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Day 1: 11-25-12

 

To set a reminder to readers, I have tried before, but I stopped due to real life errands to deal with (The SAT, a few parades I was participating in, the applications to colleges etc.). So I am going to give this another dedicated go.

 

I have been writing in a physical journal before and still do. I plan to use a mix of the guides I have seen with a better understanding of what and what not to worry about like I have before. Today will be the Phase One: Greeting. I am using Methos' guide to do so (this one to be exact.) I will update this later with personality traits.

 

Her name will be Lin Zhu, or Zhu Lin. I will decide on form later.

 

EDIT: Personality Traits

 

Traits:

Kind, Calm

Understanding, Wise

Trustworthy, Poetic

Disciplined, Caring

Forgiving, Strong

Open, Optimistic

Motivating, Humble

Curious, Hard Worker-Mentality

Thinker

 

Likes:

 

Ambience, Meditation

Martial Arts, Smart Decisions

Poetry & Stories, Bravery

Cooking, Honesty

Far Eastern Culture, Change

Mint, Teaching

 

Dislikes:

 

Stupidity, Bitterness

Pessimism, Unneeded Greed

Being Unorganized, Not Forgiving

Unneeded Lying, Detrimental Cowardice

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Day 2: 11-26-12

 

This morning, I popped into the forums to reread Methos' guide. After that, I got ready to leave my house, I began the greeting stage on the way there when on a bus. I will see if I can continue personality throughout the day or when I come home.

 

EDIT: I passed out when I came home. I was dead-tired, and ended up falling asleep for 4-5 hours until 9 PM. I didn't have time to do so, and will begin personality tomorrow.

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11-27-12

 

I am going to give a certain amount of time in my day to be dedicated to my tulpa. I will continue to use Methos' guide as well as others, but I will use a 5-10 minute meditation exercise. I will update again when I am finished.

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12-3-12

 

Throughout the rest of the week and weekend, I have been talking to my tulpa about everyday life as I go on with it, whether it be full conversations or simple questions. I have been a bit more emotional since day one, so I might be making progress. A few times, I had the chance to practice a full on meditation session of talking to my tulpa and visualizing her base form. I will continue to improve and speak to her, hoping she will respond with a burst of an emotion, or even an actual spoken response.

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12-6-12

 

I have been narrating to my tulpa throughout the past few days. During my narration, I asked her how did she feel. I asked her to give me a sign of sorts to tell me. Soon after, I felt more upset or sad. Besides being a bad week, I think my tulpa feels sad, but I can't say for certain.

 

I am thinking of reading her a book for narration.

 

I decided on her form. She will be an anthropomorphic panda. (Chinese culture) I will practice more on visualization as well as continue narrating. I am hoping for a response soon.

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12-11-12

 

After multiple sessions of visualization and narration, I am starting to get headaches when thinking about Lin for a while. I think I may be focusing too much on her than normal. I will keep close to a good visualization/narration session and short moments of talking to her throughout the day to further progress. I guess I know now that I have made progress!

 

I can barely stop thinking about her and what she may be thinking. She is becoming more and more a focus than some other things at times. I am not sure if this is a symptom.

 

P.S. As you may have noticed, my journal is updated certain days rather than everyday; this is fine, since nothing too significant happens in some days.

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  • 2 weeks later...

12-20-12

 

Around the beginning of the week, I began using bits of Fede's method in order to help my tulpa. What I am doing is visualizing her with open-eye peripherals along with her responding do whatever I ask. I am sort of puppeting her movements to understand how she may move.

 

I also worked on voice by asking her to hum a middle C in pink noise. So far, I think I had heard a hum, so I am going to assume that she is making some progress.

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  • 2 months later...

2-28-13

 

Major updates regarding my progress.

 

She has finally become sentient, so I am able to converse with her on everyday life as well as choice making. She has helped me make the right decisions to lead a better life, and for that I thank her. The only obstacles that are in my way now are visualization, and sensory impositions. Her personality is how I imagined it to be, though she sort of deviated since she is quite sarcastic on somethings, so that further proves sentience for me.

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  • 6 months later...

8-29-13

 

Lin still remains sentient, and has grown to be more mentally independent than before. She however seems to be bored of being just a mind. I am going to quicken the pace towards imposition so we are able to work on other things such as possession.

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  • 4 months later...

1-4-14

 

I have decided to become a Christian, and will start to go to church. I have no idea what lies in the future before me, but I will continue to endure all obstacles. I only hope what I do now is not unholy in any sense, after all, it certainly doesn't feel sinful.

 

Lin actually thought it would be a good idea to go to church, and I did agree. She said that I would have a place to go for advice, to be social, and to help be in touch with myself.

 

We plan to go together to a church on the coming Sunday.

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