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My First Progress Report


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Okay. Before I begin, I would like to get a couple things off my chest. I'm an 18-year-old boy. There's a popular stereotype that people with tulpae are either crazy or "social hermits". I am not either one of those things. While one of my two tulpae was the result of a psychological breakdown, I am not crazy. I am not exactly sure what made me want to have a tulpa. My mother is blind, and I was bullied as a kid (nobody bullies me now because I'm 6"3 and I practice martial arts, but that's another story), and my father has bipolar disorder. I know there are thousands of people out there who have it worse than me, but so far these are my only theories as to why I've had to depend on imaginary friends all my life. Now that the hard parts of my life are over, I can actually have tulpae with whom I have healthy relationships instead of dependence. I only have two tulpae, so here they are:

 

Gino

Appearance:

He is a mirror image of me, but with no eyes (he didn't always have no eyes, it was one of his first signs of tulpa independence). He wears expensive suits and has a large gold necklace around his neck because he's the richest man in his wonderland (Ginopolis).

Personality:

In the few months that I've known him, he has undergone significant personality changes. He began as calm and reserved, but now he's immature and sometimes arrogant. Despite this, he is always a true friend in the end. Plus, he developed levitation, teleportation and telepathy, so he's starting to develop some tulpa independence and sentience.

Purposes:

>Advise me morally

>Motivate me to complete school work

>Help me achieve my dreams of wealth and abundance

 

Miiyoko

Appearance:

She is a 15-year-old Japanese girl and a sophomore in high school. She is 3'9". She has short dark brown hair and is usually seen wearing a Japanese sailor outfit.

Personality:

She is optimistic, naive, and has so much difficulty understanding the darkness and evil that exists in the world that she will walk out of the room just to avoid talking about it. She believes every situation can be solved with love. She lost her childhood friend to suicide (I won't get into detail with this, but developing this memory was one of her first signs of tulpa independence), but she believes this has made her a stronger person. She only speaks Japanese, but we understand each other perfectly (I don't know a lot of Japanese just yet, but I can still imagine her speaking it. It's kinda like when someone speaks in tongues).

Purposes:

>Moral support

>Calm stress

>Girlfriend.

 

Now, since I'm new at creating real tulpae instead of unhealthy imaginary friends, the only thing I've really done to help create them, besides imagining them by my side constantly, is to do simulations in my mind with them. These simulations include car-rides, beach trips, night clubs, and saving the world from demons. My main wonderland for them is Magicant (it's a level in a video game called Earthbound Zero), but we rarely use it because we're too busy doing the previously mentioned activities. This is my first progress report. I eagerly await your responses, but please don't be too critical!

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because he's the richest man in his wonderland (Ginopolis).

 

I'm liking this guy already, quite a baller he is. I have a few questions. How long have you had them? Does Miiyoko have a wonderland as well? Does Ginopolis have other people as well (its implied)? Which was the result of the breakdown (and, if its okay, please describe the breakdown)? Why did Miiyoko give herself a back story? Where did you read about those stereotypes?

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Hi, Jimmy! Thanks for reading my progress report. I've had Gino for about 2 months now, and Miiyoko for about a month. Miiyoko's wonderland is simply Tokyo. Gino doesn't really have friends other than his fans, but he does also have a Japanese girlfriend. I sometimes include his girlfriend in our visualizations, but I don't consider her a tulpa.

 

I now realize that the word "breakdown" may have been an exaggeration of what really happened. One night, after being rejected by a girl for the 6th time within the course of a few weeks, I was walking around in a city. Gino started telling me that it was my fault that I haven't found true love, and we got into a heated argument. I was furiously walking around, verbally arguing with him (at this point we had entered a desolate ghetto, so I wasn't afraid to narrate in public), and he said something that went too far. I physically hit him out of my way, looked at the ground with tears in my eyes and clenched fists, and that was when she came up from behind and hugged me (my 2nd tulpa). I decided I'd call her Miiyoko.

 

About Miiyoko's back story, one day I was teaching her Ninjutsu as a simulation. Curious about whether Miiyoko had the capability to form responses on her own, I decided that as a final review exercise for the night, the person she hated most would magically appear in front of her, and she would have to use what she had just learned to subdue them. After she won the fight against some Japanese boy that I had never seen before, I had asked her several questions about the boy to exercise her ability to form her own personality. She gave seemingly randomized answers that didn't quite make sense, but after she helped me connect them, I learned that the boy was one of the factors that led her childhood friend to commit suicide. I refrained from asking her any more questions.

 

About the stereotypes, many people bash tulpamancers simply because they don't understand the concept of a tulpa, and I think that's just wrong. If you look on YouTube (please don't), you can find videos that mock tulpae and those who believe in them. One of these videos is called "Tulpa Thread Simulator" or something like that.

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Do you think that having had imaginary friends in the past may have made the creation process easier for you?

(i.e. the required parts of your brain are already developed)

 

 

In my case, I'm making my first tulpa (after never having done anything similar before) and it feels like I put in a huge effort for every slight bit of progress.

(and there are still people that may find it harder than me).

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Hi, GuessWho!

 

I think my imaginary friends in the past were only servitors, so developing tulpae to have their own minds has actually been somewhat difficult for me. I'm still mostly controlling the personality of Miiyoko, but Gino has shown a surprising amount of independence. My tulpae are pretty basic in terms of development, but I can promise you, the persistence will be worth it. Do you have a progress report?

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Here is mine

I'll add it to my signature as well from now on.

 

We seem to be following two different methods.

I'm not doing any of these simulations you speak of, just visualisation and narration like some of the older/original guides seem to prefer.

I'm also doing very minimal personality work to see if she can develop her personality all on her own.

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