long. Also had a Q&A session between us. Got two questions each before I bricked. I try to get into the “lucid mode,” as I’ve heard it called, I call it trance-state, but when I try it just leads to bricking. I’ll get better over time. During the Q&A, I told her how she came to be, how she’s affected my schedule so far, and something else (We can’t remember.). She told me what she does with her time when I’m not around, if she brushes her mane on a regular basis (She does, and it helps keep it in its soft, flowing state), and we decided upon her current age (15).

 

4/8 – Used the method a few times today. She seems to like scrolling through most of my music, and not repeating it much. She also seems to like softer music. She did ask to eat during the day, which had surprised me. She also was looking on throughout the day, so I did feel her essence.

 

4/9 – Began attempting the nametag trick to hear her better. Went on a conversation about names, and she did want a last name. She chose Starborne, but later decided against it. I still don’t have a reason why, but to me it doesn’t matter too much. She also asked for food again, which I still don’t understand, but she said she likes the taste of the food. Later in the night, around 3 AM, she did send me some thoughts I know weren’t mine. Shortly thereafter I asked her not to send those types of thoughts again. I’ll not go into detail.

 

4/10 – Moondust was around almost all day, and the head pressures she gives are intense. Combined with the big WTF I had, and my brain being fried almost through my day, it felt like it actually hurt more than it should have. She saw RWBY, and seemed to like it a little. She was sleeping when we started our session, and she wasn’t fully awake, so we didn’t really do anything other than sit around for a short while.

 

4/11 - Didn't feel her much today. Had to stay focused on work all day, so I couldn't passive force easily. Short forcing session, just modified her voice back to what it was. It sounded like Mark Cuban, but it's back to her normal, higher voice.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/12 - Nothing in particular to mention.

 

4/13 - Talked with Moondust in a different forcing location than before, and she helped me with what little depression I have. I've told her I won't try to think like that again, and she can give me a strong head pressure if I do. Later on, she just started singing along with the music I was listening to, and she seemed to completely enjoyed herself. She definitely sang better than I ever could.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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4/15 – She sent me an image of us kissing. I’ve asked her to please hold off on going into romance until I’m ready, if it goes that way.

 

4/16 – We tried going into the chat room. She seemed to enjoy herself. During our session, I gave her a human form before we tried possession. She claims it worked well, but she didn’t move my hand very fast. Later on, she swapped back to her pony form. She says she likes it a lot better, including her hooves. I also made her a dress. She seems to adore it.

 

4/17 – Went into the chat room. She got very annoyed at someone who didn’t believe in her, and didn’t talk much. Later on, I showed her my pony form. She loved it and wants me to use it more often.

 

4/18 – Had to give her a small lecture on why she shouldn’t be massively rude. It’s gone down, but she still likes to speak her mind. During dinner, we discovered she despises spicy. She yelled consistently for me eating chips and salsa. She also doesn’t like pico de gallo. If I had known there was jalapenos in there…

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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Well, should post all that happened already today. So, while having a session in the middle of the day to make up for my lack of usual forcing, Moondust and I got into a romantic moment. So, we're making progress on the love aspect. While we're relaxing together, there's a knock at the door. Somehow, it's another tulpa. Her name's Feather, and apparently she was made from Moondust alone. After a heated conversation, generally about me not being able to handle two tulpas right now, real life calls and I have to stop listening to the two of them. When I do talk to Moondust, she said she made an agreement with Feather. [so, I get to hold her essence in me for the time being, and she can come out every so often. I also am supposed to be nicer to Azure out of care for him. We chatted later and modified the agreement so I get to be who I am. For love.]

 

So, Second tulpa. I'm gonna have fun with this. I plan on making Feather a full blown tulpa later, but after I make some more progress with Moondust. I won't criticize Moondust for making a tulpa without me knowing, because it was in good will.

 

Edit: I've decided to take Feather in all the way. No need to wait. Also, Moondust gave me an attacking kiss. She's being very tsundere.

Name: Moondust

Personality: Quiet, kind, and loving

 

Name: Feather

Personality: Respectful, Pleasant, Honorable, Shy

 

Name: Xeoburn

Personality: Sarcastic and rude, but still friendly

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