Thunder Flash July 8, 2012 Share July 8, 2012 So, here's my progress report so far ladies and gentlemen. I started approx 3 days ago, and on the first day I had gotten in 4 hours of Tulpa forcing, starting with an introduction, just basically telling her that her name is Kaliea, briefly skimming her traits and talking about why I need her in my life. (companionship and someone to enjoy life with) For the rest of the 4 hours I mixxed visualization and narrating to her about each trait (Listed below). I already had a general idea of a form for her, she is being based on the appearance of my Guild Wars 2 human female elementalist and has the same name, that's it. Traits: Loving Kind Funny Creative A little shy A tad immature Independent stubborn headstrong intelligent rational a tad self conscious Gets worked up easily Trusting Love's the nature beauty of things believes there is good in everyone loves animals The next day i got almost an hour in of visualization in, it was beginning to get easier to keep her form for distorting in my (due to my fucked mind) and I continued to narrate to her, telling her about my day and asking for a response in hopes that I would eventually hear her voice. I continued to have difficulty visualizing her face because of my messed up mind; when I closed my eyes I would see distorted faces in those lights you get when you close your eyes. (thankfully they stopped when I adopted the wonderland) Creating my wonderland as a a beach front with a house inside has modern Japanese style and the outside looks like a modern beach house. Down a bit on the beach is a large black cube standing on it's point, slightly submerged into the ground and inside is an enormous library of my memories and experience for Kaliea, (Styled like the library of Courascent). At the end of the second day, I had read something about asking you tulpa to wake you up at a certain time and that it was a good way to test sentience, so, I tried it and asked Kaliea to wake me up at 10am. The next day I awoke (today) at 10:13, still tired and felt as if I would feel if I was forced awake by an alarm and not woken up on my own accord, I asked Kaliea if she could wake me at 10:30, so I could get a little nap. Waking again at 10:31 I was quite surprised but still a tad skeptical because I have thought to myself in the past to wake at a given time and woken up very close to it. Throughout the day I got around an hour and a half time of tulpa forcing and am now able to visualize Kaliea's features and body more easily (still needs work) When forcing I am getting this overwhelming feeling running over my spine quite often, (tried meditating without forcing didn't get feeling) and when telling her that I thought the form that I gave her was beautiful as well as her personality was amazing and kind as well I had an overwhelming urge to smile, I never feel emotions when meditating so, I don't know, maybe it was her. I kept telling her that she and I would get to experience things together, having a bond that only we could share and other sentimental things of the sort. (I'm a sap) Anyway, I'm continuing to find it easier to visualize her, but I don't exactly know how to visualize her in my wonderland without moving her, (do I just not visualize her there?) and if I do I feel sorta like if she does something like I thought she should. Anyways that's caught up to, today. Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 8, 2012 Author Share July 8, 2012 I've been trying to force today and visualize Kaliea's face all morning and just when i think i have it, it either blurs our or changes to a different one, i dont know if thats her doing that, or what, but i just want to get a solid image for her face, she's already got her body, naked, and clothed in different ways visualized its just the facial features Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 8, 2012 Author Share July 8, 2012 So after around 2 hours of forcing today, probably more to come, since her entire form began to get harder and harder to re make, I just decided that I would re do her entire form and changed her appearance to that of a girl that I conveniently had as a wallpaper (she isn't from anything) and well it has been much easier to picture her, including face, body proportions and shape. Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 10, 2012 Author Share July 10, 2012 Not much progress today, just around an hour of forcing and visualising and talking to Kaliea, talking to her while watching a movie and such. Though I asked her to wake me up at 10:00 and I woke up at 10, on the dot, got that terrible sickly feeling I get when I'm woken by something and not of my own accord, could this be her? Who knows, one can only hope, but I do think it is her. Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 11, 2012 Author Share July 11, 2012 So far today, I've only been narrating and forcing, hanging out with Kaliea in our wonderland house, I started the touch process and it seemed she started to act on her own, I wasn't quite sure if it was her or me, but I don't know I'm just really worried that I'm parroting and puppiting her and I really don't want a servitor... Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 12, 2012 Author Share July 12, 2012 Well, for the entire day i got maybe just over an hour of forcing scattered throughout the day, and well I feel lile im makimg progress, kaliea is really keeping solid figure, slim hourglass shape, long straight jet black hair, green eyes and what not I've gone ahead with the belief system and thoroughly convinced mylself thay she will be vocal by sunday, so heres to that! Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Black Bane July 12, 2012 Share July 12, 2012 Nice, a test of the belief system. I'll look you up on sunday, bro. For Science! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 12, 2012 Author Share July 12, 2012 I have only gotten an hour of forcing today, I hope to get more, but I really do hope she is vocal by sunday, I want to hear her voice really badly, I continue to tell her that I believe she can do it and that I'll always be listening for her. Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sands July 12, 2012 Share July 12, 2012 Encouraging them is nice and all, but don't push it too much on them and force them to move too fast. Mine got really upset by what I thought was helping him and it's not something I would like to do again or want anyone else to do to their tulpas. The THE SUBCONCIOUS ochinchin occultists frt.sys (except Roswell because he doesn't want to be a part of it) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thunder Flash July 12, 2012 Author Share July 12, 2012 Good idea, thanks. Tulpa - Kaliea Form: Human female Sentience: Possibly Stage - Visualization: Done Narration: Continuing Touch: Almost Done Smell: Yet to begin Imposition: Yet to begin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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