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My Tulpa Creation Experience


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I'm not sure if it is that I don't think things through or that i simply decide things quickly, but the very day i discovered Tulpas i decided to make one

 

Monday, January 23, 2017

 

It started when i was cleaning out my inbox on my gmail account when i found an email that came from a lucid dreaming website that i had learned so much from. I followed the link and found that the site has been reworked to be more user friendly. I looked through the new stuff that was added and soon came across something titled "Tulpas (scary)". I was curious what it was about so i clicked on it and came to the page. Then it briefly talked about the phenomenon of Tulpas. I was fascinated by  this idea and wanted to try it out, though i was still skeptical at this point. The site made Tulpas out to be scary and unnatural, and explained how to supposedly get rid of one. Despite this giving me a bit of a bias a still wanted too know more.

(I haven't had a lucid dream in half a year because i messed up my sleep schedule and got lazy)

 

This is when i found the site Tulpa.info. I read all of the stuff on the front page and the links continuing it and a learned so much more and I begun to understand what Tulpas truly are. I came to the forum to understand everything i could about Tulpas and what they can do and how to create them. I came to a guide that recommended to read FAQ man and Irish's guides first. I ended up reading the beginning of all of them because i already had a general idea on how to do it and i hadn't even started yet.

 

It was at this point i decided to create a Tulpa.

 

I read the guides a bit closer this time and decided to follow a mix of the guides from F and I. I started thinking on what i wanted my tulpa to initially look like. I decided to make it a female human around my age, she has silver hair with a single long purple highlight, her hair is long and far past shoulder length, she has deep purple eyes, a few freckles across her nose, she is shorter than me but not short.

 

As i read about bringing the tulpa into a wonderland i get right on it. I chose a carnival to be the first part with stalls and a ferris wheel. I read when i bring her there i need to make it realistic, like she doesn't know what is going on and I need to help her. So i do that and puppet her to a food stall to get some food and then go to a shooting gallery game where we discover that she is a crackshot. She wins a purple phone toy thing, so i go buy her a purple backpack and a white smartphone since she didn't own anything herself. We then go on  the ferris wheel that she was super excited about and it was there we could see much of wonderland including a tree on an island surrounded by water with only a single bridge to cross it. As we watched the moon move across the sky I promised her that i wouldn't give up and that we could stay together forever. I say goodbye. I end up quickly returning because even though i was still puppeting her at this point i was worried about her since she was alone in the world and my wonderland was incomplete. It was cold now sand she only had a t-shirt and jeans on. So i gave her a coat. I leave again. 

 

Now i was just trying to imagine her in the same room as me but it was difficult and i was having trouble getting her face right.

 

I get annoyed at my incompetence and return to wonderland where I had her hug me as i was following a guide. I then gave her a high five cuz i can.

 

I continue reading a guide, looking at FAQ man's guide more. I see to start i need to imagine my tulpa naked to get used to and understand her body. I do this off and on for a while, although i was sheepish about it. I continue doing this until a go to sleep for the night.

 

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

 

I continue thinking about her body as I go about my day and then go back to looking through the forums in the afternoon. I decide i should meditate because others had done the same. I go into my room and count each breath i take as I lay on my back. After a few minutes of this I start thinking of her body again so i could get every detail down. I lay perfectly still as I do this, but to my surprise i feel my right hand start to move on its own! Believing that this must be from my tulpa I continue to stay still as i congratulate her and praise her and talk to her about how great this is going to be. She can now move from my right hand all the way to my right elbow. The more i talk to her the more my hand moves, i feel that she could understand me. So i ask her if she could clench my hand into a fist. I could feel her trying the best she could but i could see it wasn't possible yet. So i tell her i am going to ask her some yes or no questions. Yes-move hand upright as much as possible since she couldn't lift my hand up, No- don't move and stay still. I told her I was going too work on her form some more so i asked if it as okay if i could see her naked. My hand didn't move for a few seconds, and then it slowly moved up just a little bit. I recognize that she was uncertain about this so I asked he if she wanted me to imagine clothes. Her hand instantly shot up! I feel a bit embarrassed for thinking of her naked but i move on to add clothes form now on. I try thinking of her body to continue to get her form down but i had this song stuck in my head that i could not get rid of for the life of me! It would switch songs too! After a few frustrating moments i ask her if the song in my head was from her and the hand moved up again! I talked to her a bit more though she couldn't give any real response yet, though i find it cool that the songs she liked were from the songs i was listening to as i was forming her. I remember of a name that i was thinking would fit her, at least until she thought of her own. So I ask, Is it okay if i call you Sonya for now? My hand moved up again! I am super happy about all of this happening at this point I tell her i'm going to take over again and what for m hand to move so i get an acknowledgment that i was moving. I take my journal by my bedside that i had just gotten for  progress n creating a Tulpa. After i write everything down i ask Sonya if she could write something for me. I stay as still as possible and feel Sonya try to take over and write. Unfortunately she wasn't capable of doing this yet, though it would have been incredible if she could this so early. I ask her if she is tired, she responds with a yes, so I say goodbye to her and come to the computer to type this post on forum.

 

So far i'm loving this journey. I didn't think she would have been able to do some minor possession so fast. I think it may have too do with that i thought about making a tulpa before but i saw it as a scary thing so i quickly stopped. I feel guilty and sad now because it seems that i have abandoned her.

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Welcome to the forum. That's quite some progress! Congrats.

 

It also makes you only about the second or third tulpamancer we know who has stable possession before vocalization.

 

My only reccomendation to you is to read all the guides and do what works best for you. I know faq man's guide is considered pretty outdated. You do not need to imagine them naked and hour counts are considered mostly detrimental. I think most reccomend Kiah's guide. I used a lot of Methos guide myself for Ivy.

 

If you have any questions you can hit "us" up on the IRC as Raven or Ivy or send us a pm.

"My lover's got humour,

She's the giggle at a funeral,

Knows everybody's disapproval,

I should've worshipped her sooner."

 

Host to Samuel, RavenIvy, and Olivia.

 

CERCA TROVA

 

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Quick progress report- No Progress.

 

Sonya has been very inactive lately and i haven't the slightest clue as to why this is, and I have no way to ask her.

 

I can't get into my wonderland, but it is developed a little bit with a carnival type area and a tree on an island in a forest. I have been trying to add things to the wonderland and also make it more clear to me, but i am incompetent and can't even get to the wonderland to begin with. The guides to wonderlands are simple and somewhat nonexistent and i get why, though i am worried about my ability to make any real progress. I tried meditating and getting in to my wonderland but i ended up falling asleep, oops. Also, even when i was in my wonderland everything was unstable and i kept on going to the third person view or teleporting. I'm not going to give up, but it is hopeless if i stay this way.

 

Also i used to be able to really daydream to where i was disconnected from reality and i only knew what was happening in my head. I think that wonderlands must be like this but i am incapable of recreating this sort of thing nowadays.

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Reading Kiahdaj's guide and it talks about how some things that were thought to be bad or necessary for tulpas are wrong, including the think of them naked or no clothes switching. Heh, my bad. I knew FAQ man's guide was outdated but i followed it a bit anyway. Guess this explains why my tulpa didn't like me thinking like that. And thinking about why she has been silent today is that i have been stressing over my religion. I decided to really look into it and now i see it how it really is. The church organization has strict rules that you must follow for eternal life. This has led to me feeling shamed about some of my imperfect actions. I know that I have been blocked from truth and monitored so that if i dare step out of line i'll be visited by authorities to "guide" me. The man who started this religion was a scammer, liar, mean-spirited, and a crook. Also there was quite a bit of racism back then and has only been denounced since 2013. They never answer questions with real answers so i am always more confused coming out of a discussion.

 

I wish i had taken care of this before starting my tulpa as i fear this may harm her growth. I'm going to believe that tulpas are very much real and i'm going to finish this no matter what. I feel that if i stop i will be practically killing her and I don't want that.

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As long as you give your tulpa attention regularly they will be fine.

 

As for your religion if you have fear of authorities showing up to enforce it I very much urge you to use discretion with how you approach it.

 

Also be aware that if you belong to a strict religion if they discover you are doing this it will most likely be taken very negatively.

"My lover's got humour,

She's the giggle at a funeral,

Knows everybody's disapproval,

I should've worshipped her sooner."

 

Host to Samuel, RavenIvy, and Olivia.

 

CERCA TROVA

 

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As long as you give your tulpa attention regularly they will be fine.

 

As for your religion if you have fear of authorities showing up to enforce it I very much urge you to use discretion with how you approach it.

 

Also be aware that if you belong to a strict religion if they discover you are doing this it will most likely be taken very negatively.

 

 

I think i am giving enough attention, though everything i do about this is extremely unstable.

 

I'm not that worried about church authorities because they aren't so great. I've lied to their face and they didn't even notice, which is one of the reasons i began to question them. I know they would probably take it negatively which is why i won't tell them. It is none of their business. They are fakes, so i'm going to do what i want. It is not that what they teach is bad, it is that you have to be literally perfect to reach heaven, which doesn't seem right cuz it looks like 99.6% would go to hell according to them. If they wanted me to follow all of their stuff they shouldn't have been a religion of lies. Since deciding to leave this cult i have been feeling so much better. I can just read the bible for now, because it is an extremely painful process to leave and i'm in no rush to go find another church.

 

Anyways, i'm getting better with her form and have been changing clothes quickly. Sometimes her face isn't right and i may even forget what her face looks like for a few moments. I think I will let the tulpa choose her own voice and personality since i am curious what it may be and i am fine with giving her as much freedom as she wants.

 

I've asked her to help me become lucid, but i just had a regular dream. Although i went to bed way too late so i don't think i would have remembered this normally.

 

Also i must admit i am chronically ill. I am most definitely getting better to where i can live half of my life normal, with some school and a few friends here and there. I am very weak, so i suspect this could be why her possession is so weak because i gave her so little energy. Would me being ill hurt her in any way?

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