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Hello, I'm posting as a gust right now because I'm not sure if I'm going to fallow through with the ordeal or not. I'll make an account if I decide to batten down and get to work.

 

I've always been a bit... unstable. I have a very hard time controlling my thoughts and am prone to minor mood swings for little to no reason. You almost might say I already have a psudo-tulpa, a tiny voice in my head that's not me, but I know it's not real and I can easily block it out.

 

It's not a malevolent thing, it can be quite helpful if it wants, but there are times where it's dark and can scare me simply from the thoughts it produces.

 

I've been to psychiatrists and even tried some hypnosis to get rid of it, but the best I managed was the ability to suppress it for a limited amount of time (it can last from a few hours to the maximum I've found of 2 months, I'm getting better at it.)

 

My fears are though, I don't want this "voice" to have a form because I know it's not a real tulpa, it's just a part of me that I can easily sway. I want a blank slate, something to grow.

 

Note: I'm not asking for advice of ridding myself of the "voice" I have that well managed (and frankly I find it fascinating from time to time). What I want to know is, will this in the long run affect any tulpa I create ether positively or negatively?

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Sounds like schizophrenia, though I guess as long as the voice doesn't tell you to kill your mother or anything like that you should be ok. Definitely doesn't seem like a tulpa, though.

"Science isn't about why, science is about why not?" -Cave Johnson

Tulpae: Luna, Elise, Naomi

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Sounds like schizophrenia, though I guess as long as the voice doesn't tell you to kill your mother or anything like that you should be ok. Definitely doesn't seem like a tulpa, though.

 

I wouldn't call it schizophrenia. I know the voice isn't real, by psychiatrist said that even if it is, it's the most minor case she's ever heard of. She told me it's more likely just me and I just don't want to believe that I can think those thoughts (none of them are really evil just unlike me and sometimes dark). I'm personally not sure and like I said, I'm getting better at managing it. I can suppress it for much longer amounts of time as I practice.

 

My question still stands how ever. Will this impact any tulpa I create? even if I suppress it, can it alter what I'm trying to do?

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It could potentially create some problems. Best to be careful if you do go through with this, and of course create a progress report thread to report what happens as you go.

"Science isn't about why, science is about why not?" -Cave Johnson

Tulpae: Luna, Elise, Naomi

My progress report

 

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We haven't had such a case here before, therefore we do not know what could or could not happen. If you want to try it - please keep a progress log on this forum, so we can learn from your experience.

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Rainbow 'Alyx' Dash

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It could potentially create some problems. Best to be careful if you do go through with this, and of course create a progress report thread to report what happens as you go.

Interesting.

We haven't had such a case here before, therefore we do not know what could or could not happen. If you want to try it - please keep a progress log on this forum, so we can learn from your experience.

I always take a scientific approach to things. I'm far too curious for my own good at times (probably why hypnosis didn't rid me of the "voice", I want to know more about it). I work very hard to keep my mental state in check and I have a vast imagination, I can create worlds in minuets and lock them down almost as fast.

 

I supposed I should just start and be done with it. I'v already created a "workshop" to get started on everything. this settles it, the next time I post, I'll have an account.

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I supposed I should just start and be done with it. I'v already created a "workshop" to get started on everything. this settles it, the next time I post, I'll have an account.

 

I'm curious about your progress log then. Good Luck!

What is a Tulpa? Blog

Rainbow 'Alyx' Dash

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Hello all, I am the guest you were so helpful with.

 

Here is a link to my progress thread. please give it a read and feel free to ask any and all questions here.

http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-1pony4all-s-Workshop-of-Reality

Name: *blank*

Form: To Be Determined *currently a male pony*

Personality: Independant, Accepting, Outgoing

Working On: Visualization/Personality

 

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