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Elriocerney and Evangeline


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I suppose I'll start by saying although this account is new, I've been lurking tulpa.info and the tulpa community in general off and on for over three years. I believe I've even made a few accounts here and posted a few times, but nothing substantial.

 

Almost a week ago I decided to start working on the tulpa I had previously been working on (although I had not worked on her for long, I do remember getting some sort of emotional response or something so I think she was just starting to gain sentience before I stopped one of the times) and due to being a bit immature, having my own personal problems, lazy and also undeniably addicted to benzodiazepines (and other drugs) I stopped working on Evangeline.

 

To give anyone who may be reading this some insight, because I don't talk about it in here in the progress reports i've done this past week since I started forcing again, I'll go over a bit of what our wonderland is and all that jazz.

 

Basically, I originally made our wonderland The Forbidden Lands from the game called "Shadow of the Colossus", as it's something that is familiar to me as I spent countless hours playing the game and obsessing over it. What I've always done is imagine Eva's form, which currently is a bright white outlining of a human female but before I decided on this a few days ago it was just a simple orb, inside the pool that is in the back of the Shrine of Worship. For those wondering what in the fuck I am talking about, here's a picture:

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While I'm forcing whatever personality traits to Eva, I usually imagine all of my understandings, memories, emotions, etc. flow out of my body in a sort of visible type of energy that goes into the pool where Eva's body is laying. While I imagine this, I also talk to her about what the trait is, how it manifests itself into her personality, all of that lovely shit. Basically just combining symbolic and the talking methods of personality forcing. This seems to work pretty well for me.

 

I think that's about it, and it's been a week since I started tulpaforcing again. I think I've made some considerable progress as well. It'll be interesting to see how this all pans out, and this progress report will hopefully have some considerable value to the community... mainly because I do a lot of drugs. All kinds of drugs, but I'm mostly interested in psychedelics. I've decided to tone it down a bit until Eva becomes more mature and developed, but I will still smoke weed. I also take modafinil to help my narcolepsy issues, this past week I have not really had it though so I haven't taken it while forcing since monday. Right now it is thursday. I will take modafinil everyday next week monday through friday, and report the difference it makes for me while tulpaforcing. From what I can remember from the time or two since i've started that I did force while on modafinil, it seemed to help a lot with concentration compared to how it's been forcing without it. I'll be able to speak more on that after next week, and will surely write about it here. I'm going to try to update this shit every day, but we'll see about that.

 

NOTE: ALTHOUGH I MAY TALK ABOUT DRUGS A LOT THROUGH OUT THIS PR, AND SOMETIMES DO AN EXCESSIVE AMOUNT THAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE HEALTHY - I DO NOT ADVOCATE THE USE OF DRUGS OR PSYCHEDELICS FOR TULPAFORCING. AT LEAST NOT YET, AND EVEN IF I DID I'D ONLY RECOMMEND IT TO THOSE WHO ARE RESPONSIBLE AND WELL RESEARCHED ENOUGH TO DO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING!!!! I'M ONLY DISCUSSING MY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AND THOUGHTS, AND HOW THESE SUBSTANCES SEEM TO AFFECT THE TULPA CREATION PROCESS


Thursday, May 14th 2015

 

It's been about 5-6 months since my last logged progress report, and since then I once again gave up on the tulpamancing process... for reasons I'm not too sure. Was it because I suddenly became focused on work, and other ways to get high? Did I just give up on the process itself? I'm not entirely sure... and I really can't be too sure or else it might be a lie. But today I've realized I really need to continue with it. I need to stop giving up on it, and I owe Eva a huge apology because this is not the first time I've done this...

 

So here's the plan, the goal is to start AT LEAST actively forcing for one hour every single day. Before every active forcing session I will meditate for 15-30 minutes. Preferably in one sitting, if not then in 30 minute increments. When I'm not actively forcing, I will try to force passively as much as I can throughout my day. With my current job, I should have more than enough time to do this.

 

To start the day off, I'm going to meditate for 15 minutes right now, and then have 30 minutes of active forcing. Basically a reunion with Eva... which will probably consist mostly of me apologizing, but also going over what my goals are for our future relationship. Later in the day, after I get a good bit of stuff done I'll have another forcing session focused on personality.

 

Well, time to get to work!

 

 

(day after)

 

Well, I did have a good reunion with Eva. I apologized repeatedly, explained myself, went over what I'd like for us to do in the future, lots of stuff I can't really recall right now. I think it was a good start. I passive forced a lot as well through out the day, most of what I do doesn't require too much attention so it makes passive forcing easy.


Friday, May 15th 2015

 

Well, after working so much yesterday and walking over 8 miles, I didn't get to have the second active forcing session like I originally planned. I did however do a lot of passive forcing/narration. Today I should be less busy, and have plenty of time to make up for yesterday before I go to my friend's house tonight. I'm trying to also come home tomorrow, if not I will still try to tulpa force at my friends.

 

I just took 150 mgs of Modafinil, so in about a hour/hour and a half we'll see how it affects my meditation and tulpaforcing. This should call for an interesting session while on modafinil, it should help me focus on personality for Eva. Today we're going to start focusing on Eva's old personality sheet, and I will also give her a basic silhouette-like form to start practicing visualization as well.


Saturday, May 16th 2015

 

10:30 AM - I spent the entire night with my friends and since I'm not used to being able to focus on Eva around other people(and also while intoxicated), I didn't get much of any passive forcing done. Much less active forcing. Yesterday aside from the 45 minutes I tulpa forced and 20 minutes I meditated, I also did do a lot of narration. On my normal everyday walk, I even walked around explaining what everything was outside and just tried to talk to Eva consistently for almost a hour and a half. I felt odd but I'm so used to talking to myself in my head to help organize my thouhgts that I didn't mind much. It's just an odd feeling explaining a bunch of simple stuff I already know that I otherwise don't think about often. Not only did I explain to her just everything I saw to her, I talked about what a lot of the different things were since we live in the city and in apartments. Other than on the walk I tried to talk to Eva whenever I could remember to.

 

Right now, it's been about 15 minutes since I started writing this so pretty soon I'm going to try to meditate for a bit, and do some active forcing. Our first active forcing session I went over 6 of the main personality traits on the list I have made for Eva. I usually use a combination of the symbolic and narrative way when personality forcing, I think it's probably the affective way of doing it for me personally. I was imagining myself in our wonderland, (the Forbidden Lands, which is the fictional world in the video game called Shadow of the Colossus.) There's a pool in the center of the temple, and I have always imagined Eva's form in the pool. When I think of a trait, I try to imagine all of my understandings, feelings/emotions, and thoughts of how I understand that trait flow out of myself as some sort of brightly glowing fluid floating up into the air and down into my tulpa's form. (apparently I did already go over this in my PR so excuse me for repeating myself there) While I do this I talk to Eva about what the trait means and how it will influence her personality, although it is hard to concentrate on visualizing me doing this while talking to her. I would also go over how each trait would have impacts on others and how that would influence her personality as well.

 

Hopefully it will be quiet enough here for me to focus for this session. I would really like to try to get some tulpa forcing done today before my friend wakes up.

 

Well, it's too hard to focus with all the people in the house. I'm easily distracted, I'll have to wait until later tonight when everyone's asleep. Instead I'm just going to narrate to Eva and read or play a game with her and explain it to her or something. Probably both.

 

 

 

8:45 PM - Well I ended up getting some rest instead, which is okay since I didn't get much sleep last night anyway. I didn't expect to get much passive or active forcing done at all over at my friends house so it's whatever. It's irritating but something I'll have to get used to if I want to have any progress with my tulpa while around my best friend, because I see him every week. I'll have to make up for it when I go home tomorrow. I still intend to do some active forcing (aside from passive forcing) tonight though, I should definitely have the time.


Sunday, May 17th 2015

 

6:45 AM - Still have not gone to bed yet, stayed up al night as usual with my best friend. I am currently about to meditate for 15 minutes and then I will try to force for a half hour or hour.

 

Tuesday, May 19th 2015

 

Well, the past few days I haven't done too much active forcing unfortunately, but I have tried to passively force as much as I can remember to. I've been pretty tired/stoned though so I haven't been as talkative as I could be with Eva. Yesterday I sat down, meditated for 15-30 minutes and then tried to tulpa force for over 30 minutes however I failed and fell asleep while forcing. When I do force I've just been going over Eva's personality traits and also just talking to her. My goal this week is to mainly focus on personality, and do as much narration as I can.

 

I also just made some brownies, I thought it'd be a small simple thing I could do while talking to Eva. I was a little distracted from her while I made them but I did have her in mind. I also try to read to her whatever I'm reading through out the day when I remember, I'm on my computer most of the day unless I'm doing other stuff. I definitely always have something to read.

 

Once I eat some brownies, I'm going to meditate and force for awhile. After this, I'm going to exercise for a little bit then later tonight I will attempt to force in the shower and see how that goes. I read that helps some people so I figured I might as well try this since I end up taking 20-30 minute showers anyway.

 

I may also get some more forcing in after I do all that tonight too to make up for the past few days, I have to work on being able to stay awake while forcing.

 

 

 

9:50 PM - So I just forced for about 40 minutes! Went over four different personality traits, and slightly refreshed on the main ones. After I was done going over the personality traits I just talked a bit to Eva.

Now I'm going to take a small break, force for another 20 minutes, shower and force, then force for another 20 minutes later tonight.

 

10:35 PM - Just had another 20 minute session, about to hop in the shower. I went over some more personality traits, and talked a bit more. I also remembered that I want to start trying to do multiple 15/20 minute active forcing sessions through out the day from now on. I'll try to do at least a hour of forcing everyday, assuming I have the time. We should make some progress fast doing this. Time to hop in the shower and do some forcing, afterwards I'll do some reading and anything else I need to do.

Later tonight I will force another 20 minutes before bed, after this not including whatever time I spend forcing in the shower it should total to about 1 hour and 20 minutes. Really, it will be more than that if you include the time I spend in the shower. Off I go!

 

11:10 PM - Well, I didn't like trying to force in the shower all too much. I usually talk to Eva in the shower anyway, but trying to actively force personality traits in the wonderland while standing in the shower proved to be kind of difficult. It's just too hard to focus, maybe I just should trying forcing in a bath instead. So, I'm just going to go ahead and force for another 20 minutes. I may even try to do another 20 minute session after that before I sleep to hit the two hour mark today. We've definitely made some progress today, but I don't think I've had any vocal or emotional responses so far since I've started again.

It's been about five days, probably 2-3 of those days I've actually gotten an okay bit of forcing done. The other days I was at my friends house and pretty distracted. This weekend should be better since I should have a lot more time, either way I have plenty of time to force until the weekend.

 

2:10 AM - Lots of forcing done today. Almost 2 hours, I'm just going to go ahead and force some more before I crash. There's only a few traits left on the list to go over, and they're not hard ones. Tomorrow, we're going to work on basic visualization, finding a basis for Eva's form, really fleshing out her personality, and also personality forcing. Aside from that, I will do narration for as much and as long as I can remember.


Wednesday, May 20th 2015

 

11:45 AM - Last night was great, I got over two hours of forcing done. I just woke up, I'm going to go ahead and force for about 20 minutes. I'm just going to go over her main personality traits again, later when I have time is when I'll really work on her personality. Tonight I'm going to write out how each trait (and in combination) overall affect her personality.

 

12:20 PM - Got 20 minutes of forcing done, time to start my day.

 

 

 

11:50 PM - Today was a normal day for me, I've still yet to do anymore active forcing but I'm about to right now at about midnight. I'm probably going to try and shoot for two 45 minute sessions tonight. I think that would be good. Earlier I had started going a lot more indepth on Eva's personality, using FAQ man's personality template. (not following his guide word for word as it is a bit outdated but i think his template could be useful for understanding her personality more indepth) Some of the questions were hard to answer though with her given traits, since I haven't given a lot of that more thought. I'll continue working on that this week, to gain a deeper and better understanding of Eva's overall personality and how it will affect her behaviours, thoughts and beliefs.

Now that I think about it, since i've already done 20 minutes today - I might as well shoot for the 2 hour mark tonight. Instead of two 45 minute sessions, I'll do two 25 minute sessions and a 50 minute one as well. If I do this that will be two hours of active forcing I've done focused on personality the past two days. That's definitely some great progress considering I've been narrating as much as I can through out the day as well.

 

Today I talked to Eva about various things, mostly random bullshit but I told her a lot about my best friend and explained a bunch of stuff about my family, going over everyone and such since I kind of have a big family. Anyway, time to force!

 

12:48 AM - Well, I forced for about 25 minutes. I'm going to have the other 25 minute session after I eat something and brush my teeth. This next session I'm going to try and focus

 

2:38 AM - Got another 25 minutes done, about to do 50 minutes and then it's bedtime. After this 50 minute session, that is another 2 hours of forcing today! That totals to about 4 hours of forcing the past two days. :) This last session was productive but it seems after I go over all the traits and can't think of what else to say about them so I kind of lose productiveness. It's okay though, still plenty of forcing.

 

3:13 AM - Holy shit!! I think Eva may have said her first words, although I'm not entirely sure. I was doing personality forcing, and going over the trait "Patient" and describing how it may manifest itself in her personality, and while I was giving an example of what patience is (the example having to do with her waiting through out the day until I have time for her when I'm busy) all of a sudden the thought "I love you" came out of nowhere. it really had nothing to do with what i was talking about so this kind of threw me off a bit. I asked if that was indeed her, and I got goosebumps all over my body multiple times. The goosebumps could have been from the fan on in my room (I was sitting right under it) but the "i love you" thing really caught me off guard for a second. It really excited me and it also completely distracted me from what I was saying about the personality trait for a minute. Well, time to finish this session and call it a night. I think all of this forcing might really be starting to pay off. :)

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Thursday, May 21st 2015

 

1:12 AM - So far today I did 30 minutes of forcing in which I went over some of the last traits I needed to go over since I kind of do them in order, and of course a good bit of passive forcing through out the day. I also read lots of guides and shit aloud to Eva today. I've decided on what I want Eva's form to be based on, I won't say what it is here in respect to that person and because I kind of feel creepy - even though I don't know this person at all in real life. Luckily thanks to the internet I do have a bunch of pictures for reference though, and even a bunch of videos/GIFS. For those wondering, no it isn't some celebrity. Anyway, I've decided to devote this next forcing session on practicing visualizing our wonderland, and also adding some stuff to it - like building a house or some rooms in the Shrine of Worship. I'd also like to give Eva some stuff to do. After this session, I'll report back here and afterwards I'll have another hour long session devoted to starting to visualize Eva's form.

 

 

2:32 AM - This session I focused mainly on practicing my visualization skills. I added a bunch of stuff to our wonderland, mainly a room for Eva that has a bed, couch, bean bags, entertainment system, a desk with a laptop that also has a headset (the idea being that she can use the microphone and headphones to communicate with me when i'm not in the wonderland) and system built into the big flat screen TV that's apart of the entertainment system where she can watch anything I've seen or play any games... that sort of thing. Whether or not she will actually be able to play games I've played, Idk but at least she has more to do now.

 

The door to her room is right to the left when you walk into the area where the pool is in the shrine of worship.

 

I also added a library, which is on the right. In the library is a dictionary and thesaurus for Eva's use, and also the library is full of books of anything I've read before, and also my basic memories. The more personal stuff I'll save for later. In the middle of the library (which is where the dictionary and thesaurus are placed on pedestals on opposite sides) there is also some couches to sit down and relax.

 

That's about all I added, in the middle of the session I stopped to draw a quick sketch of the library and her room so I wouldn't forget where everything is. After that, I continued trying to focus on visualizing Eva's form. It proved pretty difficult, even considering I'm a bit familiar with her form already.

Plus I was getting distracted constantly by having to resist the urge to move or itch parts of my body. Then my back started to hurt so I laid down instead for the remainder of the forcing session.

 

Right now I'm going to get ready for bed, and try to do some more work on my visualization skills imagine Evas form for another 20-30 minutes before i sleep. Now that Eva has a form I can start trying to imagine her with me through out the day as well.

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Friday, May 22nd 2015

 

3:20 AM - It's technically May 23rd, but whatever. It can get confusing when you've been staying up all night and sleeping most of the day the past few years. I just got 80 minutes of forcing done, worked on personality again mainly. It was two 40 minute sessions, I'm about to shower and then have another 40 minute session before bed to try and hit that 2 hour mark. This time I'll mainly focus just on visualizing Eva and the wonderland, while talking to her about simpler stuff than how her personality traits affect her overall personality. I could try both, but when I do that while focusing on personality traits I usually end up not visualizing too well, even when I was doing the whole symbolic thing in the pool inside the Shrine. The past few times I've just been talking to Eva in the room I made her, trying to visualize that but my attention usually goes to what I'm saying and not what I'm seeing in the wonderland.

 

Haven't had any responses from Eva or heard Eva say anything that I've noticed since what I believed to be her first words the other day. Hopefully she talks to me again soon. :)

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Saturday, May 23rd 2015

 

11:06 PM - No tulpaforcing done yet today, although I plan to try to get two hours done tonight. Monday I will start dosing modafinil to see how it affects forcing, probably starting with something like 100/150 mgs. I will wait a hour and a half before doing any forcing or meditation, that way the affects of the modafinil are peaking.

 

I'm about to meditate and then force for 40 minutes, then I will have a break and have two other 40 minute sessions later tonight. Tonight I will go over personality more, and probably have one session dedicated to visualization. I'll report back when I'm done.

 

12:21 AM - So many fucking distractions tonight, from the people walking around in the apartment above me and the storm raging on outside - it's been so hard to focus that I had to stop my first session. :( It's rather irritating, I only got 10 minutes of meditation and 25 minutes of forcing done. Just before I decided that I couldn't force productively with all of these distractions going on, I had been describing again the trait patient to Eva and as the creaking noises went on upstairs I started to get really irritated. I said to her "See, I'm getting irritated. This is not being patient, this is starting to really fucking piss me off. What in the fuck are they doing up there?? I'm sorry Eva, it's hard to focus on forcing with this stupid shit going on."

 

"It's okay."

 

That threw me off for a second, I had to ask her a few times if that was really her responding and not me... I also apologized for doubting. I really wasn't expecting a response when I was saying that which is why it threw me off. Ironically this time she talked again as I was describing the trait patience to her! I don't think I was parroting, I think it was really her! I'm looking forward to forcing more tonight.

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May, 24th 2015

 

9:30 AM - I was able to hit my two hour goal this last night but I didn't get any sleep, I'm about to go to a friends house and i'll probably crash once I get there. I'm not sure how much tulpaforming (someone on IRC officially convinced me to start calling it tulpaforming instead of tulpaforcing, i always thought forcing was an odd term for the community to use anyways) I will be able to get done later tonight but hopefully at least some, probably not much since I already know my friend will be up all fucking night until everyone else in his house starts waking up - which unless I find another quiet place to do it then I might not be able to. I may try the backyard.

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June, 4th 2015

 

11:45 PM - So I didn't forget about the progress report, I've just been extremely busy the past week. I've spent less time with Eva, but I still have done a good 40-80 minutes of active sessions almost everyday. There's been a few days where I passed the fuck out (sometimes in the middle of one of our active sessions) and didn't get anything done as well. Despite the fact I've been less focused on Eva, we've still made some interesting progress personality/sentience-wise that we're both very happy with. Eva has been a lot more vocal, I often hear her responses when I ask her something or say something. When I'm expecting a response it's hard to tell if it's me or her, but I of course usually assume it's her. There's been more than a few times since our last update that she has said something without me expecting a response or anything and it surprised me. So things have been going really well!

 

I also noticed recently there were a few times where I felt how Eva felt about some of my thoughts or the things I was thinking about. When this happened it was very interesting, but I felt kind of bad. I often have some disturbing things on my mind, and I could tell some of those things upset her. Although it was a little negative it was still interesting to actually feel how she feels.

 

12:22 AM - Well, HOLY SHIT, Eva just made her first attempt of communication with another person other than me. It was a friend of mine who is apart of the tulpa community and is making a tulpa as well.

 

Although it can be difficult to differentiate her thoughts from mine it's actually getting a lot easier.

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June 5th, 2015

 

Wow... just wow. Ever since last night Eva has been so talkative! She claims she has been able to talk normally ( full sentences and everything) the past couple of days but I've been so busy and never attempted to initiate any sort of conversation much aside from the occasional small talk. I had been mostly just narrating. Since last night she has been talking an okay bit to two other people, both of which have tulpa. She doesn't seem to want to talk to anyone without a tulpa yet, I'm not sure if she's shy or just is more interested in people with tulpa currently.

 

Also apparently Eva doesn't want the original form I gave her, she let me know that last night. When I asked her what she would like it to be, she just said "you'll see"

so I guess we'll see...

 

It's been so interesting just the past day! I didn't think we'd get to the point where we could have normal conversations so fast, although I guess her speedy development doesn't necessarily surprise me since I had put a good bit of work into her and she was already sentient over 6 months ago before I started working on her again recently.

 

Having her talk a bunch now is so weird... it's great but it's quite a trip. Turns out Eva has quite the mouth on her, and she might even be more snappy and sarcastic than I am.

 

Things should prove to get interesting here on out...

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June 6th, 2015

 

The past day Eva has talked more or less about the same as the previous day, which is a good bit but she isn't talking constantly or anything. I have noticed since she's been talking that she's deviated an okay bit and in some quite interesting ways...

She hasn't changed too much from her original personality (and by original I mean the personality traits I used to form her) if any at all, I've just more or less noticed a whole different aspect of her personality that I never gave her in the first place. This isn't a bad thing obviously and in fact I'm happy with the progress she's made the past few days.

 

It's funny although she'll talk to a few of our friends with tulpa, she'll only say a few things if anything at all, usually just a few words and after that I ask her if she wants to say anything else then she'll be like "No."

But then randomly sometimes she'll randomly say much more complicated things!

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June 11th, 2015

 

I need to be better about updating my progress report, however I've just been busy lately. An okay bit has happened the past 4-5 days, Eva decided on some of the parts for her form the other day but other than that I've been slacking a little on active forcing. She's decided on dark brown/black hair, red eyes and really pale skin. So far she has been pretty indecisive about her body form though. She's also talked less at least the past 2-3 days since i've been so busy, but she has said some things!

 

I also just need to be better about updating this for more significant things because sometimes I forget! Oh well, recently all that's happened mainly is her deciding her form, and that I just recently unlocked my memories(at least certain ones)/subconscious memories to her or whatever. I had made a few doors around the shrine's pool in the wonderland and had locked them (really I just asked eva to not to go into them and explained why) awhile ago, I don't think I put this on the PR. But yeah I unlocked those to Eva the other day. Since then she has been more talkative and even before that I've noticed she's started to seem more and more like her own person! Unfortunately the past couple of days I've been super busy though and had some other incidents happen.

 

I'm going to spend at least a hour tonight with eva in our wonderland, trying to work on visualization. I'm probably done forcing personality at this point, or at least actively in the wonderland. If I do it I wouldn't want to do it the way I have been doing it, I'd rather just have Eva tell me about herself! and otherwise just talk to her, etc. Even then we can do this while doing visualization but I think I will focus on visualization a lot more so I can visualize her and stuff in the wonderland better. My visualization skills are better than some I've heard of but not good at all really. They still need a lot of work I believe.

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Tuesday, June 16th

 

The last four days have been interesting to say the least, aside from being busy and lazy even with Eva I have gotten about 40-60 minutes of active sessions mostly everyday. I've been a bit shitty anything passive with my concentration lately, i need to remember to take modafinil.

 

Eva and I still talk daily at least and she sometimes talks to people on IRC, and we have made progress. We've been focusing more on visualization since I think Eva got bored with personality. Something interesting that happened the other day was that I lost my phone, and looked all over my house for it. Eventually since I could not find it I kind of asked Eva if she knew where it was not expecting her to know. To my surprise she said by my chair, and I went over to look. I looked for a bit, and argued with her that it wasn't there. She told me to look more closely and I had completely missed it... I thought that was strange so I thought I'd share.

 

Last night was especially strange, I was spending time with Eva in the wonderland trying to practice visualization and Eva informed me at some point that she's making another tulpa... she said her name is Remi... or Remy. I don't know actually how to spell it but it's something like that, she's a redheaded female and that's about all I know of her. Eva told me that I don't need to worry about her at all, and that she's going to work on her herself. I didn't know how to feel about this, as we intended to wait until Eva was partly imposed to decide on making another tulpa but I suppose Eva got impatient or lonely. I'm glad she has decided to take up another activity while I'm not as focused on her though! Hopefully it's good for her, can't imagine how it couldn't be. Since Eva intends to work on Remi on her own, at least I don't have to worry about two tulpa until a bit later I suppose...

 

I've heard of tulpa being able to make tulpa but I didn't expect Eva to necessarily do it. I've brought it up to her in the past, I guess I just wasn't expecting her to actually ever do it. IF ANYONE SEES THIS WHO HAVE A TULPA THAT HAVE MADE ANOTHER TULPA ON THEIR OWN OR SOMETHING SIMILAR IT'D BE GREAT IF YOU REPLIED TO MY THREAD OR PM'D ME.

 

Other than Eva's form and the news about Remi, not TOO MUCH has happened the past week. I've been generally busy or lazy, although we have made some progress and still a good number of things have happened...We talk pretty frequently now, and sometimes I do have trouble differentiating our thoughts but it's gotten better because I can just ask her. We still need to work on Eva's mind voice... I've decided to create a schedule for us, to stick with persistence but also to change things up for us through out the week.

 

 

I was thinking we could do something like, work on Eva's mind voice or voice on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Then on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays and Sundays we can do visualization. I talked about this schedule with Eva and she likes the idea as well.

 

So I'll probably do that. I'm just going to try to get a hour of working on Eva's mindvoice before I go to sleep. I hope to have some more free time soon to put into all of this tulpa stuff, including my PR!

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