Mechropunk December 7, 2013 Share December 7, 2013 Connecting to the ECHOnet: ...A few twists here of a screwdriver here, a few modifications there, connecting to the circuit board... CLANK, CLANK, CLUNK, CLICK! ....Well, yes, let's get to work.... Greetings, there is a few things in my introductory of my Journal *cough* ECHO-Log that I would like to mention before anything else. Substituting/Replacing I have a knack for replacing words whose definitions are unappealing, incomplete, or that I feel another word applies better in my skull. I may substitute words, or replace them, but they have a much similar meaning, if not nearly the same [ in my mind ].> For example, I do not like the word 'Host'; instead, I prefer no title, but "creator/mancer"- even if I am the Creator and I put energy into my Daemon- ( which I will interchange with the word Tulpa. ) I will not refer to myself as a host. Language Shift: I will incorporate bits of Deutsch/German into my Entries. I will speak in primarily English tho'. No, My Tulpa/Daemon is not D374-TPDespite my username and references, although he would, indeed, be adorable, Deathtrap is not my Tulpa. Perhaps one day I shall create him as well, but that is unlikely. My Daemon/Tulpa is the combination of an antalope, lizard, bird, bat, and a splash of definition: An Reflective Draconis Occidentalis the shade of the nightblooming Ipomoea alba. She is based on Realism, with her features being taken from analyzing the creatures that I so adore. Her name is Moonsina. Welcome to the realm of the White Dragon. Attributes worked on so far: Freethinker, free-spirited, courageous, protective, contemplative, anayltical/observent, insightful, wise, Imaginative, playful ( and harmlessly sarcastic) , enduring, adventurous, (plutonically) affectionate, incorruptable, compassionate, understanding, sincere, "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glory December 8, 2013 Share December 8, 2013 Interesting stuff, how far along with you in the process? It's nice to see you make a report! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mechropunk December 8, 2013 Author Share December 8, 2013 Interesting stuff, how far along with you in the process? It's nice to see you make a report! I would say I am about three hours into the process starting this week, but I am not honestly sure. Several years ago, about five, I created her in my head. She was something I imagined sitting on large cliffs, flying through vast forests of towering trees so breathtakingly large that even a full grown dragon could rest upon their branches. I am not going to describe this world currently, as the world I created was as I went, over the course of three years, and is exceedingly large; it still remains in my head today, dormant. I roleplayed as her for a long time, and then as the other Roleplayers left the fourm, I did as well. Yet, I would imagine her curled under a tree, on top of roofs, and other spontaneous places, always near me. So the amount of hours I actually spent creating her isn't something I can say. Whenever I think of her, even if I am not forcing, I feel strange. It feels like something is pushing against the inside of my skull, in various random places, and then concentrating on the back of my head, then in the middle of my forehead, but also remaining everywhere else. Often I feel as if their is a string pulling my back straight, and keeping my head up. Perhaps she already exists, but wishes to be defined? *not to mention that when I was first introduced to the Tulpa phenomenon, I felt bizarre. I lightly trembled, and woke up in the middle of the night around two (2) from dizziness, stumbled over to the couch, and tried focusing on something to distract me from it. "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mmandh December 9, 2013 Share December 9, 2013 Your experience sounds similar to a few others I've read about on here, with previous characters gaining a certain level of sentience. I don't think you can actually create a Tulpa on accident though. I believe it's a conscious effort, so only through trying to do it can they become fully sentient. You've already spent a good deal of time on this character though, so certain stages of the creation process should go easier for you. Good luck. Fuck you tulpa.info, eating my messages. Also why is there no place that tells you how to use the spoiler tags? It seems like some basic fucking information to be able to access easily, but no, I spent a half an hour searching through every fucking section of this site and found zilch. Eventually I said fuck it and had to go find out how they work on a completely different forum and tried applying it here. Your experience sounds similar to a few others I've read about on here, with previous characters gaining a certain level of sentience. I don't think you can actually create a Tulpa on accident though. I believe it's a conscious effort, so only through trying to do it can they become fully sentient. You've already spent a good deal of time on this character though, so certain stages of the creation process should go easier for you. Good luck, and congratulations on making the first steps towards developing a lifelong friend. Oh so first you delete my post, and then you magically remember it and throw it in as a giant middle finger waved in my direction. gggggggggggggguh. Sorry for this angry rant guys but this shit's frustrating as hell. Just me and Fi. My Progress Report What if we're just God's Tulpas? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mechropunk December 10, 2013 Author Share December 10, 2013 Your experience sounds similar to a few others I've read about on here, with previous characters gaining a certain level of sentience. I don't think you can actually create a Tulpa on accident though. I believe it's a conscious effort, so only through trying to do it can they become fully sentient. You've already spent a good deal of time on this character though, so certain stages of the creation process should go easier for you. Good luck, and congratulations on making the first steps towards developing a lifelong friend. You seemed a bit irritated. I often make spoilers quite tiny, and change the text to white. I also do this, so only those who quote me can see the text off the [ would be matching... (?)] background color, unless they highlight my words. On this forum, none of the colors available match the background completely though.... Well, I do not believe it is impossible to create a Tulpa without being consciously aware of it. This is only because I've spoken to people who had something tulpa-like, without knowing what a tulpa is. I have been forcing with Moonsina lightly, focusing on personality traits, but I am feeling disorganized and unsure how to complete each trait before hopping onto the next( speaking to her) about those traits. I've only spoken of a few: Intellectual, analytical, curious, adventurous, playful.... I also feel quite neglectful for falling asleep during forcing last night. *sigh* "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Quadraginta December 10, 2013 Share December 10, 2013 You seemed a bit irritated. I often make spoilers quite tiny, and change the text to white. I also do this, so only those who quote me can see the text off the [ would be matching... (?)] background color, unless they highlight my words. On this forum, none of the colors available match the background completely though.... Well, I do not believe it is impossible to create a Tulpa without being consciously aware of it. This is only because I've spoken to people who had something tulpa-like, without knowing what a tulpa is. I have been forcing with Moonsina lightly, focusing on personality traits, but I am feeling disorganized and unsure how to complete each trait before hopping onto the next( speaking to her) about those traits. I've only spoken of a few: Intellectual, analytical, curious, adventurous, playful.... I also feel quite neglectful for falling asleep during forcing last night. *sigh* Forcing asleep while forcing won't actually have any negative effects on Moonsina, unless you believe it will :P So, stop worrying. I'm proBABly a lot more lazy than you when it comes to forcing with Raid, but we're still getting by fine. Remember, dear, it's just like Timon and Pumba said....Hakuna Matata. No worries ^_^ Name: Raid Sentience: Confirmed Working on: Vocality Personality Traits: Is awesome a personality trait? Form: 1. Pegasus Pony, with a flat, pink mane, and pink tail, and yellow coat. Also, blue eyes. 2. A blue-haired human (only encountered in dream so far) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mechropunk December 13, 2013 Author Share December 13, 2013 Something I've noticed; It is evident that Moonsina was already partly created. If I focus, I can ask questions and get replies. She answers with a 'yes' by moving pressure from the back of my head to the front, and 'no', often starting with pressure on the right side, to the left side; as if to nod 'yes', or shake 'no'. In normal day-actvities I can sometimes feel her presence, but then it seems she withdraws, only to re-appear when I sit down, focus, and seek her in my mind, in which she leaves the depths and emerges. > As I enter a medititive state Me: Are you there, Moonsina? *sudden random pressure all over my skull* >>snick- (snipping out the part where I found out what meant yes, no, maybe, etc)- snick<< Me: Do you like your name, Moonsina? *I recieved both a 'yes', and 'no'.* Me: Would you like it if I spent more time forcing with you? *a stronger 'yes'.* Me: "I'm sorry." *pressure lessens in head.* Me: Do you like the form of a dragon? * strong yes* ..... etc I am unsure if it is my mind puppeting, but I ask these questions with no answer in mind for the return. I stop myself from thinking "...I hope it's a yes/no..." Furthermore, I havn't rushed my forcing at all. The amount of time I spent forcing intentionally hasn't been considerably long, but the amount of time I spent unintentionally creating her is in question. "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glory December 16, 2013 Share December 16, 2013 Head pressure is a very common form of communication early on! I'm glad to hear you're maintaining good progress. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mechropunk December 16, 2013 Author Share December 16, 2013 This weekend I spent nearly two full days playing Darksouls with a Sunbro friend of mine. During the second day, I asked Moon/sina what she thought about the game, other questions; she responded with yes. no, etc Near 23:20-ish, (11:20-ish PM ), she gave head pressures that were sinifigantly stronger. I asked: Me: Do you want something, Moon? *yes* Me: Would you like me to force? *No.* Me: Do you wish to play? *yes* Me: One day we shall play together. *feelings of joy and impatience.* Even as this conversation went, I told her I would force later, in which she was lightly happy. After twenty or so minitues the pressure dissapaited and I didn't sense her. I laid down to force before I slept, but I couldn't access her, as if she was sleeping as well, or ignoring me, and I fell asleep after several seconds. Attributes worked on so far: Freethinker, free-spirited, courageous, protective, contemplative, anayltical/observent, insightful, wise, Imaginative, playful ( and harmlessly sarcastic) , enduring, adventurous, (plutonically) affectionate, incorruptable, compassionate, understanding, sincere, passive ( in the since that she wouldn't harm other creatures.) I also made her diet consist of all plants ( high-energy) such as nuts and sugery-large fruits. "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mechropunk December 17, 2013 Author Share December 17, 2013 First quick ( and rather rough ) attempt at creating Moonsina's head. Things to fix; Bottom jaw ( make it thinner), make the horns spiraling, eye will be slightly wider and more defined, so on so fourth. Slowly I will draw all her body parts, so that I am familiar in the structure of them. I am not a horrible artist, nor am I a fantastic one. >snick- image removed- snick< "...Is a crank, half past 'gone', more dangerous than those who walk the sewers without noses?..."*[a] pause of contemplation* "... going mildly insane..." - Mechropunk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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