FurryBlueNaki September 20, 2014 Share September 20, 2014 9/20/14 Started narrating to my Tulpa, and giving personality traits. Focused for about 2 hours on the blue wolf in my avatar. The image of him kept shifting, I can't seem to keep him steady. Felt a dense energy around me like as if it was the Source Field responding to my thoughts. Saw patterns on the wall that looked like cartoon faces. Some smiling at me. Didn't sleep much last night. Was too charged with energy. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 21, 2014 Author Share September 21, 2014 Am mentally exhausted after sleeping 10 hours from concentrating so much yesterday on my tulpa. I don't want to be mentally exhausted at work tomorrow, but thankfully I get to work from home 4 days a week. I also puked a few times tied to my mental fatigue. I'm going to have to dial things back. I feel anxious. I'm also getting dry heaves. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 23, 2014 Author Share September 23, 2014 Am doing better now. I focused maybe an hour yesterday spread out over the day. And maybe 30 mins to an hour today. It's hard to stay focused on my tulpa. I imagine him in different places around me. Usually eyes open. I'm going to actively tulpaforce a bit more now. 2-3 hours seemed like too much the first day. I just worry that I don't spend enough time with him. He isn't sentient yet I don't think. It's been 3 days. Here is what he looks like. He's quite handsome. I have trouble keeping his face recognizable in my visions. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 24, 2014 Author Share September 24, 2014 Yesterday I found his name was Chance. It's a name we both agreed on. I like that name. Last night he said his second phrase: "meat and bones". I'm starting to be able to differentiate when a thought comes from him, and when it's my own thinking. I had the thought "you can hug me as much as you like", that I'm not sure if was from him or my own mind, but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt. It takes a lot of active tulpaforcing to get such few words. But they will come, I know it. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Murphy September 24, 2014 Share September 24, 2014 You get a *like* for furryness :3 Wish you good luck. "you can hug me as much as you like" Cliché xD Water can be used to cook foods such as noodles. (Wikipedia) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest amber5885 September 24, 2014 Share September 24, 2014 It's always safe to just assume it was him at first. The first thing I heard toby say was "bye" and I knew it wasn't me. Like it came out of nowhere and for a moment I thought someone else said it, What you're looking for at first is simple answers. His vocabulary isn't going to be the best at first so you could always try yes or no answers. In the beginning Toby and I kept a note book where I would ask or write down yes or no questions or simple questions like "what's your favorite band?" and I would write down his answer. Id wait about two weeks and do it again without looking at the previous answers and check for consistency. (I was looking for sentience) when I went back the second time to do the question answer thing I went to ask him "what's your favorite food?" and I got "if you want to know if I'm sentient why don't you just ask me?" lol So one day he will suprise you. Try narration, like put a lot of emphasis on that and see where it takes you. Also faces are difficult to hold in visualization. Toby took a while for me to really see him. But with practice you WILL eventually get it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 25, 2014 Author Share September 25, 2014 I tulpaforced at the psychiatrist's office today. When she asked if I hear voices or see things, I tell her no. I don't want her upping my meds. I already feel normal. I feel I don't give enough time to my tulpa. My mind wanders when I am thinking of him. He only told me "please don't kill me" and I was like of course I wouldn't do that. Now if I can just stick with it. Even though through most of the day I am tulpaforcing off and on, it feels like it's not consistent. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 29, 2014 Author Share September 29, 2014 It's the 10th day today. I had the intrusive thought that my tulpa might turn out to be a jerk, but there is no evidence to support such a thought. My tulpa responded, "why do you think I'll be a jerk?" I had to assure him that I meant no mal-intent by such a stray thought, and that I loved him very much. Aside from this, not much else to speak of. It's still hard to visualize him, and I run out of things to say when I narrate to him. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ZSchaller September 30, 2014 Share September 30, 2014 (edited) --- Edited October 10, 2020 by RailOfFire ---- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FurryBlueNaki September 30, 2014 Author Share September 30, 2014 At least I think he's vocal. Can't be sure if it's my own mind making it up. He can't seem to answer complex questions. I do focus a lot on my tulpa. I had to restrain myself last night so I could sleep. Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox. Birthdate September 20, 2014. Sentient October 1, 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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