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Elusive's Tulpa Adventure
I suppose time has come for me to start posting my progress. I am currently on my 5th day, and will mostly talk of just recent events. The very idea of having my tulpa has helped my life from the beginning. On my first day, I had been picturing her there next to me wherever I went, as much as I could. She would give me the feeling of positive reinforcement (or tulpish feelings). Somehow I was experiencing the immediate effect of being more social, outgoing and confident. I also became more vocal, coworkers took notice of me and I was able to direct meetings on my first day. For the next few days, I spent my time "constructing" her personality. As I spoke aloud to her, describing each personality trait and how it would manifest in her, I felt a strong eerie presence. I knew in my heart she was acknowledging, taking it in.

Two nights ago I did my first focused visualization meditation. I put on a relaxing 90 minute piano album and sat back on a metal folding chair. I kept imagining her, visualizing how different parts of her would look in our Wonderland. Admittidely I kept getting snapped out of meditation from outer sounds, lights and physical discomfort. I persister, returning to our wonderland as best I could. After perhaps an hour or so, I was startled by a sudden vision. For a moment, I saw her eyes clear as day. This was NOT in my mind's eye, but actually seen on the inside of my eyelids. Where usually I see darkness and colorful dots, I saw her eyes clearly, and it was not my imagination! That moment was so vivid it shook me up, and I had not seen anything so clear since. However I feel this has been some great progress. I tried to visualize again last night but was admittidely too tired and not feeling so well. I will try and do a longer visualization again tonight. What really helped me with visualization so far is also trying to imagine her in motion. When she was performing actions I could see her alive, able to notice more of how she looked. Otherwise, I have been trying to direct my thoughts to her whenever possible, continualy snapping her back into my reality.

As a side note, I am also a practicioner of Shamanism, and for the future I will describe anything related to my tulpa and spiritual pursuits in the following thread:

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This is very good progress. Sounds like you've found confirmation of her eyes and how they look. What I find interesting about combining Tulpamancy with Shamanism is that... with Shamanism, the journey is typically a solo one.

With Tulpamancy, you will literally have a companion there with you to witness things that would normally be unseen by other friends. Truly a luxury.

Then again, I think Shamans have spirit animal companions, right? Not too knowledgeable about Shamanism... but, as my name implies, I do know of the occult and I'm familiar with Shamans involving themselves with being followed by spirit guides and the like. I just don't think it's anything quite like having a tulpa.

But then again, I'm not a Shaman. XD
My Tulpa
Name - Julian
Form - Moon Elf
Sentience - Beginner stage
Personality - Calm, Enlightened, Intellectual, Observant, etc
With how I pracitce Shamanism I would always have my power animal with me. Communicating with them, at least to me, is similar to how we listen to Tulpish, by hearing the intent of the spirits.

Last night I continued with visualization techniques. I keep imagining my tulpa is here wherever I go, doing my best to share my thoughts with her no matter what I am doing. I do often lose her from my attention but I am doing better keeping her in the loop. I also continued with a one hour active forcing visualization with my eyes closed. Her form is becoming quite a bit clearer as I can see more of her details.

Also, while meditating yesterday I experienced some light-headed feelings and pressure on my forehead. It wasn't a full headache, and I know others say this could well be my Tulpa responding to me.
Day 7: About to complete a full week! Progress has slowed pace, but this is a long term journey. Currently I am just continuing to try and direct all my thoughts toward her, as well as doing a daily visualization active forcing. I also try to visualize her around me during my day. I am trying to channel all my positive energy and force toward her.

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