CM's Ramblings
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11.1.2015

Hello, it's me, been dead for some time and nobody remembers me because I wasn't a very notable member of this site, heh.

But to the point: I had another progress report thread here, where I introduced my two male tulpas, Desmond and L. Well, unfortunately, few months ago the two left. It became harder and harder for me to sense their presence anymore, and later I could no longer go to our Wonderland. I could imagine what it looked like, but whenever I tried to think myself in it, it felt like it wasn't there, I couldn't see it. My tulpas haven't answered to me and I can't visualize them. They aren't here. I felt sad, of course, but not too much, because I feel like this is their choice. And we made a promise when I created them, that they would always be welcome back should they ever leave my side.

I decided I would start creating another tulpa, and only one this time, as it seemed that two ended up taking too much "space", and it didn't work well for me.
I started planning her about a month ago. She's a sky-blue Asari with darker facial markings on her forehead and stripes on her "head-tentacles", lower lip and cheeks. Her eyes are blue as well, and she's wearing white clothes, as no other color seems to suit her and her personality.

First her name was Shiva T'Vani, but during her creation when I asked if she would like another name, the name "Nevira" popped into my mind, and I think it was her doing. So I changed the name to Nevira T'Vani, as she seems to have no problems with her surname that I picked for her.

The personality I have planned for Nevira would make her wise, caring, friendly, compassionate and patient, rest is up to her and I know it will differ from my plan, based on past experience, but I don't mind as long as she is who she wants to be.

She has recently started answering my talking with single words, mostly just asking "why?" or simply stating "oh" or "okay", when I explain something to her. She said her first clear full sentence when we were walking in the city and I saw my crush walking together with someone I know has a crush on her too, and a sting of jealousy made me feel really down for a moment. Until she reminded me "Hey, we have ice cream at home" with the most caring and comforting tone I had ever heard, and I instantly felt so much better <3
I have asked her if it's alright with her that she is indeed an Asari instead of a normal human, and I felt that she doesn't mind, but didn't hear an actual verbal answer. Just to make sure, I told her it's alright if she wants to look different later, but she just nodded with a smile, a gesture which I understood as "I know, but I'm good."

That's all there is so far, I won't be writing very often, at least it seems that way now. Just thought I should write this as to mark that I am not done with tulpamancing, just having a fresh start.
Desmond - 21st April 2014 (Also has his own account)
L - 5th May 2014
Nevira - 14th December 2014
Misa - 5th December 2015
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CM's Ramblings - by ClianthaMiura - 01-11-2015, 04:22 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 01-14-2015, 09:27 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 01-29-2015, 05:34 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-28-2015, 02:12 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 03-02-2015, 03:57 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 03-09-2015, 03:55 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 03-12-2015, 09:35 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-06-2015, 08:43 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-12-2015, 06:01 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-13-2015, 09:22 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-14-2015, 07:13 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-16-2015, 06:46 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-29-2015, 07:20 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 07-07-2015, 09:41 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 12-08-2015, 12:58 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-13-2016, 07:49 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 10-06-2016, 03:48 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 10-08-2016, 12:26 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 10-13-2016, 01:37 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 10-13-2016, 04:16 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 10-14-2016, 01:10 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 10-20-2016, 04:08 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-15-2016, 12:52 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 11-15-2016, 05:02 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-15-2016, 05:16 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-20-2016, 01:57 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 11-20-2016, 02:08 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 11-20-2016, 03:09 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 11-20-2016, 01:17 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 11-20-2016, 06:23 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-21-2016, 12:51 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-22-2016, 04:33 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 11-22-2016, 05:06 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Vos - 11-22-2016, 12:39 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 11-22-2016, 03:48 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Vampire - 11-22-2016, 04:15 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 11-22-2016, 05:11 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 11-22-2016, 07:09 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-22-2016, 07:42 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-22-2016, 09:54 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-25-2016, 05:21 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 11-27-2016, 06:30 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 12-02-2016, 09:02 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-05-2017, 06:59 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-06-2017, 08:27 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-08-2017, 07:12 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-12-2017, 08:31 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-16-2017, 08:24 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 02-17-2017, 08:09 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Vos - 02-17-2017, 10:16 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 02-17-2017, 12:25 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 02-17-2017, 01:39 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 02-17-2017, 02:14 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-24-2017, 08:54 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-26-2017, 01:00 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 02-27-2017, 02:52 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 03-10-2017, 01:50 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 03-29-2017, 12:30 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 03-29-2017, 05:35 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 04-21-2017, 07:22 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-05-2017, 12:19 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 05-05-2017, 08:52 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-06-2017, 01:26 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-06-2017, 12:30 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 05-06-2017, 12:46 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-06-2017, 01:22 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 05-16-2017, 05:51 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 06-02-2017, 09:41 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 06-03-2017, 12:53 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by tulpa001 - 06-03-2017, 01:28 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by Desmond - 06-03-2017, 05:34 PM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 06-05-2017, 03:25 AM
RE: Me and T'Vani - by ClianthaMiura - 06-07-2017, 03:43 PM
RE: CM's Ramblings - by ClianthaMiura - 06-09-2017, 10:48 PM
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RE: CM's Ramblings - by Desmond - 06-22-2017, 09:13 PM
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