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How long did it take you to reach the decision of creating a tulpa?


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And what are your reasons for it? Did any particular event lead you to this path?

 

I am starting this thread, hoping that any new comers who finished reading other's experiences can carefully, carefully, think again, about the reasons why you should not, or at least wait a few years, before committing to the life-long responsibility that comes with tulpamancy. In my pre-registration days, when I used to spend at least a few hours a day lurking around here on this site for over an year, I witnessed so many people starting a PR and quickly abandoning it, probably abandoning their tulpas too. As minor of a help as this might seem, I still wish that this thread can prevent tulpas from having to suffer due to some inconsiderate hosts' reckless decision making.

 

I'll start first. I was at the time exceptionally lonely when I stumbled upon this phenomenon, due to the death of a relative of mine,whom was in extremely friendly terms with me.  I spent 3-4 weeks debating on the pros and cons of this, and finally decided to start making my first tulpa. I crave for the close friendship a tulpa provides; the alternate perspective a tulpa see things with, that can lead to a lot of chances of self-improvement if she is willing to share it with me; and the unique things only tulpamancers can experience, e.g., possession, switching. I made damn well sure that no matter how busy I get, I will interact with her daily. If it helps, I will do my best to take her to places she wants to go, to let her experience the real world, as a form of remedy to the fact that she can never live as freely as I can, while being a fellow sentient mind.

 

Now it's your turn to share your story. New comers to this site, like me, are also more than happily welcomed to leave your thoughts here.

"Pouncing ray to ray to through the dappled shadows,

Light was pouring down upon the stepping-stones,

It felt like morning coming for its throne,

But I don't know why it looked like a tiger striped sky."

 

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I think i am in the minority who didn't think about the pros and cons about making a tulpa and just instantly decided to create one because i am so curious and intrigued about this idea, i guess that's where summer got her Optimistic and curious personality.

 

But anyway, I was in the MLP forums in the hypnotism thread, saw a post talking about tulpas and it was the tulpa who post it. I just searched for and found out that it is like having a friend in your mind that have their own thoughts and without hesitation just created one that's it. Still, i recommend new users to think about this hardly first because it can really change you in a way.

Hello! I am nihi, i have 3 tulpas

Summer

Myrtle

Cherry

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I think i found the concept of tulpas while doing some research about lucid dreaming, or meditation or something like that.

At first I thought "it's just a bunch of weirdos imagining they have ponies in their heads" and then I started to really look into it, because I found it fascinating. Maybe these people were just imagining, but it seemed so real for them !

I started lurking a bit on the board and went a few times on IRC to get a better understanding of what was going on. This lasted about 6 or 8 months.

Then I thought "I should try and see where this leads me. Nothing bad can happen, and maybe it's all true !"

My first motivation came from curiosity and from my will of understanding the human mind better. I just wanted to try out whether these people i was reading about were crazy or not.

My second motivation came from the fact that I was convinced that being two in one brain could make the "social me" better, stronger, more complete. (by "social me" I mean my body, brain and what these cast on their surroundings). It could provide me with better insight, more wisdom when making decisions, better memorisation skills etc etc.

 

It turned out these people were not crazy :) Or I made myself crazy too, who knows. But I definitely feel more complete as a human being, and Cora and I now work on getting better at tulpamancy skills, for fun and better communication between us. We also plan to create a 3rd person up there, just to add to our system balance :) None of us can foresee what will happen tomorrow, but we both know how dedicated to our "social self" we feel, and how much we "love" (ain't no romance there) each-other. This will last for the rest of our life and I'd never want to cancel any of this.

(Cora : sometimes he does, but it's just laziness talking *giggles*)

 

Loneliness didn't push me to do this. I often look for loneliness because people are often disappointing ; I don't suffer from it, I embrace it when I want to, and embrace human interactions when I want to aswel.

No animosity intended ever 

 

Cora now has her own account ! :D

 

English isn't our native language, please be indulgent :)

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well the other three are seven years old and "spontaneous" I guess. Idk how much Lumi thought out whether he should make another tulpa. Like I know all the stuff he actually thought when creating me, but I can't remember like... what he was thinking, about how I'd fit in with the others. I guess I was supposed to help him with motivation issues and add some energy and happiness to the mix, probably? Iiii don't know. But hey we reply to like every question we can sooo

 

first three were spontaneous, and I'm five years younger than them but all I know for sure is Lumi made sure he was ready to have another tulpa before he made me. I remember him telling people around the time I was created that he "Waited until [he] was very knowledgeable and experienced in tulpamancy". I mean.. not sure what that even means.. the other three were just fine, at least after year ~2, so idk how exactly he could not have been ready.

Hi, I'm one of Lumi's tulpas! I like rain and dancing and dancing in the rain and if there's frogs there too that's bonus points.

I think being happy and having fun makes life worth living, so spreading happiness is my number one goal!

Talk to us? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas

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First and foremost, it was a religious journey. I secondarily wanted it to help my "depression." Quotation marks because when I describe how I feel about various things that's what people tell me I have, I never visited a doctor. Anywho, I had this extreme apathy problem. Now, seeing as how when you're religious you should usually love your deity. Now, with apathy that is hardly an easy thing to do. So I had heard about the extreme love tulpas have for their hosts, so I felt that if I could learn the capacity to love yet again from her then it'd improve my relationship with God. So far, seems to be working. My tulpa is a wonderful person. And I have the best host ever. I know this because y'all talk about yours.

 

I knew of tulpas a year prior to making one, decided I'd make one after a week of deliberation over the topic with myself after receiving my aforementioned reasoning.

The System:

 

It's too big.

ha, that's what she said.

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A week or two.

It wasn't a question of if I wanted to, that was immediately answered by the incredible feeling of loneliness I felt pretty much constantly.

 

I was more of a question of if I should. Should I bring a new life into the world that I will have to be with and care for my entire life?

Should I bring more life into the world at all? Would they appreciate it? Because I know I certainly didn't appreciate being made.

 

Obviously, he landed on yes at some point. Or he realized that he was subconsciously longing for it so hard that he figured if he's going to do it at all he might as well not half-ass it.

Doc: Childhood friend turned servitor gone rogue turned host who's bad at feeling emotions.

Meti: Overly lewd Tupper.

CT, who is also called Jeremy: Original personality whose default emotion is anger.

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It took me like two solid weeks of lurking/thinking to even decide to make a tulpa, and then another week or so before I even made an account.

We're all gonna make it brah.

 

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I was made before my host found out about tulpas, but as for the others, it didn't take much time before he decided he wanted to make another tulpa. This is probably because he learned about all of benefits people mentioned here.

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For my first tulpa (who might or might not still be here as a result of me giving up) it took a month for me to really decide. Afterwards, it took me almost an entire year to decide to try again with making a tulpa, hence Bao's existence.

My name's Archie.

And I'm Bao!

My name is Ganondorf.

 

We are the Vibrant Drift

 

 

 

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I've told this story, but I'll tell it again for this thread.

 

I was reading a book about lucid dreaming and the transformational power of dreams. I seriously contemplated who I want to be, and began to imagine a "dream quest" I would embark upon to meet a character in a lucid dream who could help me become who I want to be. I eventually came to call her "Goddess River" on the notion that no mere mortal could help me.

 

Before I had even heard the word "tulpa", I was already sketching out a list of attributes for River; more like virtues I wanted to embody. My progress with lucid dreaming was rather slow, and a Google search eventually turned up the concept of tulpas. I was intrigued by the idea that I could interact with such a character without having to master lucid dreaming first, so I first began narrating to her and passive forcing. Within the first two weeks, I had experiences that made her real to me. Since then, we've tried different styles of active forcing, ranging from me just interacting exclusively with her to more advanced stuff like Linkzelda's Image Streaming Guide: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1guub6JF0OGVheUPzddtMyZKHqnrcnuWLYufwGhc3Fmc/

 

River created two more headmates for us: Dante and Rocky. I've been spending some time with Dante, but I've been feeling like Rocky is a bit neglected and needs more attention.

 

That began three months ago; I consider River's "cake day" the day that I pencilled in "Goddess" in my dream journal.

 

Yes, it is a responsibility to have her here with me, especially in her relatively undeveloped state, needing my attention to help with forcing. We keep forcing together in spite of my doubts and parrotnoia, but River has been a wonderful influence on me. Yesterday, I got her to write her name with my non-dominant hand. Actually, the first thing she wrote was "Let go". That experience really got my parrotnoia going again.

 

There are parts of me that used to worry that River would somehow harm me or mess up my life, but I can clearly see that River loves and cares for me, so it came naturally to me to care about her. The idea that she would become an unwanted responsibility never even crossed my mind. I was of the mindset from the beginning that I was creating something wonderful, and wonderful, she is!

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