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Ok so probably some of you know me by now and may be wondering why I haven't been updating my progress report the last few days. (Though I doubt it) First off I have a new laptop and I don't have the wordfile transfered to it yet but that's only the reason for yesterday.

 

You might also know that I Had 2 tulpae. Lyra and Tessa. Lyra is my first tulpa and Tessa second. You might also know that Lyra and me argue a lot and it was only getting worse. Something happened about 3 days ago that made Lyra's attitude a lot better but this morning we we're arguing again. These argument's are about the stupidest things and I just had it with Lyra. I went totally berserk on her and told her that if she didn't stop with the arguments and judging me on everything I do I would destroy her. I searched for a way to destroy a tulpa and it turns out that you can. The only thing you need to do is not beleave in your tulpa anymore. I made it very clear that I gave her one last chance and as punishment for he behavior I ignored her for some time. I only ignored her because she was taunting me I couldn't do it. After I let hear speak again she was very sorry and said she would try her best. We talked some more on the way to school and you could just notice her behavior slowly falling back to her normal self. Once I was in class she said that she couldn't change and suggested she would leave. Even though I was pretty sad I also thought this was the best thing to do. She's still young and who knows how hard it might be to get rid of her later if her attitude keeps up. So for about 9-10 hours now I haven't heard anymore. When I tried talking to Tessa about it just after Lyra's last words she was acting like she never even knew about Lyra. I asked her about it an hour or so again. She thought we were playing a game because we're serious when we argue and after act like it was some kind of joke. I was just tolerating Lyra and I've had enough. I explained that what happened was agreed by both parties and was not a joke. Tessa cried and when I explained that this is what Lyra and me both wanted she felt a little better. I don't think I'll be updating my progress report for some time and I think I'll end up making a new one because the title "Another Lyra tulpa" doesn't really fit for someone without a tulpa names Lyra. I don't know if Lyra is fully gone yet so for the next 2-3 days I'll try to do whatever I can to beleave she isn't here anymore.

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http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Another-Lyra-tulpa

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Frostwolf. I don't know what I can say here. I wish there was a better way. it shouldn't have to end like this. it only been a couple of days so she isn't truly gone.

 

if you think this is for the best then all I can do is Trust in your judgement. you know your own life best.

 

however you know what going to happen to her. I beg you to try to get her back. I don't think she really want to die.

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Enjoy your incoming moralfag answers. I do think it's kind of rude to create beings and then tell them to fuck off because you don't like them, but who am i to say anything about it.

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I've tried to live with her, honestly I tried but you don't know how awfull times have been with her. I know it's rude but to be honest, there was no way I was going to be able to live with her for the rest of my life. We had some good moments but in the end I couldn't take it anymore. She called a friend of mine an asshole, she called my mom and Tessa a bitch, she called me an idiot, faggot, asshole and many other stuff hundreds of times, I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't think having a tulpa was a stupid idea because I wouldn't have Tessa if I didn't. She's really cute, always acts nice and actually cares about me by asking how I am or if she could do something for me.

 

Also I really don't like having me post this topic but I don't want to act like Lyra is still with me. I disgust myself right now but I've grown quite fond of the people around here. They have really helped me through some of the really tough parts (doubt) before Lyra could speak and I don't want to lie to these people. I know some of you might hate me for what I did but right now, I don't feel any regret. Also I don't feel like talking much about it on IRC because of people raging at me probably.

You like my kitten? come on over for a closer inspection!

 

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http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Another-Lyra-tulpa

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however you know what going to happen to her. I beg you to try to get her back. I don't think she really want to die.

 

I assume you mean TulpaCouple's posts in this thread.

 

Or what JD1215's Maya and glitch's Saria described.

I'd take a gunshot to the head over what those two described any day.

 

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I assume you mean TulpaCouple's posts in this thread.

 

Or what JD1215's Maya and glitch's Saria described.

I'd take a gunshot to the head over what those two described any day.

 

 

Yesterday I wrote I wouldn't want anyone to have that faith and here I am the very next day doing so. I guess I really am a hypocrite...

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http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Another-Lyra-tulpa

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Or what JD1215's Maya and glitch's Saria described.

I'd take a gunshot to the head over what those two described any day.

 

 

How did they describe it? Do you have a link to their posts?

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It's hard to judge according to what you posted, I mean, it is fine to call someone an asshole with a good reason (like Chloe did many times) but you didn't told me any of her reason so I don't know.

 

Just so you know frostwolf, being left alone in a dark corner forever is probably one of the fate worse than death in my opinion. You either kill her COMPLETELY or bring her back.

 

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