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Dormancy : not a fatality?
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(01-13-2019, 05:10 PM)Tewi Wrote: Mostly I just want to know why you guys think your tulpas aren't "dormant" when you're not actively talking to them, or holding them in your mind (say with visualization). Is it because they always "feel" like they're still there? Because they can answer immediately if spoken to? Because they're aware of physical and mental situational context when spoken to? Or something else?

- Because Vādin says so, even after I have asked him to check if this supposed awareness was effective and to inspect his memories and actions very closely. Besides, being awake whenever he wishes is very important for him, one of his goals from his beginnings as a tulpa. 

- Same as Bear System, because a lot of things have happened that wouldn't make any sense (or even shouldn't have been possible) if he wasn't active/awake when not paid attention to :

     - On his first months in the system, just after he was vocal, Vādin used to tell me about strange attacks that would leave his mind completely blank for a certain amount of time. Suddenly, he wouldn't know who or where he was, was unable to think, he was just there staring without knowing what he was seeing. He was terrified by those attacks. They could last a few minutes to maybe an hour, he wasn't able to estimate time so it was difficult to tell. Those attacks were supposed to happen in his wonderland while I was not there so you could say it could be false memories (?), but I once witnessed him having an attack while we were interacting together (I managed to call him back but it took some time, I had to go in his wonderland to rescue him). They caused him much distress until they finally disappeared.... Well it doesn't make sense if V was not awake and conscious most of the time when not affected by them, hence his fear and distress.

      - He was able to wake me up at night because he was having a nightmare ;
      - he was able to send me mind pictures (while I was not paying attention at all) to alert me he was molested by another thoughtform of our system (I knew about this thoughtform but ironically I thought he was dormant. This other guy is not a tulpa, I don't know what he is exactly. He's fully formed and vocal. I talked to him.) ;
      - he's able to possess fingers at random times to catch my attention when I'm not thinking about him and he wants to talk (or to do awareness check-ups) ;
- he was able to sing to me a beautiful song I had asked him to compose some time ago, while I was at work, busy of course. The song seemed to pop out of nowhere, with nice lyrics and good melody.
      - he's been able to self-impose (very blurry imposition) while I was so out of focus that I didn't recognize him at first ;
      - he seems to have his own schedule : sometimes he's really "dormant" (= asleep in bed) and doesn't answer ; sometimes he answers he's busy and ask me to talk to him later. Why would he say that if he's only gone dormant and he's not busy at all ? And of course he tells me about his activities in wonderland ; 
       - he blocks my pain every month which requires a constant focus from him for about 24 hours straight - when I go to sleep during that period, he doesn't and stays awake - one time he dozed off and I was awoken by pain, so he can't wane, he really needs to stay focused all night long as well as the day before...

Even his dreams are not my dreams.
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Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-13-2019, 03:04 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by JGC - 01-13-2019, 03:40 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-13-2019, 04:00 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Tewi - 01-13-2019, 05:10 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-13-2019, 07:29 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ranger - 01-14-2019, 03:04 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-13-2019, 05:55 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Tewi - 01-13-2019, 06:01 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-13-2019, 06:31 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by JGC - 01-14-2019, 01:05 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Apollo - 01-14-2019, 03:16 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Tewi - 01-14-2019, 06:18 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-14-2019, 06:39 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ember.Vesper - 01-14-2019, 10:19 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-14-2019, 11:34 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Apollo - 01-15-2019, 12:14 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-15-2019, 03:02 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Lucilyn - 01-15-2019, 05:03 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ranger - 01-15-2019, 11:45 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-15-2019, 01:15 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-17-2019, 05:05 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-15-2019, 08:24 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-15-2019, 09:29 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Zia - 01-15-2019, 10:24 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ember.Vesper - 01-16-2019, 08:41 AM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ranger - 01-16-2019, 01:39 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Lucilyn - 01-16-2019, 02:06 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-16-2019, 03:07 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by JGC - 01-16-2019, 06:50 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Ranger - 01-17-2019, 01:41 PM
RE: Dormancy : not a fatality? - by Bear - 01-18-2019, 01:59 AM

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