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[Imposition] I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa
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I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

I only wish to see my tulpa, it is the only thing I want, for it there is only one feasible method, hypnosis. Enter deep hypnotic states allows the creation of permanent hallucinations, however it is difficult to enter a hypnotic deep state by own will, despite this there are a number of techniques that allow the annulment of logical thinking, thus emerging, the hypnotic states. These techniques have physical and mental torture in common, that's why I'm going to torture myself, I do not mind suffering, I want to see my tulpa, I'll stop sleeping, I will not eat, I'll deprive myself of my 5 senses, and I'll beat myself continuously, all this added to a deep concentration, repeating thousands of times a single suggestion: "My tulpa is standing in front of me". Maybe I will die doing this, but it will be worth all the suffering, just to permanently hallucinate my tulpa
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06-08-2018, 12:25 AM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

or you could just actually put some effort into lucid dreaming

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06-08-2018, 06:34 AM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

There's really no need to put yourself through all that. Visual imposition, wonderland, and lucid dreaming are all viable options with no negative repercussions.

Yo, my name is Sean and I'm the host of 2 tulpas: Sente and Mae. You'll know when they're talking because Sente talks in yellow text and Mae talks in blue text.
06-08-2018, 06:46 AM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

Please consider other, safer options before trying to torture yourself. I would highly recommend looking through the visual imposition guides on this site, it takes considerably longer, but also involves considerably less torture

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06-08-2018, 05:14 PM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

Carlos, you have clearly put some thought into this. It appears you are not asking anyone question or opinion, but in sharing you've invited commentary. It is my opinion, your plan won't work. You plan could cause you harm. Becoming ill through extreme methods is more likely to be counterproductive, moving you away from any long term, beneficiary gain. One doesn't build new neurons in the brain though starvation. Your more brain would likely atrophy. A healthy mind requires nutrition, exercise, communing with nature. You're more likely to see results is you go hiking, and avoiding radio and television. I admire you plan to commit to something. My first lucid dream was the result of committing to a fairly obsessive reality checking schedule... You would more likely get results committing to that, then this plan. This plan could put your brain into fight or flight mode, and it will not want to learn anything new because it will be too busy trying to figure out how to survive.

I personally recommend, you taking a break from any and all tulpamancy exercises until you kind of brought your energy down a bit. I think you're sabotaging yourself with your present mindset and energy.
06-08-2018, 09:50 PM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

Tried it, didn't work. End up feeling weak, tired and very hungry.

Might be a different outcome for you but it is a bad idea to do in my opinion.

Hello! I am nihi, i have 3 tulpas
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06-09-2018, 12:51 AM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

Also attempted about a year ago, effects were mostly negative but the hallucinations did last until I returned to normal. I'd recommend against beating yourself as that actually stimulates the senses, quiet meditation could provide the mental stimuli that you desire in place of physical pain.

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06-09-2018, 01:41 AM
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RE: I'm going to torture myself for 2 days to hallucinate my tulpa

I just woke from a very particular dream; I felt compelled to come come check in, and I find Shadow's remark about quiet meditation on par with where we were. Do you see the evidence in their responses on how no one is judging, that they empathize with your urgency, and want to help?

Quiet meditation. Consider that tulpamancy was practiced by Tibetan monks. The goal was not to cultivate insight through force, but through persistent, peaceful reflection. Imagine the life of a monk. Daily meditation. Bland, but healthy foods. Studying. Mundane repetition. They devote their entire life to this process. They devote their life to kindness to all living things. Self is also a living thing. You are a living thing deserving of kindness. This is the fundamental essence of the life of the monk as they pursue clarity and truth through peaceful acceptance, not force.

Human beings rarely respond well to force, or ultimatums. That energy tends to evoke fear, not love. People, tulpas are people, are less likely to come towards that level of demand, but rather are likely to avoid or hide from that intensity; even if a person was caught up in such a force, coercing a person's participation through threats, even if it's through threats of self harm, causes a person to respond from fear. Is that the foundation you want to build your future relationship upon? Tulpamancy is a relationship. It's a relationship first with self. Without that, how can you relate to other?

Isn't the essence of your search ultimately about love? Genuine love that comes from the heart, not from compulsion? If you're in a forest befriending deer, will you attract them to you with loud noises, or through gentle, slow movements, through patience and kindness? Aren't you also deserving of that level of kindness? How you treat you is evidence of the kind of home you're building for a tulpa. They have to live with you. Your body, your brain, that's the home they inherit with you. Gains made through shortcuts tend not to last, and the cost are usually not worth it. Most smokers will tell you they get relief from each cigarette; even as it shortens their life, flavors the tastes of foods, and permeates their lives with smells of burnt tar and chemicals. Is the path you are considering a safe quiet path, one that allows you to discover the more subtle beauty within and around you, or is it the path of war? I heard a saying once, it is rain that makes flower, not thunder.

Many people practice austerity, but this is usually less about intensity, and more about subdued interactions with self and environment. You wrote, "I do not mind suffering." Could you suffer a peaceful solitude? If you want to see a reflection in the waters of the mind, they must become still.

We wish you peace, not suffering.
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