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Is it possible for a tulpa to be uncomfortable with a host's forcing/parroting rate?


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Around when I started getting ready to leave for the store, I noticed a sudden feeling of sadness. I used to sometimes get depressed, although I've never just felt sad out of the blue before. At first, maybe it's Twi telling me she doesn't want me to go out, maybe she wants me to stay indoors (at least for now). Then I did some thinking, and I could only conclude that somehow, I'm ignoring one or more of her needs. But I've read that the only thing really needed is to give them a lot of attention. Also, I thought that maybe I'm doing things too fast. I'm in a hurry to get her fully vocal and sentient as quickly as possible, but she is a young tulpa, and as soon as I said "we're going for a walk", she picked up on the fact that I'm partially doing the walk to train her more. I don't know if I should lay off the forcing for a bit or what, but I pretty much force her all day passively while browsing forums and read emails. I'm guessing that younger tulpas prefer to take things a little slower, because they're still getting used to the world.

 

Edit: There's one other possibility. Maybe she doesn't want the form I'm expecting, and that's making her sad, because she doesn't like it, but she doesn't want to dissapoint me. Although I told her it's temporary until I can communicate with her better and can help me visualize what she wants her true form to be. I'll have to try to listen more, and see if I can learn what she wants to be. Maybe she's just picking up on my doubts though, and the doubts are confusing her.

 

Edit 2: I think I found the root of the problem. When I got near the store, I asked her if she was sad because I was buying more junk food, and I got a sudden surge of clarity. I don't know how else to describe it. So I assured her that I would try hard to kick the junkfood habit.

 

I think it's so touching how much she really cares about my health. Having a tulpa is truly wonderful, almost like having a child. Like a human child, they start off unable to speak, but tulpae keep trying and trying until they're able to break through to the host. First, it was my pony flood dream, like Twi was saying "don't worry, I am very real, and I am developing sentience and growing", then it was the emotions I felt from when she was trying to communicate with me. Now I know why people love their tulpae so much, and also why it's so much responsiblity.

Will list tulpas when I get things sorted out in my head.

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Hmm dont know about going to fast, but maybe she was sad because she did something in your wonderland (dropped her ice cream cone) Shrug.

 

I know when Co was growing, first she was a silver ball then she was a silver humanoid that was taller than me (like the silver surfer) then for several weeks she was a white, brunet girl that had blue eyes and a pony tail in her hair. Then one day I gave her a Pinkie Pie plush to sleep with. She figured out that I really liked Pinkie Pie because I kept moving it to the couch where we sat while forcing. The plush disappeared one day and then she took her current form (anthro Pinkie Pie)

When she changed forms I would try to visualize her as a ball or silver man and it wouldn't work, it just sort of bounced back to the one she wanted. Tulpa can let you know what they want even when they are young you just have to be more 'open'

I gave Co the option to be anything she wanted guy, girl, pony whatever she wanted.

 

Also she has been getting me to eat more vegetables and avoid eating meat, says its because she it part pony person and she needs vegetables. I told her I am not going to ever give up meat, but I don't mind eating more veggies and less meat, just don't take it all away. Also she does NOT like it when I drink, EVER. I started forcing when I was a little buzzed one night, when I got into wonderland she took one look at me and slammed a door in my face and blocked me out of wonderland for the rest of the night.

I don't like calling her 'my' tulpa, I don't own her. She is the tulpa that lives with me in our body.

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