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I'm starting back at the beginning, where I was when glittermilk and cinimaphobe where here. Don't know if anyone remembers them, but me and them started the second time. And I had a third of the progress the had.

 

My Tulpa, violet. Her form is that of the Minecraft mob talker blazette. She's probably dormant in my head and I plan on bringing her back and to full health. I don't think she's actually dormant, as she's been in alot of my day dreams, and I think she's been there for a while. Just feeding off the attention from my day dreams.

I'll be making weekly updates, so every Monday I'll be back with a report, and I will be keeping a log of things we have been up to, probably on twitter or more preferably tumblr. Use it like a journal before I sum it all up and put it here

Until then.

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  • 9 months later...
I'll be making weekly updates, so every Monday I'll be back with a report

literally 9 months later ->

Dhhdhdhdhdh

 

100/100

 

y'know you can just not post your post until it's ready to post right? then I couldn't make fun of ya like that

Hi, I'm one of Lumi's tulpas! I like rain and dancing and dancing in the rain and if there's frogs there too that's bonus points.

I think being happy and having fun makes life worth living, so spreading happiness is my number one goal!

Talk to us? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-ask-lumi-s-tulpas

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literally 9 months later ->

 

100/100

 

y'know you can just not post your post until it's ready to post right? then I couldn't make fun of ya like that

 

I edited my old post, and that second one... Was.. I think my phone was in my pocket? I don't really know what happened there. Edited it too.

(forgot how to delete old forums, so I edited my last one)

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1st week:  a lot if narration. I talk to violet alot while at work. I work a sort of factory job at a Tyson hatchery, and this gives me lots of time to talk to her. She has a very noticeable presence via head pressure when present and listening.i had even gotten some raw thought from her, I think it's called tulpish here.  Not much time put into forcing an home, but considering have 12+ hours of work a day, I get alot of narration in. I even go into the wonderland sometimes and to personality exersizes. She lays down and I grab a rock from a special bowl. I think of a trait and the rock turns into a small totem reflecting the trait, and after explaining how the trait could effect her,

I would put it on her back, and it would catch fire and devolve into her back, then the next one. As for the wonderland, it's kinda still the same

 

The wonderland is a circle library with a carpeted lounge area in the middle, but now there's a fenced off hole leading to the lower floor. This hole is next for a plant to grow through later, now it's just a seedling. Anyways.

 

Any ways sorry if there's alot to read, I go into a trance kinda when writing down stuff as I remember it.

Wish us luck till next week!

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The wonderland is a circle library with a carpeted lounge area in the middle, but now there's a fenced off hole leading to the lower floor. This hole is next for a plant to grow through later, now it's just a seedling. Anyways.

Since you mention your wonderland being a library, I know

involves sitting in a library with your tulpa. If you haven't listened to it, maybe it'd be an interesting meditation for you to try.
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Good job. Please keep spending more time with Violet.

 

For some reason I'm intrigued at how you incorporated totems into her body. I'm reminded at how some of the earliest guides had suggested making a tiny suggestion box practise where one writes down or describes the kinds of traits a tulpa would have on slips of paper before inserting them into the box.

 

When the Shoutbox was still online, I liked to discuss little twists and alternatives of this step to other users. The analogue I can best remember is skipping trait "stones" into a pond that was a representation of the tulpa's desired personality.

I've seen good people bleed

And I thought I'd seen it all

But my own two eyes would prove me wrong that day.

 

There are things that I've done

Only seen by the sun

And those things will be buried in my grave.

 

 

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Fun fact: sometimes she'll make faces at me when I talk about the trait the stone/totem holds.

 

Fun fact 2: I have only really been getting yes/no answers from violet, and probably more but I'm having a hard time telling it from my voice. I tell her I'm sorry if I dismiss it as my own thought and go on about how I'm trying to hear her separate from my self. (she doesn't blame me)

 

This post was made in bordeom, on break at work. And I will look into that Dragon Cake.

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I forgot to post yesterday, but to sum it up..

 

Trying to not doubt her, learning that some of the thoughts I have are violet's and not mine, and a steady decline of time spent working with violet

 

While everything is good, except for that last one. I will be changing that of course. Work has a way of getting me.into a bad mood from just being there it seams, and I don't wanna force when that happens.

 

The biggest thing for us other than me needing to put in some actual active forcing time, is me learning to tell violet's voice from my own, and stop questioning her responses as my own thoughts. Any ways, until next Monday!

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