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Mazzy's Generic Progress Report


Mazzy

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Welcome to my progress report everyone. Here you will hear no falsities or exaggerations. I am open to comments, questions, and chatting at all times!

 

[align=center]Current Tulpa Status

Name: Nala

Form: Wolf

Days old: 4

Working on: Visualization

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Day 1 – 10/14/12

 

I began my very first tulpaforcing session working mostly on personality. For roughly 30-45 minutes (with a break in between), I contemplated on the specific characteristics I’d want my tulpa to possess. I began with 6 characteristics that eventually branched out into more: Courageous, Wise, Compassionate, Loyal, Subtly Affectionate, and Patient (with herself and me). I admit that I wasn’t quite sure what I was doing… I decided to lay in bed in the dark as I found it the most comfortable. I started off defining what each trait meant to me, and why I thought it was important. I visualized the words as orbs in my head, adding each to the collective as I thought of more.

 

I’ll take some time to say that I absolutely suck at visualizing. It’s definitely something I need to improve on. Any image that goes into my head cannot be sustained, and I find that I am easily distracted after long periods. During the entire process, I refrained from telling my tulpa what I wanted her to be; instead, I assured her that they were mere guidelines that she could change at any time for any reason. At this point, I felt a bit silly for talking to myself, but for the sake of science I continued!

 

I guess that was a good first session? Nothing happened besides basic personality work. I’m not expecting anything to happen right away, so on we go.

 

Later in the day, around 3:30 p.m., I took a new approach while I worked on personality. I decided that I would work on basic form and personality at the same time, so I could just stop saying random words in my head. This way, I would be giving the meaning of these traits to the basic form of my tulpa, which I'm basing off this picture right here, as wolves are my favorite type of animal. I spent another 45 minutes feeding the personality traits into the basic form of my tulpa, which was HARD! I quickly found out that I needed to work on visualizing my tulpa, as I wasn’t able to view more than one part of her for more than a second or so.

 

As the session went on, I shifted from working on personality to just working on the basic form so I could actually visualize something. By the end of it, I could sustain her full body for a few seconds with difficulty. That’s all I’ve accomplished today. Later, while watching my football game, I decided to pretend my tulpa was on the vacant couch, and I tried my best to explain the rules of football to her in my head. I learned that I would make a terrible teacher.

 

Oh, and I’ve also given her the name Nala.

 

End Report: Basic personality work, basic form, NEED TO WORK ON VISUALIZATION.

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Day 2 - 10/15/12

 

Today played out much like yesterday. I had a quick 30 minute session where all I did was visualize Nala as best I could. Her image is still extremely fuzzy, though if I focus on one part of her for a few seconds, I can visualize that one part moderately well. Still, seeing stuff through my "mind's eye" is not my forte, and I need to find a way to practice.

 

Through a few other progress reports, I've heard people have had success after reading The Law and The Promise by Neville Goddard. Thanks to Koomer, I found the free .PDF, so I'll be giving that a read over the next few days. I will start later tonight with the first chapter. I read another progress report (forgot name, sorry) where the person was having extreme difficulty visualizing just like me, and after reading he said that he was visualizing like a pro. We'll see.

 

I had planned to go longer than 30 minutes, but a phone call demanded my attention for the better portion of an hour, and afterwards a few friends invited me out to dinner.

 

At around 8:00 p.m., I managed to tulpaforce for another hour or so. I started off a bit differently, because I knew that I was very prone to losing my train of thought. To Nala I said "If my mind starts to wonder, bite me." I wasn't able to sense any sort of response, but about halfway through the session, just as I was losing track of time, the back muscle of my upper left leg had this weird twitch/spasm that instantly made me refocus on Nala. Could have just been random, but just to be careful I attributed it to Nala, whom I eagerly showed my gratefulness.

 

The remaining of the session passed quickly and without incident. My personality training is now less about repeating random traits, and more about displaying emotion.

 

If anyone has any suggestions on how to proceed, I welcome all comments and questions!

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Day 3 - 10/16/12

 

Unfortunately there wasn't a tulpaforcing session today. This week is my midterms and thus all today was spent studying, writing papers, and making powerpoint presentations. I actually just go back to my room and am exhausted (it's almost 1 in the morning on the 17th).

 

Although I wasn't able to tulpaforce, I tried to keep Nala in my mind throughout the day, reminding her that I haven't forgotten about her and that I'm always right by her side.

 

Still no responses, though it's only day 3. Onwards we go.

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Day 4 - 10/17/12

 

I was able to tulpaforce around an hour and a half today. I began at around 9 p.m. and ended around 10:30. Unfortunately I live in a dorm with 2 other people, so it's very rare that I get my room to myself, but that time came around yesterday and I took advantage of it.

 

I was able to recall Nala's image more quickly now, though certain details still elude me, and I can only see them on her if I specifically think of them. Did other people have this problem?

 

I was tulpaforcing while listening to RainyMood as I find it relaxing. About 15 minutes in, as I was just talking to Nala still trying to fully visualize her, the black void around me changed to a log cabin. I'm almost certain this wasn't my doing; I had planned to keep it as a black void until we could establish contact and decide what we wanted together.

 

I went over to the cabin window and watched the rain fall outside. I looked to my left and Nala was next to me looking out the window, though she still was motionless.

 

Nearing the end of the session, Nala could not move her limbs though she still... "moved" for lack of a better word. If she wanted to be in a certain place, she was like teleported there instantly. I took about 30 minutes puppeting her showing her how to move her limbs in a walk, all the time telling her I was doing so and only doing it so she could understand fluid movement better.

 

The session ended soon thereafter because I nearly fell asleep.

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