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In which Jason attempts to create a Danganronpa tulpa
#1
Alright, first post in the thread. There will likely be a few posts a day at first as I get into this, then it'll probably revert to a once-a-day type of thread once I've gotten the hang of all this.

I'll introduce myself quickly. I'm a guy who likes video games (specifically Pokemon, Okami, and Danganronpa), music, drawing (though I'm awful at it), biology, theology, conspiracy theories, and cryptids. I'm an aspiring author and I'm saving up for a guitar so I can start making music. I'm also the host of a traumagenic DID system, but they barely ever front, so it'll likely only come up rarely, if at all.

Now that that's out of the way, I'll introduce who I hope my tulpa will be. I'm basing him off of a character from the third main series Danganronpa game (not counting spin-offs), New Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony. Specifically Kaito Momota, the SHSL Astronaut and self proclaimed luminary of the stars. If you already know who Kaito Momota is, you can skip the next part. NOTE: Until he has developed enough sentience to decide his own gender, I will be referring to Kaito using he/him pronouns.

Kaito Momota is one of the 16 students featured in NDRV3, and is among the participants of the killing game. He is confident, showy, a bit of a dumbass, but overall cares for his loved ones. He is obsessed with space, and has dreamed of going there since he was a child. He likes to inspire his friends and give them some motivation to try their hardest, even if that motivation can be a little... tough. 

His appearance and what I plan for the tulpa's form to be.

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The creation started after seeing a tulpa server on Disboard and abruptly remembering how I always wanted to make a tulpa, ever since I first discovered them. So, after doing some more research into tulpamancy to make sure I wasn't going in blinder than a bat, I decided on a Kaito tulpa, though I of course would be sure to let him know that he could take any form and personality that he wants. It still took a few days for me to begin, likely due to still lingering fears that I would do something wrong, but I eventually decided to just go for it, and that brings us to now.

Now, onto the report.

11/03/2019
13:41
Practiced visualization and mindvoice today. Wonderland started as a black void, so I turned it into a small green room with a tiled floor and a purple couch, which Kaito immediately sat on. Slight success with sentience (Kaito would occasionally say or do things I didn't expect whatsoever.) Kaito pointed out that the couch smelled funky (his own words), not sure exactly why. While talking to him, I experienced a slight pressure in my right temple. I was (and still am) concerned it was placebo, but I decided to just put my faith in the fact that it was my tulpa. Asked him if I could touch his hair to practice tactile sensations, he seemed uncomfortable so I dropped the topic. Briefly considered if I should move Kaito to my normal headspace, but ultimately decided that having a separate wonderland for my tulpas was probably a better idea. Kaito wouldn't stop touching the couch, though at some point I think it turned into me puppeting, so I tried focusing on his mindvoice instead. Less success there, he could barely hold a conversation, but we managed. I asked him how he felt, and he said he was confused but good (once again, his own words), though it might have been me parroting. Decided to take a brief break, but Kaito kept talking. It was mostly muffled speech that I couldn't make out, but I still got excited. Visualization flickering on and off.

EDIT: Forgot to add, but when I first asked Kaito the time, he was way off. Second time, he was only two minutes off. It may not mean much, but it was interesting to me.
Current tulpas:

Kaito Momota - Types like this!

Also worth mentioning:

Raeth: Not sure what he is. Types like this.
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#2
Cool and welcome! If i may ask for you to include your system description in an update at some point. I'm always interested in other systems and their systemmates. Also you mentioned others who are part of your DID, how do they manifest, do they front, and if so, how does the memory work. I'm also just learning about Alters, are they something like that?

Please feel free to join us in our games, we'd love to get to know you and whoever else wants to play with us!
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(03-11-2019, 02:08 PM)Angry Bear Wrote: Cool and welcome! If i may ask for you to include your system description in an update at some point. I'm always interested in other systems and their systemmates. Also you mentioned others who are part of your DID, how do they manifest, do they front, and if so, how does the memory work. I'm also just learning about Alters, are they something like that?

Please feel free to join us in our games, we'd love to get to know you and whoever else wants to play with us!

Ah, thank you! We'd be happy to include a description of our system in a future update! We're primarily traumagenic, but there's a few soulbonds and of course our tulpa Kaito! Due to suffering from DID and not OSDD (thus meaning I get amnesia between switches), and not having the best system communication, I don't know much about my alters aside from basic stuff like their names, if they're a fictive or not, and if they are a fictive, what character they're an introject of.

I actually started getting a headache in the middle of typing this, I think Kaito or someone else is interested.
14:51

Tried talking to Kaito while going on an exercise bike, but ended up getting too distracted. It didn't help that my cat kept meowing. Tried to visualize him on the couch in front of me, visualization flickered on and off. When my cat meowed, he turned to look at her. I asked him if we would ever do lewd things, and he commented that I was only 16. He then tried to tell me his own age, only to realize that he didn't have one yet. We both settled on 17. I felt a weird sensation, and asked if it was him. He said he thinks so, but it might have been me parroting. I asked him what he liked doing, and he said he likes going on walks, which I didn't expect. When asked to explain, he said that he just liked the air and stuff (his own words). Visualization flickering on and off again.
Current tulpas:

Kaito Momota - Types like this!

Also worth mentioning:

Raeth: Not sure what he is. Types like this.
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#4
Plural Nest on discord has a lot of systems with alters, some of them will write a note for their systemmates to share memories. If you're into discord, that's been a friendly server to us.
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#5
Most of the techniques used for tulpas can also be used with alters. The main distinction is origin, not nature. Picking up tulpamancy has revealed many pre-existing systems, as hidden alters learned to communicate and started taking a greater interest in the front.

-Ember
Ember - Soulbonder, Female, 39 years old, from Georgia, USA . . . . [Our Progress Report] . . . . [How We Switch]
Vesper Dowrin - Insourced Soulbond from London, UK, Not a Tulpa, Female, born 9 Sep 1964, bonded ~12 May 2017
Iris Ravenlock - Insourced Soulbond from the Unseelie Court, Not a Tulpa, Female, born 6 Jun 1982, bonded ~5 Dec 2015

'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.' - The Velveteen Rabbit
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#6
Alters are naturally drawn to the front in my experience
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#7
18:31

Took a break to listen to music. Could see Kaito in my mind's eye dancing to some of the songs, particularly the pony ones. I asked him if he liked MLP:FIM, and he said he had no idea what that even was (he hasn't accessed my memories yet, apparently). Ate a coconut popsicle and when I asked Kaito what he thought of it, he said that it wasn't very good (I thought it was delicious. Potential proof of differing opinions?). While talking to Kaito, he made numerous strange poses on the couch, most notably sitting upside down with his head, arms, and shoulders on the couch, and his feet up in the air. He took this pose up the most for some reason, usually while kicking his legs. I tried to have a conversation with my mom, but the cat and Kaito kept distracting me. Kaito was silent while I ate dinner, but picked up with conversation again when I went to hide away in my room. I asked him if we should create another tulpa, and we both agreed on creating another Danganronpa tulpa once he was stable enough. We debated on who to pick for a while. I bounced between Kokichi and Ryoma, while he was adamant that we should pick Shuichi. (More proof of differing opinions!) At one point I closed my eyes and asked Kaito to picture himself resting his head against my leg. When he did so, I felt an odd tingling sensation and a slight pressure. Visualization slightly more stable, though still flickering on and off.
Current tulpas:

Kaito Momota - Types like this!

Also worth mentioning:

Raeth: Not sure what he is. Types like this.
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#8
I would sit on a particularity comphy couch that way. I miss that couch.
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#9
(03-11-2019, 05:33 PM)Angry Bear Wrote: Alters are naturally drawn to the front in my experience

It depends. There have to be at least two personalities that front before a system will be diagnosed. But alters can go dormant for years, especially if they believe they died. Some alters never front and their existence is only known through headspace. Some are only drawn out by their specific emotional or situational triggers. While switching is natural to DID/OSDD systems, controlling it takes as much practice as in tulpamantic systems.

Being drawn to the front isn't just an alter thing either -- Vesper sometimes was before we learned control. And now there's no telling which of the three of us might wake up fronting.

(03-11-2019, 06:35 PM)strawberryjason Wrote: we both agreed on creating another Danganronpa tulpa once he was stable enough.

Please take your time learning what it's like to live together long-term in close quarters first. If you're in this for life, waiting six months or a year isn't unreasonable.

-Ember
Ember - Soulbonder, Female, 39 years old, from Georgia, USA . . . . [Our Progress Report] . . . . [How We Switch]
Vesper Dowrin - Insourced Soulbond from London, UK, Not a Tulpa, Female, born 9 Sep 1964, bonded ~12 May 2017
Iris Ravenlock - Insourced Soulbond from the Unseelie Court, Not a Tulpa, Female, born 6 Jun 1982, bonded ~5 Dec 2015

'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.' - The Velveteen Rabbit
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#10
Three + host still continues to be a struggle for us sometimes, it's a time and attention thing.
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