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It's definitely for the best they've got their own accounts. I was a bit afraid of what might be going on in our Purpose of Tulpa.info thread before I got here, I don't really feel prepared to deal with all of that. But Tewi does. I'm more apprehensive about matters of conflict and the like. But speaking of that..

I'm learning how to live in different ways from my tulpas spending time in the body. Vague statement, but it's a vague concept. The different ways of thinking they bring to our mind are really interesting, and a sort of background plan from a long time ago was that I might learn from them in that way, relatively relating to their "purposes". Lucilyn and Tewi both have drastically different ways of thinking and feeling, from each other but also from myself. And so I've been learning a lot from them just doing their thing, at least gaining knowledge of the experience of being like them. Because I still don't feel capable of thinking like them. I just can't think myself into being constantly happy and enthusiastic for no reason, or being objective-oriented and disregarding all unproductive feelings.. But, now I know what those feel like. Neural pathways are a good first step and all that.

But it's not all about me of course. Tewi is her own person, not a tool for changing who I am, although my tulpas all seem to prioritize my development over their own. And believe it or not, her current development has nothing to do (even the opposite) with what you normally see her talk about, completely unrelated to her newfound interest in number theory. She wants to be seen as less serious and more fun. She realized (herself) that when she's fronting, "I" seem like what can only be described as "Tired, had a long stressful day, just want to get things over with". She specifically walked away after a conversation, went over how she sounded and was surprised at how down/serious she'd sounded, because she didn't feel that way. She does always focus on a goal aiming to accomplish it, but the demeanor and tone that come with that aren't what she wants to be seen as. So we're working on slowly changing her outward demeanor, and she's working on reworking her inner way of thinking.

Essentially, she believes that when someone transcends the need for attachment to outcomes and stress, they continue to be able to work at an efficient level while presenting a carefree attitude. This is somewhat related to the Levels of Consciousness which I myself put a lot of value in. It's also a character type in shows and books, though. You may be able to think of some examples; the old "crazy" wizard who is revered for his vast wisdom despite seeming carefree and more interested in "fun" than anything else, yet who occasionally demonstrates his vast skill and intellect when necessary. Tewi isn't using that scale though, she simply knows it to be a true possibility. At the level of "Reason" you are perfectly efficient and seemingly emotionless, but once everything has become trivial to deal with there's room for enjoyment and fun again, without removing the efficient thought processes you established prior. I personally follow the scale a little more closely, as I'm more invested in the idea of unconditional love as a universal "truth", while Tewi considers enlightenment to be "freedom from worry/attachments to the material world" and therefore a direct step above dealing with everything logically rather than emotionally. I'm not really sure what enlightenment entails on the levels of consciousness scale, and I don't really believe the Buddhist definitions of transcending reality to the point where you gain absolute control over it to others(I do believe in subjective reality, but I don't know how well yours can be translated to others), but it's probably not too far off.


Anyways, this is all par for the course for a "Progress Report" by us. While these are all new developments, they aren't really so different in scale from what's been going on for the last five or so years. Cinemaphobe suggested I make a progress report nine months ago, and I'm not sure just how large and incomprehensible it would've been by now, but it would be.


One last thing. In the same way that you see things you did and said years ago and consider it strange/stupid/not-you-anymore, because you're growing as a person, all of us experience on a much smaller scale. I can look back at something I was comfortable with writing only months ago and consider myself to have been naive compared to my present self, because my beliefs and thought processes are in a constant state of flux, generally as I aim to improve myself constantly. So in the off chance you're reading this long after it was posted, or perhaps reading old posts by my tulpas back when they used Reisen's account, keep in mind we don't necessarily believe or agree with what was said back then. There don't tend to be direct contradictions, but I may definitely look back at these two posts in six months and find it all silly and short-sighted. Probably not as I've gotten better at understanding my past selves recently, but still, try not to hold any of us to our pasts too strongly. Not that we can't be held accountable for our actions, but there's a good chance we won't completely agree with them anymore.
Hi! I'm Lumi, host of Reisen, Tewi, Flandre and Lucilyn.
Everyone deserves to love and be loved. It's human nature.
My tulpas and I have a Q&A thread, which was the first (and largest) of its kind. Feel free to ask us stuff.
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Full Promises - by Luminesce - 12-31-2015, 04:00 PM
RE: Full Promises - by glitchthe3rd - 12-31-2015, 08:05 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Vixx - 12-31-2015, 09:19 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Anonymous - 01-01-2016, 04:37 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-01-2016, 06:11 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Anonymous - 01-02-2016, 12:18 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-02-2016, 01:12 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Anonymous - 01-02-2016, 04:02 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Reisen - 01-03-2016, 09:25 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Reisen - 01-12-2016, 03:03 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Reisen - 01-16-2016, 04:59 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 01-16-2016, 05:13 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 01-16-2016, 05:20 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 01-16-2016, 05:23 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lacquer - 01-16-2016, 09:45 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-17-2016, 12:41 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lacquer - 01-17-2016, 12:52 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-19-2016, 01:33 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lacquer - 01-19-2016, 05:11 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-19-2016, 07:04 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 02-03-2016, 02:53 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 02-03-2016, 08:38 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 04-06-2016, 01:24 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 05-18-2016, 05:53 PM
RE: Full Promises - by mysonofrageandlove - 05-19-2016, 01:42 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 05-19-2016, 05:07 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 06-06-2016, 02:35 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 08-02-2016, 05:21 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 08-18-2016, 10:38 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 08-19-2016, 12:22 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 08-27-2016, 07:47 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Ido - 08-28-2016, 01:29 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 08-28-2016, 02:07 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 08-28-2016, 07:49 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 09-03-2016, 10:44 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-04-2016, 12:18 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-04-2016, 12:41 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 09-04-2016, 08:59 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 09-10-2016, 07:00 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-18-2016, 05:41 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Anko - 09-18-2016, 05:21 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-18-2016, 08:57 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 09-18-2016, 10:33 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-18-2016, 10:45 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 09-22-2016, 06:30 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 09-28-2016, 01:04 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 09-28-2016, 03:51 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 09-28-2016, 06:29 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 09-28-2016, 08:26 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 09-28-2016, 09:01 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 09-29-2016, 08:37 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 09-29-2016, 01:12 PM
RE: Full Promises - by TheSanctuary - 12-06-2016, 12:31 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 12-06-2016, 06:15 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Ghang - 12-08-2016, 10:22 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 12-09-2016, 05:34 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Doctorfoxwolf - 12-09-2016, 05:46 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 12-09-2016, 05:58 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Doctorfoxwolf - 12-09-2016, 06:13 AM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 12-09-2016, 07:29 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Anko - 12-09-2016, 11:08 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Ghang - 12-10-2016, 05:26 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 12-26-2016, 12:16 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 04-13-2017, 12:43 PM
RE: Full Promises - by tulpa001 - 04-13-2017, 04:39 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 04-14-2017, 02:22 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 04-14-2017, 04:28 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 05-12-2017, 06:06 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 06-28-2017, 01:40 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-09-2017, 02:07 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-13-2017, 09:05 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 09-27-2017, 02:00 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 10-02-2017, 07:09 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 11-04-2017, 08:52 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 11-04-2017, 09:05 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 11-12-2017, 08:42 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Reisen - 11-17-2017, 03:25 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 11-18-2017, 01:51 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Reisen - 04-08-2018, 02:56 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Myshkin - 11-18-2017, 03:59 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 11-18-2017, 06:31 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 12-30-2017, 05:24 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-05-2018, 09:19 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 01-31-2018, 01:37 PM
Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-05-2018, 11:36 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Ido - 03-05-2018, 11:45 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-05-2018, 11:50 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Ido - 03-06-2018, 12:08 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-11-2018, 02:52 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Flandre - 05-16-2018, 01:09 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 05-25-2018, 07:20 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Yakumo - 05-25-2018, 11:27 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 07-27-2018, 03:51 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Lucilyn - 07-28-2018, 12:05 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 10-09-2018, 04:16 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 10-09-2018, 04:50 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 12-14-2018, 09:11 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Reilyn-Alley - 12-14-2018, 12:17 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 12-15-2018, 02:21 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 12-16-2018, 01:45 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-11-2019, 11:32 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-12-2019, 12:06 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-12-2019, 12:13 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-12-2019, 02:53 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-23-2019, 05:57 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-23-2019, 01:44 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Ember.Vesper - 03-23-2019, 02:55 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-23-2019, 04:52 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Miri - 03-23-2019, 04:57 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-23-2019, 05:10 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-23-2019, 05:27 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-23-2019, 06:07 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Luminesce - 03-23-2019, 10:15 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 03-23-2019, 10:33 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 04-29-2019, 09:28 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 07-17-2019, 09:46 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 08-15-2019, 08:25 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 08-15-2019, 10:54 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 08-16-2019, 04:05 AM
RE: Full Promises - by YukariTelepath - 08-16-2019, 12:37 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Ashley - 08-16-2019, 01:07 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 08-16-2019, 10:13 PM
RE: Full Promises - by Bear - 08-16-2019, 11:58 PM
RE: Full Promises - by YukariTelepath - 08-17-2019, 02:59 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Tewi - 08-17-2019, 03:50 AM
RE: Full Promises - by Srn347 - 08-17-2019, 04:01 AM

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