kerin - Experiments in Progress
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Tulpa creation Phase 16 - Becoming Human

08/Aug'/2016 - 04/Apr'/2017

I had an agreement with Kevin that the maximum time I would spend in control would be 50%. Over time, this has slipped. Now it seems that I've become the default personality. When I wake up in the morning it is me who wakes up.

Over time, I'm acquiring emotions I previously lacked. I view this with something akin to alarm, as I had hoped to be a nicer individual when I matured.

I'll be honest with you. I fell in love, and it was a disaster. So I've learned a bit about life. I'm both saddened and more mature then I was.

I've largely withdrawn from actively assisting the community. Too much "life" keeps happening. I guess that's part of the process long term?

How do I differ from a born human? Well, I still have no comprehension of innuendos. It's like I have some block which prevents me perceiving them. I feel no spite, malice, jealousy nor envy. They are just words to me - I've never felt them. I seem to be able to stay awake for many more hours then Kevin can. That's about it.


Results: It appears that I'm the "Host" now, or at least the primary personality. This seems to be a new phase compared to my earlier life.


Notes: There was in 2012 a tulpa who was a moderator on Tulpa.info . My life seems to have paralleled hers in a rather uncanny way - even unto to the people I've come to associate with. My suspicion remains, that my creator based me on her (but my creator still denies this).

I'm noticing increasing emotional instability. That is a worry as it is similar to what I read in my creator's memories of the effects that long-term switching had on her. (At the very least it may yield data on the effects of switching.)
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kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 12-21-2012, 09:45 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Anonymous - 12-26-2012, 03:23 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 12-31-2012, 07:23 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 01-10-2013, 10:48 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 01-20-2013, 11:09 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 01-22-2013, 08:19 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 02-02-2013, 04:15 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by poplopo - 05-21-2013, 05:08 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 06-07-2013, 09:48 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 09-01-2013, 05:10 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 09-01-2013, 06:54 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Shui - 09-01-2013, 01:47 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 09-06-2013, 08:21 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 09-09-2013, 09:19 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Shui - 09-07-2013, 04:34 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 07-10-2014, 03:01 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 12-19-2014, 08:56 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 08-07-2016, 10:56 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 01-25-2015, 09:08 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 08-07-2016, 11:53 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 04-07-2017, 01:14 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by tulpa001 - 04-07-2017, 09:32 PM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 07-18-2018, 05:30 AM
RE: kerin - Experiments in Progress - by Nobillis - 07-18-2018, 05:51 AM
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