KM & RD

[KruegerMeister]

9/6/15: I wondered if I got into tulpamancy out of an unconscious desire for True Companions. Dash said that unconscious stuff was unfalsifiable. Keystroke seemed kinda quiet, but he answered to "Dusk Shine". When I went to a Weird Al-themed party, my tulpas headbanged to some of the songs. Shou and Fluttershy slow-danced together. There was a singing contest wherein the audience clapped to the beat; I deliberately clapped out of sync, and asked Fluttershy to psychoanalyze that.

Fluttershy: Nonconformity.

Fluttershy sang along to a few Weird Al songs. After the party, I was pumped up enough to send my mom a text asking if she wanted to see Equestria Girls 3; it was really late, so I had Rainbow Dash give me a hypnotic command to send that text first thing in the morning.
Later, Dash put me in a trance again. I thanked her for...something, but I didn't/don't know how to put it into words. I spent the night as her pet.

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9/7/15: I woke up at around 5:00AM, still thinking of RD as "mistress". We figured this happened because it was technically still "the night" (it was dark out). I was uncomfortable with the fact falling asleep hadn't naturally taken me out of the trance, so Dash took me out of it manually. I sometimes have a hard time sleeping on my back (either that, or I'm used to sleeping hugging a body pillow); Dash tried to get me to sleep on my back, but I wasn't comfortable with it. Later, I had some trouble texting my mom a link to the Equestria Girls: Friendship Games trailer. Dash said that I was feeling uncomfortable because I was worried about my mom feeling uncomfortable when she'd walk into a theater full of grown men who like ponies. I read a post ripping on pony tulpas, and we made a game out of pointing out instances where my tulpas prove the post wrong. I'm not sure, but I think it made a few of them uncomfortable.

RD: *yay* thing makin' me self-conscious -.-

Dusk reminded me of our informal agreement/plan for him to resume that form during college. Sarah gave me a head-pressure and recommended telling my mom about my tulpas. I thought about the "silver fire" stuff (all of it, not just the majority of uses); Dash said the time I'd half-threatened her (which I think was almost exactly a year ago) wasn't abusive because it was a one-time thing. Shou said that the repeated uses of silver fire on the 'Meras wasn't either, since those were motivated by fear of things getting out of control.
I worked on imposing my tulpas. I started with Shou, caught myself thinking of him as "father", and just decided to roll with that. I started the DIY project as a way to get the spark back in Dash and I's relationship; I wondered if it was possible I'd meet some other girl and fall in love with her before reaching my goal.

RD: Nah. It's like Keystroke/Dusk said, Pet, we're perfect for each other.

I worked on the DIY project, while being Dash's pet.