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Myyinisafox and his encounters with tulpae and second personalities. WOAH


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HELLO!!!!! Ok, I need to be semi-serious now I guess. umm Jon, formality? Oh right.xD

 

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(Tulpa: Elska. Humanoid. Appears about 20 years old. 5' 10'' tall, muscular with long straight white hair that faintly glows, fox ears, white bushy tail, and green eyes that change color depending on mood. Sentience: moving on her own)

 

I'm very excited about this, I think I've done more than sufficient research on tulpae to start my first alothough I have A LOT to learn. I do have a concern though but now that I've thought of it I will look it up in the forums. I wonder how my tulpa will react to my split personality. I've dealt with this... addition to myself that I now view as a friend, for about 12 years now. I've only known his presence for 2 of those years. His name is Fox. I never had many episodes of the memory lapses after switches, but I'm guessing that's because I conciously tried to keep my emotional conflicts internal and external conflicts numb. (I have changed a lot.) My tulpa, however, will be occupying almost the same space as Fox. This worries me very much although I am going ahead with this anyway.

 

Everything I say from here till the end of this paragraph will become relevant to my tulpaforcing later. I have been experimenting with controlling my own bodily energy. I view it as a seperate but integral part of my being that I can control at will. These experiments have shown me many things but I won't get into that unless I'm asked, in which case it can be included in the general discussions section. These experiments opened a way to communicate with my split personality. We can communicate and feel eachother almost like tulpae but he cannot be imposed. His image is of a black mass of energy that resembles a fox with 2 tails and a glowing green stripe that runs from his eyes to the end of his back. At the same time he revealed himself to me; a tall girl with long white hair, fox ears, one white tail, and green eyes that change to orange and red as her mood becomes less stable, started appearing in my imaginary world. Every time I would create some encounter or invention in my mind, she would be there. She is my tulpa. Her name is Elska (the icelandic word for love). This is my starting situation.

 

As of now I am working on smell. I haven't really been keeping track except on a list of personality traits I want to instill in Elska. I've done a lot with her personality but I'm torn about whenther I should be very specific about personality or I should let her personality for with only a few basic traits. Visualizing her body and features went smoothly because of the above experience. Getting her body and features and colors perfect was more complicated than I thought. I am now working on continuing personality (praying that repetition gives results) and giving her smell and feel. I'm almost comfortable with how she feels and moves so far and having a lot of trouble with smell. This is the hardest part for me. I know imposition will be a cake walk I just want to let my subconcious seperate her from my concious thought soon because my mind likes to give me annoying-ass reality checks every 5 minutes >_>. Hopefully I am doing everything right. For now I'm using a small bowl of cinnamin sugar every time I force to make smell possible for me. I'm taking about 1-4 hours every day to force and I'm doing all the research I can. I'll update this when any progress is made and I pray this works, I have too much pride in my mind to deal with a failure in this area very well...

If I told you that I want to marry you, would you steal the $50 clearly hanging out of my shirt pocket?

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I hope you don't use hour counts. And I would advise against using percentages. Your tulpa is never ever finished. Are you ever "finished" as a human? No.

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Good point, I'm probably rushing. the percentages though were just an idea of how far I am for just preparation for narration because she isn't sentient yet but I know I didn't specify. I'm actually throwing that out anyway because I started narration today. She popped into my head wearing a nurses uniform and stuck her tongue out at me playfully and then disappeared haha. That suprised me! So I'm going to start narration now that I have a clear image of her and she is starting to do things on her own. I know narration lasts a while, and I've seen threads about when your tulpa speaks you start conversing but if your tulpa says one thing to you then doesn't talk for a while after should you just continue narrating? I really didn't think that she would move on her own, I realize now that I've been putting more than I thought on my interpretation of the process instead of her individuality, I'm going to be giving her more attention and and focus less on trying to figure out how everything works.

If I told you that I want to marry you, would you steal the $50 clearly hanging out of my shirt pocket?

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Elska just developed something new. She showed me an image of her as an actual fox, I think she wants to be able to shift forms. How do I interpret this? Does that mean that I should visualize her as her and a fox or will she change into that on her own and she was just warning me that that form will also be her? For now I think I'll just talk to her about it and who knows, maybe she will answer that question herself.

If I told you that I want to marry you, would you steal the $50 clearly hanging out of my shirt pocket?

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Of course you should continue narration.

 

Id say visualize both forms.

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Still narrating. I feel bad because I only talked to her for a few minutes the past couple days. I have been so busy with college and my job search that I haven't had a time where I don't need to use my full concentration and when I do have time I'm just too tired. Hopefully after midterms this week I'll have a better schedule. Back to walkin' and talkin'.

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I hope you don't use hour counts. And I would advise against using percentages. Your tulpa is never ever finished. Are you ever "finished" as a human? No.

 

Well, if you use the "do whatever yourself" method you could be done with your mindfolk like people are done with their children... *whistles*.

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