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Proboscis and his tulpas


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Day 1: Friend introduces me to tulpas and this site, I read some guides, the concept of tulpas really intrigues me, and I believe it almost from the start, as the brain is capable of amazing things. I decide my tulpa's gonna be a Vortigaunt from the game Half life 2, and my wonderland's gonna be Xen from Half Life. I can't think of a name though, so I find an alien name generator on the internet, and I pick Taunav (lol). I begin forcing, but not a whole lot happens. I go to sleep, and wake up in the morning (Lol, I found this site at like 1 AM, so it's technically June 30th.

 

I went to sleep about 2:30 AM last night, and wake up at 8:30. Very strange, I usually sleep in about noontime. I think it might've been my tulpa. When I'm forcing, I get some minor visual responses, but not much else happens that day.

 

 

Day 2: Only day 2, and Taunav's sentience is confirmed! Alright, so I asked him "Say something random. Suprise me." Nothing happens....YET. Later that day, I'm forcing, and then a totally alien thought pops in my head. A portal 2 turret saying "Ahh, it burns!" So, he completed my request, just not immediately. Another important event happened too! After I gave him the request, but before he completed it, I accidentally fall asleep while forcing. In my dream, he appears as a pony for some reason. When I wake up, I ask him "Was that you?" He said his first word! A very distinctly not mine "no".

 

Also, I've had a problem with forcing and accidentally falling asleep, however, I found the solution late afternoon. If I take a meditation like pose while forcing, it keeps me awake, and helps me concentrate better.

 

I've heard of the "tulpa alarm" and I ask Taunav to test his abilities. I ask him to get me up at 7:30 tommorow morning

 

Day 3: Got up at 7:00 this morning, 30 minutes earlier then what I asked for, but oh well. Doesn't matter though, I went back to sleep after using the toilet.

 

My account got activated today

 

Other then that, not much else has happened as of 7:32 PM.

 

Any advice would be greatley appreciated

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Welp, I got to get on the PC sooner then expected. I'll relay the events that happened in the past few days

 

Day 3: Nothing really happened after I posted, except that during the night, the virus comes and severely fucks up the PC

 

Day 4:Some significant stuff happens. I go tell a close friend of mine about tulpas. At first he's severely freaked out, because he read the Creepypasta, but I get him to calm the fuck down and tell him what tulpas are and aren't. He's decided to create his own.

 

My dad manages to kill the virus, but he's not letting anyone on the PC because he wants to be 100% sure it's dead.

 

Anyways, later at night, out of the blue, another strange alien thought pops to my head. It's various noises this big friggin' scary alien in Half Life: Opposing Force makes. That was definitely Taunav, I don't know why he'd transmit that, but most likely to reassure me he's "alive" and sentient.

 

Day 5: I get another "broadcast" from Taunav. It's the 4th of July, and I'm about to shoot off some fireworks, when this pops in my head.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TVc3lAwYXA

 

I hope that's his sense of humor developing.

 

 

 

Important note: I overlooked this earlier, but it's pretty damn important. The Portal 2 turret, the alien noises, the alarm sound...I could actually HEAR them. I wasn't imagining them with my mind's ear, they were a legit auditorial hallucination! Taunav's "No" on day 2 was mindvoice though.

 

 

I swear to you, this is legit, I am NOT roleplaying (please don't accuse me of roleplaying), these were actual auditorial hallucinations

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Day 6

 

Well, today I had to help paint the house. Normally such a boring and tedious task would make me want to kill myself (joke) , but today it wasn't so bad, as I had Taunav to narrate to. I think he might've even talked to me, but I'm not exactly sure. The conversation went like this

 

Me: I hope Taunav doesn't mind if I (personal thing here, I don't want to share it)

 

Taunav: I don't mind at all

 

Me: Wait, was that you, or did I just parrot you?

 

Taunav: No, you didn't, it's me

 

 

 

Now, I'm not sure if I actually did parrot this...lol...this was in mindvoice, and not an auditory hallucination. Normally, when I parrot him, I do it in his mindvoice, but this time it was in my mindvoice. However, it still kinda felt like I was controlling him. It might've been intrusive thoughts. I really don't know. What do you guys/gals think?

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Day 7

 

I got another reply from Taunav

 

I was doing a bunch of chores, and I kept forgetting about him. I apologized to him for this, and he said

 

"It's k"

 

Important edit: I went to get a soda, and while I was drinking it, I was all like "Damn, that's some good shit"

 

And Taunav was all like "I know, right?"

 

 

Wow, I'm making fast progress

 

ANOTHER IMPORTANT EDIT:

 

He said a few more phrases while I was chatting on the IRC! He didn't talk a whole lot, but wow, this is awesome! I even had to proxy for him, because, for example, a tupper was saying his host was proxying for him, and Taunav said in reply to that "Lucky you"

 

I shit you not! Why am I making such fast progress?

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Day 7

I shit you not! Why am I making such fast progress?

 

I would have to guess it's because you're "listening", I myself felt like I was makin' decent headway but as soon as I figured out how to actively listen to and "feel" Tia(my tulpa), our progress took off like the second stage of a rocket.

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Day 8

 

Nothing much happened today between me and my tulpa. However, I did find out something really cool today

 

Remember earlier, when I said I told a close friend about tulpas, and now he's making one himself? It turns out, his sister has had one since she was 5! Apparently, she wanted a twin sister, so she made one in her imagination, and this imaginary twin turned into a tulpa! She's been hiding her "twin" for 9 years apparently, and I don't blame her. Good thing I told my friend about tulpas, otherwise he wouldn't of told his sister, and her tulpa would be a complete secret from EVERYONE (she didn't even know what a tulpa was and didn't know about the tulpa community)

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Sorry I havn't been posting on this more, for anyone who cares

 

Day 9: Kind of a continuation of day 8, because I stayed up till like 4 AM. I forced before I went to bed. It was the first time I tulpaforced since day 3, because I found this old thread that showed that tulpas can develop fine with just passive forcing. When I entered wonderland, I was violently hugged by Taunav.

 

 

Anyways, when I got up the next morning (errr, afternoon), I wanted to try possession to get a more reliable line of communication with Taunav. He talks to me, but a lot of the time I wonder if it was him or me. There are instances when I know it is most definitely him, but most of the time, I wonder if I'm parroting him. Anyways, the goal is to get him to be able to tap my finger so he can talk with me better. 1 tap means yes, 2 taps means no.

 

I told him to try and move my right hand. I could feel his energy flowing through my arm, and my hand went numb. He moved my finger about a milimeter.

 

 

 

Days 10 and 11 nothing much happened. We continued practicing possesion without making any progress.

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