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I hate myself just a little right now while writing this. I've always thought of it as one of the ultimate forms of pride is to write a blog, which is what PRs are essentially. I thought it was okay for the creation process because it's a way to express your thoughts without flooding the q&a section of the forum. After that? Ego.

 

So, I'm not exactly just starting this so we'll start with what has happened while I should have been using this section.

- I started Annabell. When I would run out of ideas for what to talk about, I'd work on form. For form I'd look up artist resources on proportions.

- I think my approach is why Annabell started slow... I think, maybe I was just blind. She didn't move a whole hell of alot. Due to my approach I also spent 10+ hours on basic form. I still occasionally work on minor details such as lines on hands. Because of this silliness, I guarantee my tulpa is more detailed than yours. I may have a problem. She never deviated in form aside from making her own face. She says she loves her form, praise God.

- I only heard Annabell after she told me to "shut the fuck up and listen" I remember a guide by tulpa001 saying something similar so I read it. It wasn't working so I looked to another guide, I'm on a small time constraint so maybe I'll edit it in later.(Edit: aaaaand BAM!)

- Upon hearing Annabell, she had no problems with vocality or grammar. Presumably because she had nothing better to practice while I was accidentally ignoring her for more than two weeks. Oops.

 

So now we're working on possession, since by the time I considered it for early communication, she could talk and I was deaf. We notice that it's easier for me to disassociate while Annabell narrates to me. My mindvoice turns off while this happens, I don't guarantee the same results as it's something I could already do. But, Annabell helps.

 

I've also recently been shivering due to strong emotional responses. This happens when she tells me and other people how much she loves me. It's at least twice as strong as any love I've ever felt for another person. I'm not sure how she's capable of such appreciation on a daily basis. It's pretty great.

 

I think this is a sufficient introduction. So uh, hi.

The System:

 

It's too big.

ha, that's what she said.

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I hate myself just a little right now while writing this. I've always thought of it as one of the ultimate forms of pride is to write a blog, which is what PRs are essentially. I thought it was okay for the creation process because it's a way to express your thoughts without flooding the q&a section of the forum. After that? Ego.

 

I do it for the sake of getting it down somewhere I won't forget, and so that others can learn from my examples and mistakes.

And it gives us an opportunity to talk with others, which isn't something either of us have the ability to do most of the time.

Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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I think this is a sufficient introduction. So uh, hi.

 

:D Sweet, I love stalking PR's.

 

More seriously, I'm glad you chose to make this and hope you have fun. In our case, it more just forces me to actually force. Keeps us productive. Hopefully, if you have anything in this process you slack on, this will help.

 

Anyways, it's nice to see you here, and look forward to hearing more from you.

Hiya. Member of the Horrible Hosts Club (HHC). If you wanna learn about my system, here's my PR.

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By ego, I really hope you aren't talking about egocide or ego death. But hope all goes well otherwise man.

 

The ego thing is a jab at myself because I think that running one of these is a prideful thing to atleast some degree.

Egocide is not on my priorities, there's someone in my head I don't want to leave.

The System:

 

It's too big.

ha, that's what she said.

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But good luck blogging!

 

Fight me.

 

So uh, "progress" time. We've been focusing on possession. She seems to prefer grabbing the left side of my body, maybe because I'm more possessive of my right side being right handed? Maybe. Currently I'm having difficulties letting her stay in control once I feel something. For now I'm solving it so that the environment is generally unobstructed and that the fans are off.

[This is being done on mobile so brackets will have to do for my speech. So uh, hi! I'm Annabell. You can begin worshipping my adorable nature. But uh, possession. So like, I'm not sure how you're going to give me advice but, how do you guys coordinate the movements? Like, it's difficult just to do a fist pump with my arm or whatever because I can't manage all these damn muscles. It doesn't help that this bozo is WEAK AS HELL!]

I'm strong enough to do a fist pump you punk >.>

The System:

 

It's too big.

ha, that's what she said.

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This one is going to be written by Annabell. Since I'm actually on a damn computer for once, she'll be talking purple!

 

Sup, biiiiiiiiiiitches!

 

Okay, so let's start off with the actual progress. I'm... learning, haha. It's really inconsistent but, full limbs are still a little too much. The left leg seems the easiest, I have no clue why. Pfft, I don't know what to say here honestly. Like, I don't feel it's any fault on Josh's part, he's doing an excellent job disassociating. Tulpamancy is a difficult sport I swear. Why couldn't I be like Meti or something with really strong possession abilities early on? Ugh, I'm jealous.

 

Anywho, so now for the blogging. (Do I need to take away your breathing privileges?) Aaaaaanywho, so Josh introduced me to this fantasy world of his he's been developing in his mind for over a goddamn decade. I'm really wondering how I never noticed it. Apparently he kinda just forgot to actually do anything there while he was making me. Naturally with over a decade of joyous imagination he has a fuckton of content here I only wish I could begin to fully describe to you all. So like, he's had this idea for a story that he's been mulling over in his mind for this world. So now, we're writing it together. It will probably never be published so don't expect anything. :P

 

I love my host <3

 

I was reading some visualization guide, because why not, and they brought up the idea of guiding your tulpa through an environment and suddenly I brought her into this world of mine. Her reaction was something along the lines of "Holy shit where are we" and then she began delving through this part of my mind.

The System:

 

It's too big.

ha, that's what she said.

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Why couldn't I be like Meti or something with really strong possession abilities early on? Ugh, I'm jealous.

 

Hah! Suck it nerd!

 

. . .

 

Doc is informing me that I should give tips, because that's what nice people do. Uhm, I don't have any technique, I just kinda brute force it. Get all practice in whenever you can, don't stop till you drop. I think it might be made easier by my host's lethargy, so there's not much of a constant grip he has on it, so for your host I'd advise relaxing, whenever you're not using an arm or something, just let go of it and let Annabell practice with it until she either gets tired or you have to use that limb again.

 

And honestly, I'm jealous of most tulpas' communication skills, just getting a simple concept of to this lug can be like pulling teeth.

Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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