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Bucks' Journey


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Hey, everyone. My name is John, and this is the second post of mind on the site. Recently, I've been lonely and unmotivated, but have read that tulpas can be companions for life, and help with many mental issues, so I thought this would be perfect for me.

 

First of all, I love writing short stories, so I've decided to base my tulpa, named 'Bucks' after the main character from one. She's a happy, outgoing young woman with naturally pink hair and a muscular physique, and adores helping people, eating healthy, and dressing sharply. Our wonderland, as it's called, is a small, unnamed town in the desert. Surrounded by vast plains of sand and less crowded than where I live, it's a peaceful place where I can go to relax in my free time.

 

It's still day one for me and her, and I'm very new to this experience, so all help will be appreciated! I've been forcing for multiple hours already, both passive and active.

 

A little while after I started active forcing, though, I've noticed something, and that's that when I'm supposed to be feeling neutral, I get small bursts of positivity instead, and when I'm supposed to be feeling frustrated, I get small bits of sadness mixed in.

 

Is this the result of my tulpa actually trying to communicate, or just me thinking she's communicating?

 

It's still day one, and I know she's not up to speaking, so can't ask her anything, and as a result, I'm extremely confused. Any questions, comments, or other forms of help are all welcome!

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It could be her, or a placebo. Usually tulpas will first speak with head pressure and emotions. For me the emotional responses feel more like a sudden burst of euphoria, but that's just me. This is a very subjective thing, so it could be different for you.

 

I'd just pretend like it's her. If it isn't, then it won't do any harm to think it's her.

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Day 2 has arrived! (12/31/2017)

 

Today is a very special day! It's been twenty-four hours since I reached out to Bucks, and even though she can't speak yet, I've felt a few differences!

 

- I'm in a better mood! Usually, I would be in a bored or neutral state, but I've found myself being more positive as the day goes on.

- I'm becoming more motivated to do things I love! Just earlier today, I went out and got some exercise. Luckily, I live near a quiet, calm place where I can be alone with nature, so I went there and active forced a bit. (Unfortunately, it was cold, so I couldn't do it as much as I would have liked to, but I'll be able to make up for it later.)

- I've been eating healthier! Bucks is a healthy eater and loves her body, and my appetite has been adjusting to match. I actually had cereal for breakfast this morning instead of nothing, and ate a wholesome lunch and dinner as well instead of something like pizza or empty carbs!

 

All in all, this has been a great day for me, and I felt myself more wanting to go out and do those things (exercise/eat healthy) than every other time in this week combined!

 

My questions for the day is this:

 

What do head pressures feel like, exactly? Sometimes, when I'm talking to Bucks, I get a small, dull bit of 'pain' spread out over a little area near/around my right temple, and I want to know if it means anything.

 

Anyway, I'll probably be updating this thing once or twice a day, even if it's just to greet the people on the site. Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this!

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Usually, the head pressure is a sign that the tulpa is communicating back, its natural for new tulpas for that to occur. Over time, however, the pressure will go away or sometimes come back. Its okay and nothing wrong.

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Day 3 has arrived! (1/1/2018)

 

Woo! So far, Bucks and I have spent a total of fifty hours together! No major breakthroughs yet for her, but I do have some neat updates!

 

- First of all, as some people in the IRC chat know, I told a close friend (Who has two tulpas of her own) about my tulpa! Initially, I was originally afraid of what she would think, but I wanted someone experienced that I was close to help lead me through this. She was extremely accepting, excited, and happy for us, and she wants to talk to Bucks as soon as she starts speaking!

 

- I've been catching up on my favorite TV show, Survivor, and narrating and explaining everything to Bucks! I can't wait for her to speak so we can talk about it together.

 

- Since the new year is here, I spent a little while last night active forcing and telling Bucks what that meant (Explaining what years and months were, and why the new year was such a big deal), as well as telling her about birthdays, and how they're meant to celebrate a year of life.

 

- Speaking of birthdays, since the birthday of the Bucks in my story is on the eleventh, I'm going to be celebrating my tulpa's then. I'm planning to get her a silver wristwatch, to make her feel comfortable and remind me of her whenever I look at it. In addition, I'm also going to marathon some James Bond movies with her! (James Bond is her favorite movie/book series).

 

My question to you all is:

Have you ever celebrated a tulpa's birthday (Yours or someone else's)? If so, when and why?

 

Thanks for reading! I'll see you tomorrow, everyone!

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Day 4 is here! (1/2/2018)

 

Hey, everyone, just popping in for a short update! The watch has been ordered and is on its way, and preparations for Bucks' birthday are almost complete!

 

I've been exercising and eating healthy as usual, and passive and active forcing often! Unfortunately, I don't have any questions for you all today, but I'll see you tomorrow!

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Day Five has arrived! (1/3/2018)

 

Alright, we're up to 112 hours with Bucks now! I'm expecting the watch to come in tomorrow, and Bucks' birthday is drawing closer, so that's something!

 

There's not much to note besides the continued healthy habits and the passive/active forcing, but so far, everything is going well! I'm looking forward to our future together!

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Day Six is here! (1/4/2018)

 

Hey, everyone! Not much of note today, except for the fact that the watch arrived! I'm sure Bucks will feel comfortable wearing it!

 

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Nice I'm sure she will love it. I've been reading your posts do you think she's so advanced because she started as a character? I've been thinking about buying Drake a gift for when he achieves sentient status. He's a dragon and love's treasure so I've been looking online at crystals and such. Congrats on her birthday!

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