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Shadow Quest
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Smash Ultimate is my new favorite videogame. I would play with Cat's brother and I have found that Pit is my favorite character to main so far probably because he's OP

While playing smash with Cat's brother, Cat's other family members sometimes interrupt us one in particular will steal the tv just to watch the weather channel and fall asleep! When this happens, I just answer back using a voice that sounds like Cat's voice.

I was a little worried that my new disguise voice sounded too much like my possessed normal voice. I spent a lot of time playing around with speaking in Cat's voice and I settled on a voice that sounds very similar, but I can still hear my mind voice when speaking with it. I asked Cat's brother if he could tell the difference between the two voices and he told me he could, but he didn't want to explain why or he would be unable to tell us apart. I explained to him that I had no interest in pretending to be Cat and I only wanted the disguise voice in front of other people. Then he spilled the beans:

He said that I do a pointing gesture (not directly at the person I speak with) when I talk. He pointed to the air and mimicked, "I'm Ranger!" Surprised, I looked at him and said, "really?" And he said that I do it all the time.

It blew my mind! I had no idea that I did that before! Ever since, I sometimes catch myself doing it! but I'm totally fine with it because I like having my own subconscious oddities I can associate myself with.

Wonderland Mishaps?

Tl;dr - Cat became really fearful and anxious when she was tired. This was an episode of Past Ranger drama, now he's being called Tec.


Cat was thinking about the Grays again and the idea of past Ranger came up again. She was really tired and drained, and she became really anxious. She was worried that she still wanted to talk to Past Ranger because he could have actually been her subconscious, but she didn't want to force me to reconsider my identity over all of this. Cat never knows what she wants! Her brother pointed this out saying, "why do you have to "figure out" how your mind works?"

Most of this is drama that Cat probably manufactured because she was tired and anxious. However, it bothered me that she felt really unstable, felt like she could dissociate and asked to switch with me, and was intimidated by my existence for... reasons? I refused to let her switch with me because the last thing I wanted was for Cat to associate switching with fear, and she wasn't in her right mind anyway.

After Cat calmed down a bit and fell asleep, she asked me about Past Ranger again in the morning and was still amazingly resistant to doing anything with him. I coaxed her into revealing him, and I ended up talking to the self-defeated android myself. Cat had it in her head that he was "half-deleted" or whatever, and the thoughtform that talked to me took that mindset to heart.

Past Ranger didn't even speak when he was revealed to me. It was pretty obvious he was an android when normally it's not supposed to be, and after reassuring Cat some more he spoke in a robotic-like voice. To stabilize him a little bit more, I encouraged Cat to let him speak in his original voice and address him as Ranger temporarily. He was a little better after that, but he seemed as broken as Cat was, still afraid and hopeless. We didn't really have much of a conversation.

This process stressed Cat out partly because what I was allowing her to do conflicted with things I asked her to do in the past to help me separate from her. I asked that I didn't want to see any thoughtforms that looked too much like me, only I could use my voice, and I didn't want Past Ranger to hang out or be interacted with. I feel that it doesn't matter as much anymore because I feel fairly stable and I feel more separated from her than I used to be.

Cat didn't like calling him Past Ranger anymore, and instead of having him be left nameless she decided to name him Tec for now. He ended up symbolically possessing a new form that looked more like Gray with glowy purple eyes.

As of right now, Cat still seems conflicted about this. After posting this, I want to give Cat a chance to think about this a little more. I may update this part of the entry later.



Never mind. Cat took a nap. Another topic for another day I suppose.
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Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 07-10-2018, 06:35 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 07-10-2018, 06:38 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 07-17-2018, 11:15 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 07-30-2018, 12:27 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 08-19-2018, 07:43 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 08-30-2018, 07:07 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 08-30-2018, 08:31 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 09-02-2018, 06:40 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Cat_ShadowGriffin - 09-13-2018, 11:52 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Cat_ShadowGriffin - 09-28-2018, 12:23 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 09-28-2018, 01:22 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 09-28-2018, 02:18 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Indigo - 09-28-2018, 02:23 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-09-2018, 05:03 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-11-2018, 01:20 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Apollo - 10-11-2018, 02:43 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-11-2018, 09:35 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Reilyn-Alley - 10-11-2018, 02:53 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Miri - 10-11-2018, 05:27 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 10-12-2018, 11:24 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-15-2018, 05:51 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-16-2018, 11:24 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 10-17-2018, 02:25 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-29-2018, 12:10 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 10-29-2018, 10:08 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-29-2018, 01:10 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 10-31-2018, 11:29 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Matsuri - 11-02-2018, 02:14 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 11-02-2018, 12:09 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-02-2018, 12:20 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-04-2018, 07:49 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Reilyn-Alley - 11-04-2018, 09:12 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Matsuri - 11-05-2018, 01:18 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ashley - 11-05-2018, 01:50 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by JGC - 11-05-2018, 03:58 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Cat_ShadowGriffin - 11-07-2018, 03:13 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Breloomancer - 11-07-2018, 03:33 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-07-2018, 03:38 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-15-2018, 02:02 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Venomous - 11-15-2018, 02:26 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 11-15-2018, 03:36 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Cat_ShadowGriffin - 11-19-2018, 11:46 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 11-19-2018, 05:15 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-24-2018, 11:59 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 11-25-2018, 01:58 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 11-25-2018, 04:08 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-02-2018, 08:53 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 12-02-2018, 10:13 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-03-2018, 03:15 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by JGC - 12-03-2018, 03:38 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-03-2018, 12:18 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-10-2018, 06:27 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Apollo - 12-10-2018, 06:33 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-10-2018, 06:43 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 12-10-2018, 11:01 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-20-2018, 03:05 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 12-20-2018, 03:22 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Apollo - 12-20-2018, 07:20 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ember.Vesper - 12-21-2018, 07:58 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-22-2018, 01:17 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Cat_ShadowGriffin - 12-24-2018, 02:48 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-24-2018, 11:27 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 12-29-2018, 03:53 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Zia - 12-29-2018, 04:21 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 12-29-2018, 04:37 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 02-05-2019, 06:42 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Reilyn-Alley - 02-05-2019, 11:15 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 02-05-2019, 11:31 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ember.Vesper - 02-06-2019, 08:21 AM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Ranger - 02-06-2019, 01:10 PM
RE: Shadow Quest - by Bear - 02-06-2019, 03:15 PM

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