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System Nobody: One Year Later
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Whelp, yesterday was Esper's birthday. He is one year old. My system is one year old. Holy fuck. A whole year? Damn. 

It's been an experience. My system grew well beyond just Esper, and I've gotten some hate about that, but frankly, I wouldn't have it any other way. My system is a little unusual compared to others, for reasons I shan't elaborate upon. I wish I had kept better track of dates, though, because I only know for sure when Esper and Sean's birthdays are (October 2nd and December 25th). 

One year later and we still can't switch. Go figure. 

It's funny, I feel like I've always been seen as "the little kid" on .info, despite being only a touch younger than Bre. Unfortunately, this leads to what appears to be most other 'mancers giving me grief about my age. I've been given grief on here for a lot more than just my age though, which is why I tend to stay quiet. 

I don't talk about my system much and I sure as hell ain't gonna start now. I would always feel guilty about having so many people in System Nobody, and I hated it whenever people told me things like "merge some or dissipate some". Like, no. Wtf. And that seems to be part of the issue. I refuse to ignore/dissipate/merge a head-mate. The way my mind was before tulpamancy, there was a lot of potential thought-forms. The guilt of thinking that they may be sentient, waiting patiently, is a terrible feeling. So my system grew. A lot. To sixteen tulpae and myself, the host. 

Not to mention, my system is inter-romantic. Talking about that stuff is just... Weird. Embarrassing. My relationships with my tulpas are something I don't ever talk about for fear of being shunned. But, of course, that means that hardly anything gets recorded, and many things(like dates) are lost to memory. 

I find it interesting how many people on here appear to discourage me from telling others about tulpamancy. I get it may be your "deepest secret" or whatever, but for me, it's something I fell a lot of people would benefit from, or at very least, learn from. 

My immaturity has been the topic of many arguments on the discord and forums alike. And while I do understand it, I simply don't care. I will live my life my way and you will live yours the way you so choose. However, simply telling someone that their lifestyle is wrong is a terrible idea. You must try to learn from others, learn how they think, why they do what they do, et cetera. If we do not do this, we can never expand our own world, our own views. Understanding people is difficult. Impossible, really. Yet you must try. Tulpamancy has helped me see this. 

I will do as I please, and although that will end me up hurting someday, oh well. Concerning myself with matters like that is foolish. Take things as they come. Just roll with the punches. Stop regretting the past and worrying about the future so much, and focus on the now. Because it'll go fast. And you will never, ever be able to get it back. 

I love my system. I'm happy with the way things are. I've learned so much from everyone, both inside and outside of my system. I've made some bad choices, pissed off the wrong people, and you know what? I couldn't care less. If I end up in a prison, blood covering my face, so be it. I'll simply laugh. Worrying won't get me anywhere, and I refuse to conform. I'll be my own person through and through. My head-mates will always keep me in check, heh. 


So yeah. One year. I have no clue what I thought this PR would be, but here it is. And yes, technically I should've done this yesterday, but I was busy, so here ya' go. If you guys have any questions or anything, don't stray from asking me~ 

Have a good day~! 

-Bryan of System Nobody
The name's Bryan! In system Nobody(In order of the rainbow): 
Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, 
Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, and Zachery. 
I guess I have to talk... I practice Tulpamancy and Psionics, PM me for stuff related to that. I love Puyo Puyo(Look it up!). I exist and I like it like that. PM me for a random essay topic, or somethin'. 

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You have the most Progress Reports of anyone on the forum.

(10-03-2019, 05:56 PM)IceCreeper909 Wrote: I don't talk about my system much and I sure as hell ain't gonna start now.

You don't have to, but maybe you should keep the rare updates to one thread like everyone else

Also, technically several of us wished Esper a happy birthday in LOTPW lol, but happy birthday
Hi! I'm Lumi, host of Reisen, Tewi, Flandre and Lucilyn.
Everyone deserves to love and be loved. It's human nature.
My tulpas and I have a Q&A thread, which was the first (and largest) of its kind. Feel free to ask us stuff.
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(10-03-2019, 05:56 PM)IceCreeper909 Wrote: I find it interesting how many people on here appear to discourage me from telling others about tulpamancy. I get it may be your "deepest secret" or whatever, but for me, it's something I fell a lot of people would benefit from, or at very least, learn from. 

We tell a lot of people, though only for the sake of being openly ourselves, not for the sake of encouraging tulpa creation. But we're with you on dispelling the climate of secrecy that shrouds this community. Secrecy and shame only encourage the cultural stigmata against plurality.

-Vesper
Ember - Host   |   Vesper - Soulbond (since ~12 May 2017)   |   Iris - Soulbond (since ~5 December 2015)
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'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.' - The Velveteen Rabbit
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Pardon me. What secrecy, what shame? I am a relative newcomer, started the end of December 2018, and no one I have told, and that has been everyone that I know well enough to share intimacies with has had anything derogatory to say. Mostly, no one has heard of it, and most are interested and excited about what I have had to say. Now to be fair, I have not told the members of my Torah study group, as in Torah, Leviticus claims sorcery to be a great evil, actually it is mediums and spiritualists. personally, I think that much in Torah reflects the beliefs and ignorance  of the times. From my point of view all of what we do, and for that matter, all of magic, is a matter of psychology and brain function and doesn't in the slightest detract from my attitudes or devotion to my Judaism. Not only does not detract, but is an assist, as in my practice at least (and in many of those that post here) the practice facilitates our ability to love. As far as I can see all of religion is about just that, loving.
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