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I'm bad at making titles and everything else.
Yeah, I don't know how to make an introduction to a PR so I'm just going straight into this with information about how I found out about tulpas, my tulpas, and how everything is going, updated whenever something decent actually happens. I had a tumblr blog for this, but it quickly turned to crap because I didn't have much to go on for a while and just reblogged random stuff.

I actually found this to be kind of weird, because I only found out about tulpae in mid-January of 2013 by a very small chance. I had a friend I met through YouTube who sent me a Skype message asking if I wanted to be in a call with him and a friend, and his friend JUST SO HAPPENED to find a forum thread about tulpas nearly 30 seconds after I joined.

Obviously, as soon as we heard about this concept, we pushed the dude off as some crazy guy with DID and we could never remember the name "Tulpa" so we would just say "Chalupa" or "tulip", but mostly "chalupa" and it turned into this stupid inside joke of basically just making fun of tulpas in general.

I did pretty much nothing productive with my time (and I still really don't), so I figured I may as well do whatever it was and if it turned out to be fake, oh well.

My first tulpa, Kara, was started on February 4th of 2013. She goes through forms quite a lot, generally between a pony, a wolf, or a fox.

My second tulpa, Bithore, was created on March 17th of 2013. I didn't intend to make more than one tulpa, and if I ever did, ESPECIALLY not within such a small timeframe (and also the same with the following tulpas). He went through three name changes and two form changes back to a dragon as he was originally.

My third *official* tulpa, Vinyl, was created on April 14th of 2013 by Bithore after his first form change. Vinyl went through so many form and name changes that I can't even begin to count them all. If you ever see us on the IRC, that's why she gets called so many different names other than Vinyl.

We consider Luna our fourth tulpa, although she was accidental and made in late March, but she had just left for nearly 4 months until she finally came back I believe?

My fifth tulpa, Kayleen, was created on August 7th, 2013 by Luna. She went through multiple form and name changes until she finally settled down as a tiger. For whatever reason, she decided to be a blue tiger. I have never seen a blue tiger in my entire life, but okay.

My sixth tulpa, Neon, was created by Vinyl on October 4th of 2013. He went through about three name/form changes so far I believe until he finally went back to how Vinyl originally made him.

We have very little progress on imposition (I have no idea what I'm doing, all I know is I tried imposing smell and then I messed up and it always smells like something is on fire because I'm stupid). On possession, Kara, Bithore, and Vinyl are the strongest (Vinyl being the strongest of the three). The amount of possession seems fairly sporadic from each day, but hopefully it will all become more stable as time goes on. I am very hesitant on doing possession with the rest as I have yet to fully trust them.

I've been struggling with a lot of doubt ever since I began, and lately, it's died down quite a bit. I hope it either stays that way or continues to decline.

That's all for now. Feel free to ask any of us any questions you may have at any time and I'll answer them between posts.
01-27-2014, 11:46 AM
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Tomorrow is Kara's birthday. We're making plans to continue with possession with Kara and Vinyl at the least.

Today was the first day I've been able to get Luna speak a lot. Usually she's just quiet or just speaks in one or two word sentences and not much else.

I loathe the day when we come to switching due to the amount of accidents I've had with it and how painful they were.
02-03-2014, 08:35 PM
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Today was Kara's birthday. She was in a really good mood all day. I thought today was going to be COMPLETELY good until a lot of fighting went on with my parents and it got really fucked up and then I went and forced to calm down. Usually, when I'm under a lot of anxiety or stress, I talk with Bithore more than usual because he's really good at calming me down. We're about to have a night time forcing session and just have one last little celebration for Kara's birthday since I didn't get to do much due to school and all this fighting shit.
02-05-2014, 04:28 AM
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Happy belated birthday Kara!

And then... Insanity...
Guys. My Progress ;-;
02-05-2014, 01:05 PM
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(02-05-2014, 01:05 PM)BeanieBrigade Wrote: Happy belated birthday Kara!

[Thanks! ^^ I greatly appreciate it! It was a great day! :D]
02-05-2014, 11:48 PM
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#best title ever
02-06-2014, 12:45 AM
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(02-06-2014, 12:45 AM)Jabrae Wrote: #best title ever

I know, right?
02-06-2014, 01:27 AM
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I don't really have much to write here because I don't want to spill bullshit about how bad the past 3 days have been, but for Kara's birthday:

Overall, she was really happy and seemed to have a good day. We did some forcing and then I think I hit my head on something and just like forgot what happened that day... that or my medication with it's "short-term memory loss" crap is getting to me really badly. I'll be in a call with someone and I'll say something and then forget it in a few seconds and then everyone laughs at me. 'MERICA, FUCK YEAH (these meds are banned in other countries).
02-08-2014, 01:36 AM
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I've been sick pretty much 24/7 for about two weeks now and haven't really wanted to do anything. Kayleen changed her form and name back to the second name/form she deviated to long ago.

I've been so drowsy that staying focused during forcing or anything else is hard as hell.

We're just having fun, messing around and trying to learn Japanese... though in some ways it's hard to teach yourself to some limit... just figured I should get a refresher and maybe improve.
02-13-2014, 01:32 AM
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Tia and Neon have been put in stasis. I felt guilty on the half of ignoring them way too much, but I feel like I "bit off more than I could chew" in a sort of selfish manner. I obviously talked with them about it beforehand on multiple occasions, but I always convinced myself I'd make it work. It never did. So for now, I'm with Kara, Bithore, Vinyl, and Luna.

I plan to try devoting more time to forcing now that my school situation is more fixed up (I go for 3 hours a day, from 7-11 in the morning). I'll probably have a schedule set up by next week. We'll be working on possession and imposition together, and I'll be working on dissociation more for switching at a later date. I had almost accomplished a full dive into wonderland once last year, but it turned to disaster and pretty much just me bleeding in my bed.
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