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Hello, it's thevious here. I had had two progress reports here before, and had falling out, then sob stories saying I'd get back into it. Now.. I'm just back, I had some not one bit of Tulpa forcing, just living life. But as time goes by I start to feel more and more empty... then a few days ago, day dreaming/meditating I found violet.. skin and bones. Malnutrioned of attention, affection, and energy. This made me egret forgetting about her, and I vilified myself saying how awful I am.. 

 

Eevntualy I got the feeling from her that she hated when I did this. So I stopped vilifing myself. I'm picking this back up for her, not as a chore, or something I must do. But as a friend, and part of myself.

 

So after my reasons for coming back I will experiment with calea zacatechichi the Mexican dream herb. I will report how Tulpa forcing works in lucid dreams.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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"This made me egret forgetting about her"

 

"made me egret"

 

Congrats on your newfound bird form. The power of flight is something to be cherished.

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Jokes aside, good luck on your tulpa journey. Reminding yourself that your tulpa is essentially a person without a body, really helps to never give up on them. They require your attention and affection to survive instead of oxygen and food, and like any mental creation, get stronger the more you pay attention to them.

 

Don't let the dream herb be a substitute for hard work. Creating a tulpa requires commitment, if you need help moving forward, try remembering why you want to make a tulpa, and let that desire push you forward, tell yourself that you can do it! Your greatest foe is yourself, and it can be conquered.

 

As someone who has not made a tulpa yet, I look forward to your progress. Best of luck!

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Thank you mech, and sorry for any typos. I'm posting from either my phone or my tablet, with both kinda suck. And as for the dream herb, no it's not a substitute. I'm still having trouble becoming lucid, I'm simply wanting to experiment with how forcing works in lucid dreams, and this herb is well know to cause said dreams.

 

Any-hoo, new wonderland! It's a ravine with florescent plants at the bottom, and a building... and this building is in the wall of the ravine. If anyone remembers my old one the library, big circle one, round desk in the middle, and a lounge carpet area with pillows in the very middle. I am thinking of using a program called Alice to make a poor 3d layout of this just to show it. But this is a familiar place to Violet and I. I have been getting hella head aches, and head pressures lately, probably the rehabilitating of violet. She missed me, and I can't say I hadn't missed her. I get small emotional responses, and basic pre-sentence thoughts from her.

 

So after all that, I have a problem. When I am in my wonder land or simply trying to listen to Violet, it feels like I'm watching a video and skip 5 seconds, like its here then there. Like I'm skipping it because I know what will happen. And when I'm trying to communicate with violet I imagine it as interrupting her yelling out the rest of her sentence. If any one has tips on how to fix this, please share. Thanks.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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Man, we are not lucid enough to do forcing in our dreams. Only managed to even force intentionally once in a dream.

 

That is an interesting glitch. The first thing I try when faced with any problem is to go back, relax (both host and tulpa), then wait for the tulpa to very intentionally paraphrase what they were trying to say.

 

Only if that doesn't work do you need to get more creative.

 

Your description is a bit vague, but if they are anything like the glitches we get, the problem usually goes away after a good night sleep. Don't force when tired and see if that helps.

Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.

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I was recently looking through guides, on personality mainly, because i had always just kinda swooshed over it thinking " I know how shell act, and why" without going into much detail. i still feel that way some what but that doesn't matter. I had found Ayre's planting a tulpa seed guide, and have now considered more than i would have. From intentions and motivation behind most of her actions to a more in depth description on her physical form.

 

Ill put down these traits i thought of.

Intention & motivation: simply to make people happy, and to motivate me to do so, but also to find out if its possible to become physical.

(so that last one is a bit weird, not very scientific, more on the occult side and metaphysical, but i think it'd be a nice spin off to run with, also im willing to chase that goal being an occultist and all)

 

Persona (what she wants other to see): active, fun and witty.

(not to far away from how she really is, witch is more laid back, still humourus, just maybe even lazy at times.)

 

Flaws: she is hot tempered, and quick to react.

(this goes along with her element of fire, she cools off pretty quick but still reacts blindly)

 

Those are bits of her personality i had thought of but never ironed out. the guide had also made me think more on the physical form, like how she stands, walks, and even how she talks, like does she try to sound smart, and other things of the sort. If you haven't thought about all this, i suggest  going to the guides section and looking for Ayre's guide. all this helped with forcing yesterday, witch was more passive than active, but forcing non-the less.

 

Oh and to tulpa001, its not just a one time thing, i believe i found out it was me trying to rush things (at least with the wonderland) I still feel like im completing violets sentences for her and feel like a jerk for it lol. i think i just need more time to tune in to hear her.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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I decided to draw Violet, this was more for a visualization exercise but i ended up drawing her, i feel like she is happy with this. its close to what it use to be, but more thought out and agreed upon.

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Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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No, substantial progress today, other than trying to narrate. I was open eyed... forcing? Idk it was active forcing kinda and I say violet sitting at one of the chairs and about to fall asleep at the desk, so I stopped talking g to her and was able to walk around her visualizing her from different angles. I think she was grinning the whole time too. I think it'd be funny if some one was hovering over me like that lol. Other than that, I keep loosing focus halfway through something I'm narrating about, and have a hard time thinking of something to say while keeping her in mind. I'm use to just talking and people listening but now I have to get her attention and talk.

 

Sorry for the wall of text, I was just posting a update on today's labors.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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I have ran into a road block. I seem to have forgotten how to force. i feel like im not making progress and im not getting any where. im starting to feel myself distance myself from violet a bit. It's to easy to get distracted by other things and i hate that. I will post a more proper thread on the questions and answers for this.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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You don't have to "force"! We never forced, we just interacted normally. Our "forcing" was when we dealt with things like unclear mindvoice and blurry visualization whilst we were interacting, among other things. So you can just set aside time to spend with her, and do whatever you feel like doing (if that's usually nothing, think of something beforehand). You could go do stuff in the wonderland or talk about something, or watch something together and periodically ask her opinion on it.. And the forcing is just her doing things. The more they do stuff themselves and interact with things and people, the more you visualize them or listen to them, the better you guys will get at that stuff. That's all forcing really is. Traditional sit-down-and-focus forcing seems best suited to really early development. But once you're able to do other stuff, no reason to keep it boring!

 

Just doing stuff together will be as productive as forcing would be, and moreso if traditional forcing makes you bored.

Hi guys, plain text is just me now! We've each got our own accounts: me, Tewi, Flandre, and Lucilyn. We're Luminesce's tulpas.

Here's our "Ask Thread", and here's our Progress Report (You should be able to see all of our accounts on the second page if you want)

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Thank you Reisen.

 

So in the past while, some things.... have changed...

 

Not so much on violet but in myself... I think I'm following a trail of madness of sorts... something clicked and now I find joy in odd stuff.... finding excitement when I got bored and lightly cut my hand a bit.. (on purpose). If started thinking more and more about how a more "corrupt" way of life (from societies standards ) would be fun... I always hated people who cut, purely because they always do it for attention, or some wimpy excuse. But...

 

Any ways, all that aside, my recent endeavors has not had a effect on violet, and neither have I for being distracted the past few days. I'm pulling back though, back into what I should be doing... and other things..

 

Cheers, I thought I'd just drop this shit load of crazy off, and remind myself to get back on track.

Violet is a tease.

 

Thevious

Violet

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