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Synsta's going HAM on the tulpa


synsta and Rylai

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This thread will be dedicated to my every day progress report. I have had insane procrastination issues, as well as massive doubt when it has come to visualizing, or any sort of active forcing. What brought me to this was this:bPxmYkq.jpg

 

When I saw my steam profile, I was furious and sad at the same time. All that time I could have dedicated to any sort of forcing, yet I chose to mess around on games when I could have easily visualized amazingly by now.

 

That all has ended today. I have uninstalled any and every thing relating to games on my computer, changed my steam password to something dumb and random so I'll have to contact support about it.

 

I have also thrown out all recreational drugs, and will stop all of them besides caffeine. I'm pretty sure they hindered any progress. I may do some psychedelics on the side, but for purely forcing reasons.

 

My goal here was to stop creating excuses, stop bumbling around and getting discouraged by progress, although I've done it in a bit of extreme measure.

 

The plan: I work 4-6 hours a day, half the time I am able to listen to music, and I'll be listening to e-books as much as I can, as well as passively imposing/forcing.

 

When I come home I'll have about ~10 hours to do various forcing, I plan to dedicate nearly all the free time I have, until I can visualize well enough for imposition.

 

Things I will be doing: I have a tablet/drawing materials that will be used daily, I will be buying a collection of books to read, meditation, and various other visualization little things.

 

On top of all this I will be lucid dreaming, performing reality checks throughout the day.

 

I also plan on daily walks, at least until summer starts and it's going to be hot out.

 

I will be updating daily, with timings and progress. I will be making the next post as I will be starting soon for ~2 hours.

 

It absolutely tears at me that I can't see or spend time with my tulpa, she's never greifed me for not forcing, and this is all of my own doing.

 

I made a commitment to her, I promised I would finish her so we could live the rest of our lives happily "married"

 

This will be an interesting undertaking for me, I've always been a gamer and didn't care for reading/drawing/meditation, but it's time things changed.

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